I cannot, for the life of me, stop thinking about the events of this afternoon.
Not only did I tragically fail to bring the head of the De La Vega organization into the fold, I actually managed to alienate her all the while attracting unwanted attention to the pack.
I bet she actually suspects me of plotting something now. Which I am...but that's beside the point.
I have never been so flustered in my whole life. What was it she called me? The big bad wolf in town? Big and bad my sweet behind... I wasn't even able to negotiate a meeting.
I made a fool of myself because I did not know that Gregorio's lawyer was a wolf. I still did not manage to find who it was, as the public record for the trial became sealed for some reason.
I also slipped up and proposed to a woman I've just met to kill her uncle and then to go on a date with me...That one was smooth.
I am nowhere near achieving my goal of painting the walls with Gregorio's blood. I probably gave the supernatural police a reason to monitor my pack and our every move.
And the worst part? I don't really care about that.
All I can think about was the bitchy attitude she had towards me, the way she stood up to me, even when I used my Alpha voice. The woman called me out on my bullshit in 30 seconds and I, the "big, bad wolf", had absolutely nothing to say in response.
The woman was stunning, her dark red hair, plump lips, big lilac eyes and a body to kill for. Yes, I would kill for her. No questions asked.
"Yes, Yes...Our mate is all any wolf can ask for" my wolf Tartarus chuckled in my mind. "You still fudged things up though."
I sigh...he is right after all. I can still remember the realization.
I have been trying to get a meeting with Aileen for months now. Ever since she came back and started the war to get her life back. However, after being rejected by her betalike assistant countless times, I decided I would wait for her outside her office. I knew the judge should pass the sentence today, so I waited and, sure enough, she showed up.
The first time I laid eyes on her I was attracted, not really understanding. She did not go up to the office. Instead, her crazy beta human came down for lunch. I followed them to the restaurant, with Tartarus unusually quiet in my head. I watched as they ordered and ate. I also, like the stalker that I am, listened in on their conversation. They were talking about some missing teenagers. Vampires, witches? Who cared? I kept staring at HER. I could not understand why. And then it hit, just as soon as a light breeze sent her scent my way, she was...."MATE" Tartarus growled in my head at the same time.
After that realization, everything went by in a blur. All I know is, I seem to lose all filters or diplomacy around that woman. And I've only just met her...what exactly would happen should I fall in love with her?
"Go find out, then..." Tartarus teases. "Careful! I just might go." I answer as I grab a jacket. Where am I going? Just a walk...I will absolutely not go to the MVega Holdings building. No, sir!
Except I wake up in front of said building just in time to see Aileen going home for the night. "Got lost, did you?" my wolf laughs in my head.
I tap into my newly found stalker self and follow her home. She seems to enjoy walking alone at night. That infuriates me as I think about all the dangers that she may face. She is the head of the De La Vega Police. Should she not have a security detail or something?
I watch as she stops in front of a Victorian-looking duplex and looks for her keys. As soon as she is in, she opens the windows. That is when Stalker Me sneaks in...through the freaking window. I watch her wander about, clueless of my presence.
- Are you going to sit behind the curtains all night? she asks. Again, I am stunned by her.
- How? It's all I can muster.
- Well, I have a magic barrier of sorts over this place that alerts me to danger and will NOT let danger in. So I guess you are not here to harm me. Seth would not have let you in otherwise. She states.
- Seth? I ask, jealous all of a sudden.
- Yes, Seth! She repeats. However, him letting you in and me allowing it to continue are two different stories. She added coldly. What do you want, Alpha Lowell?
What did I want?
- Well, I feel we started off on the wrong foot. To that she snorts...
- You think? Murder and s*x, if I remember correctly.
- Well, it sure came out that way. I just don't want you to get the wrong opinion of me.
- Why would you care about my opinion?
Her question was reasonable, but it still hurt. I knew going in that humans cannot feel the mate bond as well or as quickly as werewolves, still I had hoped she would at least have some kind of clue. Weren't women supposed to have magical intuition?
- I'll get to that. But first I want to explain myself and the requests I made of you this afternoon. Will you allow me to?
She seemed to ponder it.
- I guess it can't hurt. I'm a bit curious if I am being honest. Would Stalker You like some cocoa? she teased.
I smiled at the nickname she gave me, not knowing I was thinking of it myself.
As she started making cocoa, I started pouring out my heart, telling her my complete story, even parts that were not relevant, as I wanted her to know all of me, before I revealed the part that made me want to kill a human. Maybe, just, maybe, she would understand. I hoped she would, at least.