CURSED 1

CHRIS

***PENELOPE’S P.O.V***

I am very happy about how beautiful Pearl's relationship is. I mean, I just wonder how good it is, how fabulous they both are together.

“I am glad that you have such a great boyfriend who understands you so much,” I said, and then I smiled at them.

“Thanks Penelope, you are right that I am very lucky that I have him.”

Pearl said, looking at him and being close to him, they both were so good that anyone could admire their love and everything for them.

“No, I am the one who is the lucky man over here. You do not get that I am happy that you are a part of my life, Pearl.”

“Awww you are so cute Derek, by the way, we have classes, so let’s go, Penelope.”

Myra said made and then we both made our way to classes.

Now I have to act with Devin. I don’t like looking at him, but now I have to act. God knows what I will do. I just don’t get it at all.

“What are you thinking, Penelope?”

“Nothing. I was. I just don’t know what to say. I was just thinking that how come we would be able to tolerate him would be very tough for me.”

I said and then she put a hand on my shoulder. “Don’t stress yourself about that. Look at me. I am here. What else will happen? Yes, definitely, he is weird, but don’t worry at all, okay dear.”

Myra said. I smiled at her and then hugged her. “You know what, I am glad that you are my friend. I mean, I was just so upset but now I am good.”

We were both just talking when I came back to my hostel.

A few days had passed, and I have just told you that he is not exactly as bad as you. He thought about himself. He is a good man.

We were both practising when he said “hey your dialogue.”

“Yeah:” I was zoning out on him just thinking about how perfect he is and how come he can be like that.

I said in my dialogue “I am so happy with both of you. I mean just look at you both, just so perfect and good. I am so happy about this. It was a great decision to have you both in this play.”

Pearl said and then came and hugged us. I smiled at her “Thakd.”

“No, I should be thanking you both. It was just a killer.”

I smiled at her. I looked at Devin, who was like he didn’t care about it all at all. I don’t know what is just wrong with this man.

It was just happening when I thought that I should practise for the next scene for which I was ready to go on the stairs. I was just climbing when my legs shook up and I just fell.

I landed on his arms. I don’t know how come it’s always him in whose arms I just landed on his arms.

I looked at him. I was just looking at him, “Don’t you want to get down?”

“Penelope, what happened to you? Can you please just tell me what it is?”

How come he is so caring and he is so humble when, on the other hand, he just acts like it’s nothing between us?

He tries to be away from me as much as he can and then, on the other hand, he does stuff so that I can be safe. What are you Devin, what are you in my life?

“What the yell god, you have been hurt so much. I just could not believe that.”

“I am fine, Pearl. I am absolutely fine. Just look at me. I am great.”

I said, then she looked at my leg. Devin looked at my leg and then said “You need to take a rest, it’s not gonna heal quickly.”

Then I looked at him and Pearl. “No, it’s going to heal soon, I know that is my body.”

“Atleast 2 or 3days it’s a sprain.” He just said it and then left. Oh god, 2 or 3 days, I umm

“I am sorry, Pearl, but you should not worry. I will be fine.”

“Are you mad or what I am completely fine, I just want you to be in good shape that’s it, and I am sorry I should have checked the ladders it’s weak it’s all cause of me.”

“No no, nothing is because of you. It’s because I was clumsy. I should not have climbed but it’s okay, I am good.” I was just talking to Pearl when Myra and Chris came and then they looked at me.

“Hey, what’s up? Why are you sitting like this?” Myra asked me. I looked at her and then said

“She got hurt. She fell from that ladder and got sprained. She is in so much pain right now because of me.”

Pearl said" no I am fine", “No, I am absolutely fine. She is just stressing out because of nothing. Look at me. I am good, I am absolutely fine.”

I said, then Chris came and then looked at my ankle. “Auchhh.”

Someone was saying that they were fine. Why can’t I see that “I am good?”

“Just forget that we are taking her home. She needs rest and she can’t be left alone.”

“No I can’t. I have not been to the hostel since. A while if I do not go now also, then it will be over too. I just don’t get the idea because of that, I am not sorry guys.”

I said. I can’t go there. I mean every second day I am just going there, which is just not what I want. “No you are and that is final. Just look at yourself, you need someone who will take care of you and you are coming with us. That’s it.”

“I am sorry, Myra, but”

“No, but all of you are hurt because I was so irresponsible. Please just come, that’s all that I want please.”

I looked at Pearl, who wanted me to come. Then if she wanted that, then, alright, I would say “Okay don’t blame yourself, I will come.”

I tried to get up when Chris held me up in bridal style and then took me to his car. He placed me in it and then sat on the driver's seat.

He dropped me and Myra and Pealr back at their house. We were all just sitting. When he stopped the car, he opened the door and then took me up in bridal style.

“Chris, it’s okay. I am good. Let me go. I will walk by myself. What will everyone think, everyone” I said, as if it was sort of awkward.

“Nothing is going to be awkward if you are hurt and that is enough, plus he loves you. What more do you want?”

Myra said, I just blushed. I mean, I just don’t know how I should be reacting to what way I should be reacting.

He took me in when my aunt looked at me. “Hello Chris, hello Penelope, are you okay dear, what is it?”

Aunt asked us. Chris put me on the couch and then said “She got a sprained ankle.”

“Yes mom, she fell from that birdy stair that she built because of which this happened.”

“Ohh god just show me show show.” She said and then came and looked at my ankle. She put on spray and then gave me some fruit salad to eat.

“I don’t want you to have a pain killer, it’s gonna take a few days. It will be fine.” She said, then I looked at her.

“No problem, aunty, I am absolutely fine.” I said as I was just having my fruit salad.

“So how is the preparation going on for the drama?”

“It’s going well dad, it’s absolutely fine. Penelope just got a little bit hurt.”

“Ohh god you know you kids are just sometimes a little bit careless. You both should take care of that.”

I know how much Myra and Penelope love him and I am happy about that, but at the same time, I just know that things are not gonna be okay as they have to be.

He is my father but he is not. He left mom when she needed him the most. I wish that I could say something but I just could not. I know how painful it is for mom when she usually says this and cries for this man the whole day.

“Yes Dad, that’s why I just brought her over here, so that she can rest.”

“Absolutely, definitely, we just want not to think about anything else, realize that we are your family and that is it.”

I wish that I could be happy about that, but I just can’t be. You can never be family.

I had just got to the hostel when the warden stopped me. “Penelope, wait, I want to have a word with you.”

I stopped and then looked at her. I just hoped that everything hoped I didn’t want anything to be wrong. “Yes mam.”

“Penelope, I know that you are friends with Myra and Chris and for a few days you have not come back and have not even considered anything.”

“Mam, actually I was at Myra’s place. My leg got hurt so I was just right.”

“ I know that that’s why I took this risk. I know that he is a great man and he is going to be a great man and a good decision that I made.”

I say when I actually don’t have any idea at all, “Don’t think a lot about that. Get it. It’s going to be completely fine.”

“I know, but sometimes because of what happened, I was all alone, so it just felt that I should just be alone for the rest of my life.”

“It’s because that man left you. It’s not his fault.”

“I know, but sometimes I just forget it.”

I said to the man whom she was saying, it’s no one else. the one who is her father. I don’t know what not to say because the only thing that I know is just this, only that he is not the one I need.

I am with Chris, so I am going to do it all completely and I am going to be his girlfriend.

I just said it to myself, then we both fell asleep.

Next day

I woke and then tried to move my leg but it up still paining, so Pearl said that I should be resting rather than wasting my energy.

“Do you need something? Dear here, look at me. If you need anything, then just let me know OK, I am here for you.”

Aunt said, and because of me, Myra also didn’t go to college. God, they are all people. So great many

How we used to be. I don’t know why this man even left my mother for what she is if she had always been with him.

“So your partner is going to come soon and then he wants to spend some time with you.”

“But Myra.”

“Ohh come, I can leave you both for a while alone in this room because I trust you and about mom, she is going out with me. She wants to buy something, so I am going to accompany her.”

She said, Chris and Chris are alone. I just don’t know how come I will be able to have it all to myself in front of him.

“Don’t think it’s going to be fine.”

“I am scared. I mean I just don’t know what to do and what not to do.” She came close to me and then said.

“Just relax, okay, and don’t you worry about anything at all. Get that one thing that is pretty clear is that he loves you and if it means being a little cosy, then please be that.”

“But Myra.”

“Relax, okay, everything is going to be great.”

She just said it and then left. I don’t know what I will be doing. I just have no idea about it at all.

I was just sitting in bed when the door opened. “Heklo Penelope, I hope that you are well.”

He said as he went inside, and then looked at my feet.

“Yup, it’s good. Just a little bit of pain, that’s all.”

“Don’t worry about that at all, it’s going to be fine.”

I smiled at him. What else am I supposed to say? I don’t know, but the only thing that I know is just this, that. I don’t know if he will come close. Then what will I do?

He was just sitting in front of me “, so I would just think I was. We are in a relationship, but I can’t even go out. I can’t even take you out.”

“Yes, unfortunately, this happened to my legs.”

“It’s alright. Nothing that I want is that you should be fine.”

He said it, then I started to lock down I was just thinking about it when I looked at him. “Would you like to have something?”

“No, not interested. I am interested in something. By the way, I have brought a lot of stuff for you to eat. You can have all this.”

I smiled at him as he gave me all the good. I am happy with all the food. I mean it is just good to have the whole food thing.

“Would you like to see something” he asked, then I nodded at him. He put on Netflix and then came and sat next to me. We were both close enough. Then he got on the blanket. I don’t have any idea what I will be saying to it and what not.

He was just next to me when he held my hand and then started to play with it. Then his hands went down to my thighs. He pressed them tightly and then to my waist. He made me look at him and then he kissed me. I wanted to pull back, but if I did that it was going to be wrong, super wrong, and I didn’t want that at all.

“Are you okay?” He asked me. I nodded at him.

“Yes I am completely fine.” I said, then he started to kiss me passionately and then went on my neck, he. He goes down. He removed my top and then his shirt.

He kept on sucking and kissing every part of my body until he stopped and then looked at me. “It’s going to be fine, I am here.”

He said climbed on top of me. He removed my pants and then opened his pants. He positioned himself and then, slowly, went inside, he started to thrust.

“Fuck.” He was inside me. This pain. I just can’t believe this is what is happening.

“Ahhhh.”

“You feel so good Penelope.” He kept on thrusting and then kept on pumping as fast as he could.

“It’s going to be good,” he said as we both looked into each others eyes. I have never done this and as it’s happening I am able to feel the pain. I just don’t like that.

Maybe I was not ready for this, he was just having it. He sucked on my neck and then on my breast.

He kept on pumping, until he cummed on me, “fuck.”

He rested his head and then, swift on the side, he kept on looking at me. “You know what, Penelope, you are the best gift that I could have gotten and I am absolutely stunned by it.”

I just have no idea about it. The only thing that I know is just this, only that I am so in love with this girl that I can stay like this for the rest of my life and I will just never regret that ever in my life.

“Thanks Chris, no one has ever said something like this to me, anything and you are giving me thanks a lot for that. It just means a lot and I am very happy you think so much for me.”

“You don’t know your importance, Penelope. I never felt this. I know all this but I never felt love.” He said. I smiled at him. It feels nice to hear that, but at the same time there are still a lot of questions and confusion around

“Thanks Chris, I will always be thankful that you are a part of my life and I will always be grateful that you are. That’s all that I know.”

“I am happy that you think that way and don’t you worry. I will always make sure that you are happy. I will never make you sad and that is my promise to you.”

“And I know that you will. Thank it honestly. Thanks, for being, for me, Chris, this whole new place, and then you and Myra. I just got a home that I never had.” I said while resting my head on his chest have It feels good, but now that is wonderful. I don’t know what it is that’s inside my head going on, but I definitely just know one thing. That I am happy he is good.

I was just resting on it without even realising. When I fell asleep, I woke up and then saw him. Then I looked at my phone as it was vibrating. I immediately picked him up.

ON PHONE CALL

*Yes Myra*

*Where were you? I called you three times. We will be home in half an hour, so make sure that Chris is gone okay.* I looked at him

* Yeah, I will thank you for telling me.*

*No issues, okay, bye.*

*Bye.*

END OF PHONE CALL

I said, then I looked at Chris who was sleeping peacefully. Honestly, I don’t want to wake him up at all, not even a bit. I just don’t like that, but I have to or else they will be home.

I went close to him and then kissed him on his forehead. “Chris, wake up.”

I said, then he slowly opened his eyes and then looked at me. “Yes umm sorry I just slept off, are you, is everything alright?”

“Yes, everything is alright. Actually, you have to leave Myra and aunt will be here any minute or so.”

“No issue.” He got up from the bed and then wore his clothes and I wore mine. I never felt this way. I mean I am a woman now. I smiled at him. He came and then kissed me on the lips.

“Bye.”

“Bye.” He just left and then I was sitting in the bed wondering what had just happened. The thing that I never thought would happen had just happened.

He left and then, in a while, Myra and Aunt came. “How are you Penelope?”

Aunt asked me as she came in and sat in front of me. “Yes aunt, I am completely fine.”

I said," I am glad that she cares so much for me". I can never thank you more than that, for that “This is for you.”

She pulled out a packet and then gave it to me. I looked at her and then at it, Aunty, I didn’t need it at all.”

“How come you can say that it was not needed at all, it was absolutely needed. I went shopping and, honestly, I just loved this dress for you.”

She said and then told me" I am honestly very happy she is a very sweet woman. “Thanks aunty.”

“So what is going on over here?”

“Nothing, mom is just pampering her favourite look, what she brought for her.”

Myra said and then showed him the dress. “That’s very beautiful. It would look gorgeous on you, Penelope, and what about you? I am absolutely sure that you would have to buy some sort of weird stuff for yourself.”

He said," I don’t know about that. I do hate him, but there is actually a thing that I like about him. It is that he is a good man. He loved his family in this one and that was great.

“Dad, I loved it' comin'to stop saying like that, you know that.”

“OK, what can we do when we already have a girl like you who is so into it all, but that’s absolutely fine by the way, Penelope, how is your leg? Your leg is?”

He asked. I looked at him and then smiled at him. “It’s absolutely fine uncle.”

“That is great.”

We were all just talking for a while when everyone went out of the room. “So tell me what happened.”

“What do you mean by that?”

“Ohh god you know that very well. What do I mean? I am asking about him. What is it, what his reaction was and how it went, what you both did.”

“We both did nothing.”

“Ohh god, how come you both have not done anything? Don’t lie to me, at least do tell me the truth.”

“OK fine, the truth is this, yes, we both had it. I mean I don’t know how, but we just did it.”

I told her she had come and sat next to me. God, I am so happy you know what. I just knew that it would happen and saw it just happened, so are you happy or not?

“Yes I am Chris, he is a very nice guy.”

“That definitely he is, but you are the greatest girl that he could get and that is what he knows and he should remember for the rest of his life.”

“No, that’s not it.”

“Common Penelope, I am telling you the truth. Only I am not lying to you and you will have seen it in his eyes that he cares for you and just loves you.”

The care the love that she is talking about, it’s just that I don’t know about it. I know that I am wrong. I am absolutely wrong, but at the same time, I do feel that it’s just not what I want or what I want.

I mean, I am with Chris, but deep down my heart is just telling me that I have to do it at any cost. I just don’t have any other choice at all. This feeling forboseme else is just wrong absolutely wrong,

“Look at me, what happened? What are you thinking? Are you not happy with Chris?”

Myra asked me, “No that is not the case, actually. I just wanted to mean all this and everything is just so soon that I don’t know at all.”

“Penelope, it's okay. I know about being away from family and everything, but you know that you can trust me. Nothing is going to happen and just trust me. He is not like what has never been but he is trying his best for you.”

I smiled at her. What I am supposed to tell you, Myra, is why I am panicking. The reason is because I don’t know what I am doing and why I am doing things just doesn’t feel right to me right now. It just feels that I should not do this.

“So is everything alright and just give your relationship some time, then you will yourself see how drastically it has grown into this beautiful one and trust me, it’s going to be the best one.”

I nodded at her. “Sure, I believe that Chris will make me feel that way.”

I just said I really wanted Chris to succeed in making me feel that way. It’s going to be good. I just don’t want to do anything wrong at all. I don’t want to hurt him.

“Now I think that we should sleep.”

“Yeah sure.”

I just said and then lay down in the bed I was sleeping when I saw

IN DREAMS

“Hello, so how is my little princess?”

I ran towards my father with joy as I saw him. “I am fine dad. I missed you so much.”

I said as I was in his arms, “I missed you for my love. I have been missing you all along.”

He said and then I kissed him on his cheek “Thank you Dad for coming to my birthday.”

I am glad that he came and he is here with us now. “How did I come when it was your birthday, my sweet heart's birthday?”he said, and then we both went inside.

Mom saw us. And then she took me in her arms and put me down. “Baby, please go and play outside in the garden.”

She said, then I ran and went to the park, then I realised that I wanted my Phasing kit I was going in. I was standing at the door. I only just hid so that I was not visible, but I could clearly hear their conversation.

“What is it you have to do this today? It’s her birthday?”

“I wish that you had thought about being staying there with them. Do you know what I am going through, how I am facing her daily and the whole world? I am just lying and what you are doing. You have a whole different family there and we are here alone.”

“Who told you that you were alone? How many times do I have to tell you that I am there for you and her? She is my daughter. I love her a lot. Why do you think that I will not leave her at all?”

I just know it all, that’s “Why I. feel that it’s not what you want. The only thing is that you are selfish. You are happy to be with them and that is the reason why you are just not ready at all to leave them.”

“I am sorry, but I can’t leave them, but I have decided that I am going to you and my daughter. Just give me some time.” Mom started to cry and then sat on the floor.

“How long for all these years have I just waited for you to take us, now it has become very hard to bear?”

END OF DREAM

“Daddy.” I just don’t know what I was thinking at all. I just thank god it was a dream.

“Penelope, what happened? are you okay?”

Myra asked me as she looked at me sweating and panicked, “I am good, I am perfectly fine, it was just a dream.”

“God I was so scared, looking at you. Do you want to share something?”

“It was just umm, when Dad left I was just small, he just left us and never came back.”

I told her. She hugged me. “It’s okay, it is completely alright. You don’t have to worry about it at all. I am here. Chris is her mom's dad. Everyone is over here. You don’t have to worry about anything at all. Just relax. Don’t worry.”

She said," I am fine. I am completely fine with this dream. I have to be calm and composed.

“Myra, bow we should sleep. I have disturbed your sleep and am sorry for that.”

I said," I don’t know what had happened to me. did that. I was thinking about it again. I have to avoid it. I have to avoid his presence. Also, I just can’t be like that. I can’t be weak and vulnerable.

“You sure, cause if you want, that we can have coffee or you can watch Netflix.”

“No, I am good. I am absolutely fine now. We should sleep and thank you so much for being there for me.”

I said, then she smiled at me. “Oh god, why do you think that I am boring? I am not okay and, by the way, you are right, you should sleep. They will only have a glow tomorrow to meet Chris. He would love to see you in a beautiful dress. What say?”