Slate has been distancing himself from us and every time he does that, there's a pang of pain hitting my chest. I've been questioning myself if I'm ready to face the consequences of my decision, if I really want to be a demon just to save Slate. Of course there's no doubt I want to save Slate because I want him alive and well. Stupid s*x. If we hadn't done that, then this wouldn't have happened. I would be lying if I claim that it's not really good at all. No, it's a f*****g heaven for me. Being with Slate makes me feel like I'm a complete different person. With him, I don't have to follow rules or instructions of the others. I can be myself around him. I also don't have to worry about myself because I know he's there to protect me always. Back in home, I always had to follow my parents,

