Meant to be but will never be

Seventeen

“ you look Beautiful, Tammy” he smiled opening the car door for me we were already on the porch restaurant where I was sure I wouldn’t even afford the water there, it was a very exclusive place and you had to book in advance to even get in, I knew about it because Derick, our manager always talked about them, how they were our sworn enemies but today I happy to be there with Dean he seemed changed from the man I met earlier but his cocky nature still there and I hated cocky man but I couldn’t help but be drawn to him, I knew it sounded crazy but I liked him

“ Thank you” I said taking his offered hand to get out of the car, leading me to the front entrance where the was a nice lady waiting in the reception area, and she blushed when she saw us

“Claire, how are you” said Dean smiling back and my stomach turned, I didn’t like the way she was looking at him

“ Dean, you finally made it, I really thought you were declining my invitation” she smiled and the thought that she was the one who invited him here didn’t sit well with me, so the reason I’m here was because if her, this date was already turning in to a bad idea fast

“ Thank you, I hope you don’t mind but James couldn’t make it so I came with my wife” he said pulling me closer to him, and I saw her smile fade, and mine wide, this was the first time I was happy to hear him all me his wife, she soon send us to our table, and she was nit happy at all but I was happy and we spend the rest of the night without seeing her face until it was time to go, where she was pouting but I was happy until I saw the rain outside, it was pouring and it was nit abgojd condition to drive in, and I was not going inside the car in the rain like that I was breathing hard, the thought if going into the car got to me but I didn’t realise I was even shaking until Dean arms covered mine his voice soothing, I was having a panic attack just outside the restaurant

“breath Tammy, breathe can you hear me” and I nodded trying to breathe but it was difficult

“concentrate on my finger do you see my finger” I nodded still shaking trying to breathe but it was getting harder the last time I had a panic attack was after my parents funeral,

“ how many fingers I out up now” he said and struggled to look until I finally saw them

“ two” I finally answered

“ Good now, look for the ring search for the ring you out on my finger” he whispered still holding me tighter, and I did as he said and I didn’t realise I was finally breathing in my own and the shaking also stopped as I was looking at the platinum ring I could never afford

“ Thank you” I whispered now embarrassed my cheeks red, what wrong with me, I couldn’t even out it together for one day

“are you okay now?” I nodded in his arms and he turned the other way not going into the garage

“where are we going?”

“there is a hotel upstairs, we are going to stay there for the night at least the rain would have stopped in the morning” I wanted to fight but the thought if driving home in this weather was even more frightening, so I nodded while he led us there and booked us a room, I was terrified yet excited to spend a night with him, already brushing my legs together I was really a horny little thing want I?