Chapter 6
Thailand
By the time the sun was out, we were at the base. We locked the camel in a room we had prepared and left him with the hood on and his hands and feet bound. Lying on the ground like a rat. The instructor ordered us to do four-hour rotating shifts between the three of us and to rest when we were not on duty. The rest of the day and night we spent it like that: watching and resting. I kept thinking that I had killed a man in cold blood. I killed Sumalee by accident, trying to save her, but this time I had wanted to, and I had succeeded. I reacted without hesitation. My life will never be the same. Never. Every time I closed my eyes, I saw the terrified face of the child I was not able to kill. When you cross the line, there is no turning back.
Early next day everything c
