Missing You

Chapter Nine: After the Dream

Draven slowly woke to the sunlight shining through the window of Nina’s room. She was still asleep in his arms as she cradled Wesley’s urn to her chest. He knew that the reason for his existence at that moment was that he was made for Nina. Now knowing what Wesley came to share with him, he held Nina close in her sleep. Afraid to let her go and afraid to lose her. And if what Wesley said was true, he would have a reckoning and he would have to, as he would not have a choice. Overwhelmed with emotion, he started quietly crying in her hair. He had just found the love of his life and now he was going to lose her.

Over the final days of Draven’s leave, they spent at either her house or his house. They went swimming, surfing, paddle boarding, dancing, spent their evenings having amazing s*x and getting to know each other. The day before he was to go back to work, he met with his counselor after getting a haircut to regulation, along with a shave. After his first shave coming back, he had let his facial hair grow. Sitting in her office, both of them in corners, “How are you doing today, Draven?”

He smiled and scratched his shaven face, he was missing his beard, “I’m actually great.”

She nodded, “And no nightmares?”

He shook his head, “No. None.”

“No flashbacks?”

“No.”

She nodded, “Good. Your first day back is tomorrow. Are you ready?”

He shrugged, “It’s my duty. I have to be.”

They spoke for a little while longer and then he was on his way to meet Nina for lunch. As he parked in front of the restaurant on the beach, he saw Nina talking to a man as she sat waiting for him. She was wearing a pair of khaki shorts, and a white sleeveless blouse that was open in the back. He could see the smoothness of her skin. She was trying to slyly move away from the man that was talking to her, but he kept trying to get closer to her. When he tried putting his hand on her smooth back, Draven almost lost it. Ever since the dream he had with Wesley, he hadn’t been able to get enough of her and has become very protective of her. He hadn’t been sleeping like he should so he could look at Nina as she slept or he would wake her up to make love to her. Getting out of his Jeep, he straightened out his khaki cargos and Billabong t-shirt, looking down at his grey Converse and took a deep breath.

Going up behind Nina, he could hear her say, “My boyfriend will be here any minute,” which warmed his heart, “It has been a pleasure,” and stood up brushing her bottom off.

“Well, he isn’t here right now,” trying to help her. Draven came out from the shadows, “Hey there beautiful,” going to Nina and giving her a long kiss with his hands cupping her face and then put his arm around her, “Sorry I’m late. My appointment ran over.” She smiled so gratefully and put her arms around him, “It’s okay. You are here now.” He turned his attention to the man that was trying to pick it up to discover that it was an old mate from BUD/S training. He rang out on the third day when Draven went through.

He stood up, a few inches shorter than Draven, “Well, well, if it isn’t Shadow. How are you doing man?” holding out his hand.

Draven shook his hand as a politeness but felt his own skin crawl, “How are you doing, Fish?”

“I am doing good. Don’t tell me this gorgeous thing belongs to you?”

His arm tightened around her, “Yes, she belongs to me.”

The guy with muddy brown eyes and dirty blonde hair looked at Nina, “Did this guy tell you about our first day at BUD/S training? He fell face first into a huge puddle of mud.”

Nina could feel him tense, “That was because you tripped me during our training exercise causing me to come in last.”

“Well, we can’t all come in first.”

“And we all don’t ring out on the third day. That is the difference between a real SEAL and a wannabe.” That caused ‘Fish’ to clench his teeth. Before he could respond, Nina’s name was called for their table. Draven smiled, “That’s us. Have a good night.” ‘Fish’ watched as the world’s most beautiful woman walked away with the man he hated most.

Sitting down at their table, Nina put her hair over her shoulder, “Who was that guy? He could not take no for an answer.”

Draven looked at her, “His name is Michael Locke. We went to BUD/S training together. He thought he would make it because he was a good swimmer, hence his nickname, Fish. On the first day of training, we were doing an agility race, I was in the lead to finish first. He tripped me and I fell into a ravine that was filled with mud. It was like quicksand. I had to hall myself out of it. By the time I finished, I was dead last. The instructors saw it, but it happens in real life situations, and you have to be prepared. Anyway, he saw on the third day that he was no match for BUD/S. On the third day, it was raining like a mother fucker. We were in line up with our teams, holding our boats over our heads for the tenth hour straight it felt like. We were wet and cold, exhausted, and our boats were filling with water. I remember my chest and arms burning, but we kept each other going. We were heading into another hour of work and Fish walks up to the bell and rang out. Since then, he has been trying to get back in. He fails every time.”

Nina reached for his hand across the table and lowered her voice just for him to hear, “Well, you are more of a man than he ever will be. The only man that makes my heartbeat uncontrollably. You are the man,” lacing their fingers together, “That makes me feel like I am worshipped. You make me feel like I am utterly and completely safe in your presence and in your arms. The only man that could ever make me go around braless and panty less in hopes that he will f**k me in his Jeep tonight on our way home,” his hand tightened on hers and his breath increased, “and the only man that can fill me completely and fully.”

He growled, “Get up. Now. We are out of here.” Since she Uber’d her way to the restaurant she had no problem letting him lead her with his hand on the small of her bare back, to his Jeep. There, before he opened the door, he pushed Nina up against the side and captured her head in his hands, his lips crashing down to hers. His hands then snaked down to her buttocks and lifted her against him. She moaned, feeling his hardness against her and rubbed against him. He growled in her mouth, giving her buttock a firm spanking, and lifted her into the Jeep. Once he had her buckled in, he got in the driver side, and they peeled out of the parking lot. By the time they got to his place, it was dark.

Without warning, he grabbed Nina and pulled her lips to his and then lifted her onto his lap and helped her to straddle his lap, moving her closer until her hips were right against his. He devoured her mouth with his, his hands going under her blouse to touch her breasts. Palming her breasts, her n*****s were already beaded under his hands. Moaning, he moved to grab her buttocks and pull her down and hard against his hard shaft. She groaned in his mouth and reached to unbutton his shorts. He unbuttoned her shorts and tried to lift her out of them. When he realized he couldn’t, she giggled as she kissed his neck. He put a hand on her back, “I got this,” and reached in his pocket for his pocket k-bar knife and switched it open. “Don’t move, baby,” and kissed her.

While he kissed her, he slowly cut off her shorts. While he was busy doing that, she nibbled on his ear. He spanked her bottom, “I said to hold still.” She laughed, “I am. You didn’t say not,” nibbling his ear without moving, “to amuse myself.”

He closed his knife, putting it on the dash and reached pulling her shorts out from under her. She then reached inside of his shorts to free his engorged c**k, “Now,” looking in his eyes, “f**k me.” Slowly he guided her hips so he could enter her. When he did, she closed her eyes and arched against him, softly gasping. His hands slid around her back and under her shirt to her shoulders. Holding her in place, they moved together as much as the seating would allow.

“This is not enough,” getting out of the Jeep and moving them to the backseat. Laying her down in the back, never breaking the contact, he had her slow and full of power. “You are mine,” he said as he moved against her, “Say you’re mine.” Nina moaned, “Yours. Only yours.” He laid on her softness, pushing her shirt up to see and suckle her n*****s. One arm went around her shoulders, while the other braced up near her head on the seat. Nina held onto the arm that braced around her shoulders and grabbed his buttock with the other. She bent her knees, putting her legs around him and they both moaned as he sunk deeper inside of her. He moved hard against her, loving her gasps. He kissed her neck harshly, “Don’t,” thrusting against her, “You,”, thrusting harder, “f*****g,” feeling her tighten her hold on him, “Dare,” her lips going to his neck, “Let me hurt you.”

She moaned arching up to him, “Oh, god you aren’t, Draven. You aren’t. Please,” she said almost pleading with him. A few moments later she came hard against him, crying out and tightening around him. He thrust a few more times and came inside of her and collapsed on top of her. They laid that way for a few moments, until he heard her stomach growl. He laughed and raised his head, “Let’s get you inside baby. And get you feed. You aren’t wearing any panties until I say so.”

She looked at him, “Promises, promises.”

He looked at her, “I will take you over my knee.”

“Please do so, sir,” and nipped at his chin.

He moved first and zipped up his pants. Then he grabbed a towel from the back and wrapped it around her waist before he lifted her out of the Jeep and into his home. A home he wanted to share with her forever but was having doubts because of his dream. The gnawing feeling he had in the pit of his stomach just intensified with each passing day. The next morning, while Nina was sleeping, he woke up to get dressed for work. He put on his Navy camouflage. As he was pulling on his jacket, Nina appeared behind him in the mirror. She was wearing hot pink boy short panties and his SEAL shirt. He turned to her and she finished buttoning up his jacket, “I thought I told you no panties until I say so.”

She smiled and instead reached up and kissed him soundly on the lips. His arms went around her and lifted her to the bathroom counter. She wrapped her legs around him, which earned her a moan from him. He pulled away, framing her face with hands, “Damn you are so beautiful.”

She smiled, “You, my love, are so god damn fuckable right now. Permission to go down on you, sir.”

He smiled, “Permission denied.” She pretended to pout, and he kissed her. “You can have permission when I get home.” She smiled. He grabbed her buttocks with both his strong hands, “And in the meantime, no panties.”

She smiled, “Yes, sir,”. He didn’t move from between her legs and instead kissed her hard before moving. He left the bathroom to get his wallet, his phone, his k-bar pocketknife, and some change from the island in the kitchen. He grabbed an apple and went to the front door. From the key rack he had, he grabbed his keys and opened the door. “Oh, Lieutenant,” he heard Nina say. Turning around he saw that she was still dressed in his shirt, “Yes, baby.”

She walked over to him and reached up on tip toe to kiss him quickly, “I’ll be waiting for you to come home.”

He kissed her quickly, “I’ll be counting down the hours,” and turned to leave.

“One more thing.” He turned back around. She approached him and from behind her back she produced her panties and showed him, “And in the meantime, a little reminder of what is waiting for you,” and placed them in his pocket. He groaned, “f**k me.” She soothed his pocket and reached up to kiss him one more time. He used one hand to grab her naked ass and pull her to his hardening c**k, as his lips kissed her hard. Then with one last kiss, he gave her a spanking and turned before he took her back to the bed and made himself late. She watched as he got in his Jeep and left. She waved to him in the dark, and once he was gone, she closed and secured the door and went back to bed with a smile on her face.

When Draven got to the base for PT, he had just parked when his second in command pulled up next to him. Thomas Stevens, also known as Jinx, because he had a tendency to say things that would eventually jinx the team. At six foot one, he was built like a lean swimmer and was the best swimmer in the group even with their rucksack on. “Hey, Shadow!” He got out of his Jeep, “Hey, Jinx,” and they slapped hands together. “How was your leave?” he asked Draven. He smiled slyly. “That good huh?” Draven put his hand over his heart and just above the pocket that held Nina’s panties, “The best leave I have ever had.”

They were soon joined by the rest of his squad or element which included his tech guy, James Tucker but went by Radar who was six foot with black hair and blue eyes. The last one in his element was, Mark Baker, another six foot giant with red hair and brown eyes, that was quick on his feet and the best at hand to hand. His knife skills were so fast that at first, they called him a freak of nature, and eventually it was just Freak. Draven was called Shadow because he was the best at stalking and stealth, and the best at getting into places quietly and never seen. If people had seen him, they would do a double take to see if it was the shadows playing a trick on them.

As they made their way to line up, Jinx happened to see his pocket askew and then a flash of pink. Reaching for his pocket, “What is this?” and pulled out Nina’s panties from his pocket. Draven reached from them, “Give them back.”

“Look what we got boys,” holding up Nina’s panties, “Oh, and they are so cute!” He got a few cat calls from the boys. He finally grabbed them and put them back in his pocket securely.

“Who’s the girl?”

Draven put his keys in his pocket, “The woman I’m gonna marry.”

“No s**t?” asking seriously.

His other teammates just looked at him in shock. Radar cleared his throat as he pulled his hat on, “Whipped over here has called me twice to find out where she is. I’d say it’s borderline obsession if you ask me.”

Draven fixed his own hat on his head, “f**k you, dude.”

Freak cleared his throat as he put on his own hat and said, “I’d say from the bite mark on your bicep that she already did.” Draven looked down to see that his sleeve had ridden up and sure enough he had a small bite mark on the side of his bicep and quickly pulled it down.

That earned him more cat calls from the boys as they went in for PT. All day he tried to pay attention to his duties, but he just winded up watching the clock. By the time he could leave, he sped home and got pulled over. As he pulled over, he kept his hands on the steering wheel as the officer approached. “You in a hurry today brah?” the officer asked.

“My apologies, officer. I am just anxious to get back to my girl.” The cop could see her cut up shorts forgotten in the passenger seat where they had been thrown last night, and he could see her pink panties sticking out from his pocket as Draven had been taking them out all day to look at them and be reminded of what they shared last night and this morning.

“I’ll tell you what, brah, I’ll give you a warning. Slow it down. If I see you speeding again, I will give you a ticket,” and handed him a slip of paper.

Draven took the paper, “Thank you officer.”

“Aloha.”

He nodded, “Mahalo.” Draven eased back into traffic and when he felt safe enough, he finished speeding home. When he pulled up, her Jeep was still there. After securing his Jeep, he went inside. As he opened the door, he could smell the aroma of chicken, “Nina? Baby?”

She came out from the kitchen, “Hey handsome!” and walked over to him dressed in a light pink maxi dress. He met her halfway and kissed her senseless, wrapping his arms around hers almost lifting her up. Hers went around his ribcage. When he lifted his lips, he pressed his forehead to hers, “Damn, I missed you. All I could think about was coming home to you.”

She smiled, “I missed you. Why don’t you go take a shower and I will check on dinner.” He kissed her nose and went into the bedroom. She felt so happy. When he came out, he was dressed in his usual and watched as Nina finished adding carrots to a roast chicken and stood up. “Damn you are so beautiful.”

She washed her hands, “Thank you.”

He went over to her, wrapping his arms around her just under her breasts, and kissed her neck. She moved her head aside to give him better access. He let his hands roam over her breasts, down her abdomen, and over her hips. He lifted his lips, “You aren’t wearing any panties or a bra.”

She smiled and turned in his arms, “Surprise.”

He growled, and backed her into the sink, “Good girl.”

She looked at him, “Permission to go down on you, sir?”

He swallowed hard and nodded, “Granted.” She slowly sank to her knees and unbuttoned his shorts to find out that he was commando underneath. He held his breath as Nina took him in her sweet and hot mouth. His hands went into her hair, not forcing her head to move, but just needing to feel her silky hair. She braced her hands on his hips and showed him just how much she loved and missed him. When her tongue swirled around his shaft, he nearly lost it. He gripped her under the arms to lift her, but she released him for a moment and looked up at him, “Let me please you.”

He looked down at her, “You are. And now I want to please you,” and lifted her up onto the counter. His lips went to hers, kissing her thoroughly as his hands went to her thighs and pushed up her dress until it was pooled at her waist. As his hands grabbed her buttocks, she wrapped her arms and legs around him. He positioned himself at her wet entrance. Her eyes looked into his, never breaking their kiss, and slowly entered her body. He watched as Nina broke their kiss and closed her eyes in complete pleasure and moaned out his name. When he was fully inside of her, he put a hand on the back of her neck and said, “Look at me, baby,” her eyes opened, and he began to move inside of her.

Every thrust was filled with power and pleasure all at the same time. Her hands went to his hips to urge him on. He kissed her neck gently and then went back to her lips. A few moments later, he came inside of her, and she held onto him as her body shook with her own orgasm. He braced them on the counter, as she buried her face in his neck and limply held onto him. He loved this woman with all his heart. He just wasn’t sure if she felt the same way.

Later after they ate dinner and showered, they lay in his bed with the sliding door open watching the moon reflect off of the water. Draven was stroking her hip as he spooned her from behind. She was gently stroking his strong forearm around her shoulders. Neither one said a word other than knowing they were happy to be in each other’s arms.

The next night was her weekly dance club get together. Since Draven had to work late, she figured she go alone and meet him later. She wore a simple white dress with spaghetti straps that flared out at her hips with tan close toed heels that had a strap buckle around her ankle and a section of her bangs pulled back with a clip. As she walked in, she saw Jay with the other girls, and they were laughing. When they saw Nina, they all shouted her name. She smiled and went to hug them all. As she was getting something to drink, Conner came up. “Hey, stranger! Where you been?”

She hugged him, “Hey, Conner! How are you?”

He took a swig of his beer, “You know, living the dream.”

She took a sip of her wine, “How’s Uncle Sam treating you?”

He made a face, “Got new orders. I’ll be leaving for Korea in about six weeks but I'll be back after that. My boyfriend isn’t too pleased.”

“Awe, James?” she asked putting a hand on his arm.

He nodded and looked over at the DJ, “Yeah. He wants commitment, but,” looking at her, “I can’t. The military doesn’t recognize same s*x relationships.”

“Do you love him?” she asked.

He nodded, “I do.”

“Well, I know you’ll make it work.”

He looked into her eyes, “I hope so.”

The music changed to the Elle King “Ex’s and Oh’s”. He titled his head, “Come on.”

Holding his hand out, she smiled and took it. He started as they always did and threw her out onto the dance floor in a Toss Out and smiled when Nina held the skirt of her dress down, to swing their combination of East and West Coast swing. The next song that went on was “Run Devil Run” by Crowder. They all started clapping and then doing a choreographed West Coast swing. Then a slow song of “Love Me Like You Do” by Ellie Goulding went on. Nina immediately thought about that night in Draven’s jeep. Conner held out his hand to do the Club Dancing Two-Step. She obliged but lost her smile. As she came back from a turn, Conner pulled her close but not too close, “Are you okay, Nina?”

She nodded and said, “Yeah. I’m okay.”

They did some complicated foot work as the others did and then he turned her quickly in three spins. When she felt a strong arm go around her waist and she was pulled to a strong chest. Looking up she saw Draven, and he didn’t seem too pleased. He didn’t say a word as his jaw clenched and unclenched and he guided her roughly around the dance floor. His hands were sending all sorts of shocks up and down her spine, causing her skin to goose bump. He still knew how to turn on the seduction during the song with the sway of his hips, pressing her against his body, touching her thighs and buttocks. When the song was over, he walked her over to her group of friends which included Conner, “Tell them goodnight, Nina,” he said with a stern voice. She grabbed her bag, “Goodnight, guys.”

Then he grabbed her hand and lead her out of the club and straight to his Jeep where he put her in the passenger side without a word. Nina didn’t say a word, almost too afraid to speak. They got to his place, and he walked around to help her out. Silently she walked ahead of him to the door, her heels the only sound other than the waves. She waited for him at the door. He unlocked the door and motioned for her to go in. She went in and waited. He walked in behind her, closing, and securing the door. Taking her hand, he led them to his bedroom, but he didn’t touch her.

She noticed then that he was in a pair of khaki slacks and a white button up shirt with the sleeves rolled up. She watched as he pulled it over his head to reveal a simple t-shirt stretched across his chest and tight on his biceps and opened the sliding door to the beach. He then went to a knee in front of her and removed her shoes and then removed his own. Taking her hand again, he took her out onto the beach and made her sit down. She sat down and drew her knees to rest beside her on the sand in a sideways sit. He sat down next to her, raising his knees, and resting his arms on them. He was quiet. They sat there for a while before he finally spoke.

“Are you interested in that guy?” he asked without looking at her.

“What guy? Conner?”

He nodded, “Yeah, the tall dude with the black hair.”

She laughed, “No.”

He turned to look at her, “Really? Because when I walked into the dance club, you were dancing with him to our song.”

She smiled, “We have a song?”

“Oh, cut the s**t Nina. Do you want him?” he demanded raising his voice slightly.

She finally realized what he was asking and lost her smile, “Draven, no. First of all, Conner is gay. His boyfriend is the house DJ,” she could see him slightly relax, “And second, of course the Ellie Goulding song is ours. Did you think I forgot that first time you touched me in your Jeep?” he looked at her, “Draven, you have told me that I am yours. I take that very seriously,” scooting closer to him, “You’ve said that to me several times, ‘You are mine’. Well, I hate to break it to you Shadow, but you are mine,” he looked at her. She continued, “I have told you, you are the only man that makes my heart beat uncontrollably. You are the man that makes me feel like I am worshiped. You make me feel like I am utterly and completely safe in your presence and in your arms-”

He cut her off with a kiss, his hand cupping her head, his other arm going around her. She snuck her arms around him and slanted her head to give him better access. He ended the kiss and pressed his forehead to hers, “I don’t want to lose you, Nina.”

“You aren’t. I’m right there.”