My Estella

Chapter 1

"Estella!" Rivas whispered in her ear. They had just finished making love. She was sore. But the feeling she felt was superb. Rivas was her first love. Her first in everything. And she believed that he is the one.

Yes! She is a hopeless romantic but she knows. Rivas is the man of her dreams.

He's handsome. He has a stable job and most importantly, she loves him.

"I love you, Rivas. I can't wait to finally introduce you to my family. Especially Dad." She was so happy to tell him that. Excited. She brushed her leg into his and hug him tight.

Estella didn't hear a word from Rivas. A warm embrace from him was the only response she got.

That's what Estella was worried about. Because her parents still did not know about him. She wants to introduce him ever since she accept his love but Rivas always says he's busy. She just ignored it before but everytime she opens up about it, Rivas wouldn't entertain it. He's always changing the topic.

Her best friend, Alina, whom she opens up every details of their relationship except those intimate moments, says that she needs to ask Rivas about the real score of their relationship. But everytime she tend to ask him, some thoughts of her urge not to bring it up. Maybe she feels that if she brought it up to him, something bad might happen.

Still, she's trying to understand him. Because she loves him. Very much.

That night was the happiest moment for Estella. She entrust everything to Rivas. All of her, because she knows he is the one. There are flaws but every relationship needs understanding. That's her belief.

Rivas drop her to her parent's house. But not totally in front of their gate, but few meters away. She doesn't care much.

Rivas gave her a goodbye kiss and she waited until his car vanished from her sight.

All smiles, she went through her room with a happy heart.

The next morning, she received a text message from Rivas telling her that he is going out of town because of his job. He also told her through text that he just got a message from his boss this morning that he will be sent abroad.

Should she be happy? This is Rivas' dream. To be successful in his career. But, what about their relationship? Does Rivas has a plan for it? Or, does she even part of his dreams?

That was the last text message from Rivas. But she always sent him a message, asking if he's okay or what but no reply from him. She even tried to call him but no answer. It's just ringing. She just worries and thinks he's busy with work. Until one morning...

Estella suddenly ran to the bathroom because she's feeling sick. She throws up but there is nothing to throw up. It hurts but she can't help it.

Then she remembers the date. She was never delayed on her period.

She felt dizzy, nauseous, and she vomit. All symptoms. No! She needs to make sure. Maybe she's just exhausted and stressed with work. And, it shouldn't be. Now that she doesn't even know who are his friends! Damn! She's so dumb.

What happened to her? Those times, being with Rivas, her life revolves only with him.

After taking a bath, she went to the nearest pharmacy and buy 3 different pregnancy test kit. Even if it's so embarrassing to buy it, she had no choice. She needs to confirm.

She went home and she went straight to the bathroom.

Estela tried the three kit. She waited minutes for the results and she felt her knees like jelly.

The kits have the same results. It all has two lines. Damn. She's pregnant. She's pregnant with Rivas' child.

But, how can she tell her parents about this? They didn't even know she had a boyfriend. And, Rivas. Why isn't he answering her calls?

She had no other way but to text him.

Estella: Rivas. Please answer my call. I have a very important news for you.

She waited hours but Rivas didn't reply.

Estella: Rivas I'm pregnant. I need you right now. For our baby!

She texted him again. She sob. There are so many things happening in her mind. And she needs Rivas. She doesn't know what to do.

She startled when her phone rang. She thought it was Rivas already but to her dismay, it was her friend, Alina.

"Hey. You're not going to work today?" her friend ask.

"I-I'll file a sick leave. I am not feeling well, Alina. Please cover for me this time." she said.

"Okay, just rest but, I can't wait to tell you this..." Alina cut her sentence which make her excited to know it.

"What is it, Alina?" she was curious.

"About Rivas..."

Her brow frowned.

"I saw his picture with Mrs. Navarro, our Admin Officer. I thought he's a common friend but, when I ask if how he knows Rivas, she said..."

Her heart is beating fast. She is now having a heart attack if Alina won't continue her sentence again. "Damn it, Alina! Please don't cut your sentence."

"Estella, Rivas is Mrs. Navarro's son-in-law."

She dropped her phone. She feels like there is no air in her room that she gasped and wanting for more air.

"Damn you, Rivas! How could you trick me like this? I trusted you!" she cried. Everything she dreamed of with Rivas was all gone. Everything he said to her was a lie.

Her heart feels so much pain. Rivas betrayed him. She gave him all. She doesn't even think of her self. She gave all her love to him. But in the end, she lost. And her baby, how will her baby live if he doesn't have a father? What will be the right thing to do? Will she be able to raise her child alone? Will she be a good mom?

How will her parents accept it? Her dad would be furious. She'll be sure of it.

There are so many negative thoughts in her mind right now. Her friend, Alina kept on calling her but she doesn't want to talk to anyone.

Rivas is married and she is pregnant with his baby. How will she face the people around her? Her baby doesn't have a father. Her baby doesn't deserve this. It's her fault. She is so naive!

The she heard a knock on her door.

"Estella. It's mom. Open the door. Alina called and she said you're sick. You need to see a doctor, Estella."

After hearing her Mom's voice, she cried more. She knows her mom would be disappointed. She trusted her but as what Rivas did to her, she betrayed her mom.

"Estella, open the door. I'm worried."

That's the time she opened her door.

"Hey, why are you crying? Do you have a fever?" Her mom tap her forehead to check if she is sick.

She hugged her mom. "I'm sorry, Mom. I'm so sorry if I am not a perfect daughter. I am a disgrace to this family."

"What are you talking about? What's the problem?"

"Mom. I'm sorry!" she can't say it. Her body is trembling.

"Here, let's sit. And tell me what is the problem." her mother is calm. Always. And her guilt is eating her.

"Mom..."

"Tell me. I am your mother, Estella."

"Mom...I'm...I'm pregnant, Mom."

"Oh..." then her mom's eyes began to water.

"I'm sorry, Mom. I don't know what to do. I just want to disappear now. I know it will cause our family a disgrace." she sob. But she felt her mother's embrace.

"No, don't ever think that way. We're here. I will always be here. We are family, Estella."

"Mom, my baby doesn't have a father. I...I was such a failure."

Her mom dried her tears. "Do not say that. If your baby's father doesn't want to be a father, then you will be. You can be a Mother and a Father at the same time. And we will be here as your family, Estella. Your baby, won't feel incomplete."