Bitten twice shy (the change series 3 )

Chapter 6: Wolves, forests and crickets

Trick

I still couldn’t believe Molly had survived the change, she seemed to have good control over herself too, usually it took practice, but she was such a softie even as a wolf, I wasn’t surprised, she had such a big heart and nothing was going to change that, even being a werewolf.

Part of me wondered if it was her autism, she was able to see the world differently, and I wondered if that helped with the wolf. I knew there were going to be challenges though, the sensory overload during her change had literally killed her, she had become overwhelmed and had a meltdown, couldn’t focus on anything else, the change was still tearing its way through her, and she was fighting against it, her heart had stopped beating, I had gone through some s.hit in my life, but never had I been as terrified then I was during that moment, my whole world died before my very eyes and even as Grayson was trying to revive her I was wondering how I would join her if she didn’t come back, it had been such a dark thought and the depths of my feelings for her scared me.

I looked behind me at Molly, she seemed fine at the moment, the forest was quiet except for nature so it didn’t seem to be bothering her too much, I didn’t know if smells affected people with autism in a positive way, I knew Molly hated the smell of people smoking or the smell of certain fish being cooked, she didn’t like spicy scents either, but she seemed to enjoy the forest, to an obsessive level, she was literally sniffing everything, the floor, the leaves , she even went over to a tree and sniffed the bark, and then she recoiled from it.

I laughed to myself, I enjoyed watching her happily explore, she enjoyed the simple things, little things that I wouldn’t notice on a daily basis. I gave her half an hour before my hunger kicked in, I nudged her to follow me, she did, but she would get distracted by every little smell, some smells she loved and she would be sniffing the same berries or the same leaf for five minutes until I nudged her to focus and move on.

I saw three rabbits ahead and growled at her more firmly to concentrate now. She lowered her eyes, giving me the literal expression of puppy dog eyes and even my wolfish instincts couldn’t stop me from nuzzling her to comfort her and let her know I wasn’t mad.

I got into position and waited for her to copy me, then I slowly edged forward, I kept moving silently, and when I was close enough to run out, Molly got distracted and started sniffing some berries she found in the bush beside us, the noise she made from snuffling and making the bushes rustle scared of the rabbits and I growled in frustration.

Molly might have more control over her wolf side, but the rest of us didn’t, I still was very much wolf minded in this form, more than human minded, I turned on Molly and snapped at her baring my fangs, she whimpered and lowered herself to the ground with her ears pinned back, I gave her another growl and ran off to find more food.

The same thing happened again, and I snapped at her nicking her side, she whimpered and rolled onto her back submitting to me and I stood over her, I remembered how I had upset Natasha when I had corrected her for accidentally bleeding me in a play fight, I didn’t want to upset Molly, and even as the wolf I knew she was my mate, so I let her up and licked her cheek. It took a while but with a lot of nudging her into place I let her know I wanted her to stay here while I went and got some food myself.

I finally managed to catch some rabbits and came back with two in my mouth, I tossed one at her feet and she recoiled from it.

I nudged it towards her with my nose, but she backed away. This time I did growl threateningly, I had to because I knew how fussy she was with food, and she couldn’t be like that with raw meat, she had to eat it if she wanted to stay in control of herself and not suffer the nasty side effects, like losing control and waking to find you’ve eaten a bunch of humans.

She whimpered and cried, but I growled louder and snarled, she slowly inched towards the rabbit and with the front of her teeth she barely touched the meat, I stood there watching her and growling until eventually, she started eating properly, once she realised it tasted nice to us as wolves she ate more hungrily, thank f***k because I would hate to have to scare and threaten her into doing it every time.

When she was done I gave her my rabbit too, she was very much an omega wolf and as her second in command I should eat first, but she was also my mate, so I made sure she ate and was provided for, I could eat another time.

She ate half of the second rabbit and then carried it in her mouth and brought it over to me, she was a good mate already, I licked her muzzle in thanks and ate the rest. When we were done I led her deeper into the forest so we could run.

It was no surprise Molly was as clumsy in wolf form as she was in human, when we ran she tripped over a tree branch and went spiraling across the floor and ended up in a sprawled heap with her nose under the leaves.

Inwardly sighing I went over and checked her over, but she was fine, we ran again but within five minutes she skidded and slipped on some leaves and her legs went flying out from under her like f.ucking skittles.

The third time, oh yeah, she was still going, she was running beside me and I turned left, but she thought we were going right, and she crashed into me sending us tumbling across the floor and landing in an entwined heap.

Getting up I shook myself off and decided to leave running for another day, she wanted to play with me, she jumped on my back and bit the scruff of my neck, I played back and managed to pin her, she wriggled out from under me and standing on her hind legs she put her paws either side of me and bit down on my ear, her fangs cut me, and she quickly backed away when blood dripped onto the floor.

If it had been anyone else I would have corrected them harshly, but I let Molly off and nuzzled her to let her know it was ok. In the end I had enough human intelligence in me to forget about running or hunting and decided to just let her enjoy herself, I joined in with sniffing things and chasing crickets, it was silly and childish but f***k it, if it made her happy I’d do it.

After hours being out here I let her know it was time to change back, and I saw the fear on her face. I led her to somewhere private to change and nuzzled her a little while until she was calm and ready to do it, she had done it once so I knew she’d be ok now.

I found my own spot and began the painful process, the last bit was always the worst, like you literally wanted to f.ucking die from the pain, thankfully it didn’t last any longer than five minutes.

I was sweating when I was done and went out to find Molly. Pulling on my sweatpants I called out, “you ok sweetheart?”

I heard movement and rustling, heard her cry out in pain, she wasn’t quite done yet. “You can do it, babe, I’m right here with you.”