The Blessed Beta

14: Hope

*ESTELLE*

Dimming lights of the world surrounding me let me know that there is no where I belong. A mate that didn’t want to bring me to his pack in fear of upsetting a girlfriend. Leaving me alone in a pack with cruel Alpha as my master and wanna be chosen mate.

‘Estelle, baby. Please be okay.’ I hear the words ring in my mind. Baby? I am not his baby. His girlfriend is his baby. But as much as I want to deny it, those words give me strength. And something more.

Hope.

That is a word that someone like me should never hold onto. Something that is so beyond my reach, I wouldn’t even know which direction to go to obtain it.

“That is because you think so lowly of yourself. It is disheartening, really.” Darra purrs in my head and through the bright white lights of my mind she walks into view. A whole new color I have never seen before. She was just a dirty brown wolf before. But now, she is a red wolf. And it looks like she is evolving.

“That is because I am, Estelle. We may not be blessed wolves like others. We may not hold rank like those who rule our pack, but being an ordinary werewolf isn’t as bad as it seems. I will continue to evolve until I am restored to my rightful form. And once you hold the confidence in yourself and in me, then your truest form will shine through as well.”

“Things you talk about aren’t as easy as it sounds. My whole life I have been told and treated like a mere speck of dust. How does one speck of dust make big movements? How do I, of all people, make any type of change in the world?”

We never get anywhere with these damn conversations. I tell her I am not what she thinks I am and she tells me I am. We can never agree to disagree. But I am curious as to how she has changed her fur color.

Evolving.

“What happens if I just stay here, Darra?” I know she is going to say that isn’t an option. But I still want to hear it from her mouth.

“Your mate goes completely rabid, killing everyone around him from his mate being gone. He will lose all sense of reality. His wolf will travel the world looking for who hurt you, and will kill anyone who opposes him. And he will win because of who and what he is.” She said a matter of factly.

“What the hell are you talking about? He is the Beta of his pack, his Alpha could easily stop him.” I say in a questioning tone.

Couldn’t he?

“So what will it be Estelle? You gonna stay here and whine and complain about how shitty your life is? Or are you going to put your big girl panties on and confront our mate like the grown woman you are?” She knows I hate it when she taunts me.

“You know what. f**k it. Wake me up.” I growl.

I’m tired of this s**t.

She starts running towards me, and drops her head when she reaches me. Knocking the breath out of me and when I finally gasp to catch my breath, I realize I am no longer in my mind. I am in what looks like a hospital.

The machines are beeping but all I can focus on is the tube down my throat and this pounding headache. Now that my senses are adjusting I hear my mates voice talking to a female in the room.

“Adrianne. I never wanted to hurt you. But this is my Goddess given mate. I want to be with her. You will find your mate one day, but I have found mine. I want her. I don’t want to reject her, no matter her rank. No matter what she has been through I want her. I am sorry that you got hurt through this. That wasn’t my intention. I never even thought I would find my mate. Please understand.” He says, exhaustion creeping through his voice.

He sounds like he has been up for days.

“I get that we were just together for the time being but I love you, Tora. I can’t just stop loving you.” She sniffles. “ There isn’t any way I can just let you go. You have to understand my side too.”

“And I do, Adrianne. I really do. But what I feel for her, I can’t let that go. And I won’t. I hope we can all be friends one day. But right now, I just need some time with my mate..” He says, rubbing his eyes. She sniffles once more before leaving the room.

I close my eyes before he turns around and I hear his steps come through the bed. He slips his hand into mine and my immediate instinct is to tense up, but I am trying not to let him know I am awake.

“I don’t know what happened to you. I don’t know why. But I will find whoever did this and I will rip their head from their body in your name.” And then I feel his perfect warm lips lightly touch my hand.

I start choking with all the saliva forming in my mouth from this tub, my eyes shoot open, a few stray tears falling from them. And my mate starts calling for the doctors to come in.

Everyone is working so quickly to pull the tube from my throat. In about 5 minutes, I am still coughing but I am much more comfortable.

“Estelle, are you okay? Do you… Do you remember me?” He asks, patting my head with a cool rag and bringing a cup of cold water to my lips for me to soothe my aching throat.

I just simply nod. I can feel the heat creeping into my cheeks.

“Why?” I asked, and I sound like I have been without water for weeks.

“Why what, my love?” He asks, his beautiful golden eyes beginning to water.

“Why did you leave me there??” I belt out. Unsure of how to hold it all in..

The room goes silent. His eyes never leave mine but he is hurting.

“I didn’t know. I thought you were safer there then you were here.” He runs his big calloused hands through his hair. “There is evil here. And it worried me to bring you back and something happen to you. But I wasn’t thinking. I should’ve brought you back, and at least tried to protect you..” He says, a sadness ringing through the air.

“What about the girl you were talking to? I heard from people in my pack that she was your chosen mate..” I can’t help the hurt in my voice.

“She wasn’t. I NEVER claimed anyone as a chosen or fated mate. Not until you.” His words soothe my heart. But I feel like I have stolen something.

“Who did this to you? You were announced as the Alpha’s chosen mate just yesterday? Even though I am sure he did that so I would quit looking at you. But still, you should have been under his protection.” He growls, I can see his eyes flickering, mesmerizing me from my hospital bed.

“At this point it doesn’t matter..” I say, shying away from the culprit of my attack.

“What matters is what is happening now.” I say, trying my best tough face. Even though I am breaking at the seams.

“And what is that?” He asks, sitting on the bed looking at me, my hand somehow finding his way into mine.

“The situation is how you are going to reject me and when.” I say in a whisper. The most ground rattling roar shook my room. I jump from the bed and hide..

Well this just went from bad to worse.