*Hadley*
"Where the f**k have you been, Hadley?" Calix says as I walk into the tent. He is pacing with his phone pressed to his ear. The sneer makes him almost look like the demon he is.
I make sure not to look him in the eyes, but not to look away either. "I was outside watching the sunrise... I couldn’t sleep."
"Hmm, make sure you are ready to go when I get hold of some transportation," he says, turning his back to me.
"Uhm, Calix... about that. I have an idea... for the video," I bite my lips. I need to sell this. I am not ready to go. I can’t leave Zayan just yet. I can’t give up hope. "What about we shoot it here… imagine the contrast to the outfits, the song, and then this grand beautiful nature; it will be breathtaking and very different, and Zayan will let us stay for free."
He looks thoughtful for a moment. "You got something there... all the pop videos right now are shot at clubs or cool places. This idea would stand out, and you are famous enough to stand out. We could create a trend if we turn up the contrast for your outfit... bigger contrast. Yes, I like it."
I smile to myself and go to get dressed as he starts making calls. I know he will take credit for the idea, but honestly, I don’t care... as long as I get to stay here and spend more time with Zayan.
After getting dressed, I go to tell the others that we are staying and why... Well, the 'doing the video' part... Not the 'me wanting Zayan' part, of course.
Everyone seems excited about the new idea and about staying here, but I am sure no one is as happy as me. Now I just need to find an excuse to make Calix keep his hands off me.
Maybe I should just tell Zayan; he would probably protect me, but what would he think of me? Would he think of me as some cheap w***e? Would he ever want me if he finds out? No, I can't take that chance.
*Zayan*
"Morning, guys." I walk into the kitchen with Blue on my heels, finding both Thiago and JZ at the counter, both looking at me. "Couldn't sleep, so I took Blue out."
"Morning," both mumble.
I go to pour a cup of coffee. "Oh, nice, newly brewed?" No one answers me. "So, I hope it's okay that I have agreed to let Hadley shoot her music video here. There will be a lot of people for about a week or so, but I thought it would be great for... free attention for the place."
They are still just kind of looking at me.
"I mean, maybe we can use it positively, like get more followers online." I put down my cup. "Could one of you say something... anything... hello?"
"So, you took Blue out," Thiago says, making JZ break down in giggles, almost tumbling off the stool.
I throw out my hands. "What the f**k have you weird Canadian wolves been smoking? Yes, I took Blue out."
"Did you let out that other animal too?" JZ manages to press out between gasps of laughter, while Thiago is biting his lip so hard I start to worry he will draw blood.
"The other animal... my wolf? If I changed... no...?" I have no idea what the f**k is happening until they both point at me, and I look down, realizing that my erection hasn't really disappeared. "Seriously, grow up."
Thiago makes this little sound like a tire letting out air, trying not to laugh. "Zayan sure loves the nature around here."
"And the sunrise," JZ squeals.
I just shake my head and walk toward my bedroom, Blue following. "Where did I pick up those idiots... tell me that, Blue, huh? Should we kick them out, send them home to Canada?"
"Come on, Z, we know you love us," Thiago calls out as I close the door. Well, not very much right now.
I throw myself on the bed with a sigh, feeling Blue jump up beside me, placing his head on my stomach. So, I start absentmindedly scratching him behind the ears, talking to him. "Did Daddy make a mistake letting them stay, boy? Will it just bring trouble?"
He just makes one of those little happy sounds she often makes. "You like her, huh, boy... so do I... so do I... despite the... oh damn, I really hope that won't be a recurring thing."
My thoughts slip to the feeling of her small warm hand on... me, and I instantly want to kick myself when I feel the need spread through me and the already obvious problem grows. I can't do this... I can't want her like that... She can't be my mate... It feels dirty... almost wrong... I mean, she is just too young... okay, so she is legal, but she just seems so... nope, I just can't.
I roll out of bed and pull off my clothes; I need a shower, and a cold one preferably, something to shake me out of this and shock my body back into control of itself again.
"Fuck." I gasp and desperately turn on the regulator to the water. Okay, so cold showers are so overrated and not at all nice.
I sigh with relief when the water turns to a more bearable temperature.
It is tempting to just take care of that burning need, but I know I would not be able to keep my mind off her... to stop myself from imagining her naked, perfect... stop it, Zayan. Think of hard workouts and reading lines... lines... the soft lines of her... I groan in frustration.
But as a mature and sensible man, I can ignore that; I am an Alpha, I can occupy myself with something else. I am not a teenage wolf who has to give in... if I were a teenager, then... "Oh for the love of the Goddess."
I am actually proud of getting through the shower without letting the wrong head control me, and after half an hour of very focused meditation, I am in a state where I can go join the others again... still not sure if I did the right thing.