I learned something during my seventeen years of life. People can get used to anything. Even pain. Especially pain. After a while being humiliated becomes routine. Like brushing your teeth or walking to class. You stop expecting people to be kind. You stop hoping things will get better. You just survive. At least that is what I told myself.
The morning I got to school twenty minutes early. Not because I was excited to be. Because getting there early meant there would be people. Fewer people meant chances to become someones entertainment. I fixed my backpack. Walked up the front steps. The school building looked nice in the morning light. It had windows and clean stone walls. It was clear that Westbridge Academy was a school. Everything about it screamed wealth. Except me.
Most students drove to school in cars. Some had drivers. Others got a lot of money from their parents every month. More money than my mom made. I spent every morning thinking about whether we had food at home. I pushed the thought away. There was no point thinking about things I could not change.
Inside the school the hallways were almost empty. For once I could breathe. I went to my locker. The metal door creaked when I opened it. My books were right where I left them. That was predictable. Unlike people. I smiled a little. Then I saw something. A piece of paper on top of my chemistry book. I stopped moving. Nobody ever left notes in my locker. Nobody even opened my locker except me.
I slowly unfolded the paper. The handwriting was messy. It said, "Your song was beautiful." I stared. My heart skipped a beat. My song? The piano room? Someone really had been listening. I looked around. The hallway was empty. No clues. No name. Nothing. Just that one sentence. For some reason I felt warm inside. Not because of the words. Because someone had listened. Someone had actually listened.
Before I could think about it more the warning bell rang. Students started filling the hallways. The quiet moment was gone. I put the note in my notebook. Went to class.. My luck did not last long. By period the hallway was crowded. People were moving everywhere. Voices were echoing off the walls. I kept my head down. That usually worked. Usually. Not today.
I turned a corner. Someone put their foot in my way. I lost my balance. My books fell out of my arms. Papers went over the floor. The hallway erupted with laughter. My knee hurt when I hit the ground. For a moment everything was blurry. Then I heard a voice. "Oops." It was Tyler Benson. Of course. His friends were already laughing. A crowd started gathering. Not because they cared. Because people love a show.
My face got hot. I reached for my books. Before I could grab them Tyler picked one up. He opened it. Said, "Lets see what we've got here." My stomach dropped. No. Not that notebook. Please. Not that notebook. Tylers smile got bigger. "Oh wow." He said, "Poetry." More people laughed. My chest felt tight. That notebook had my song lyrics. My dreams. Parts of me I never showed anyone.
Tyler started reading from my notebook. "'Sometimes the stars look lonely too.'" His friends laughed louder. Someone whistled. Another person barked like a dog. I wanted to disappear. I wanted to stop existing for five minutes. "Give it back " I said. My voice sounded small. Pathetic. Tyler pretended not to hear. "'Maybe broken things still deserve to be loved.'" The crowd laughed harder. My vision got blurry. Not from anger. From embarrassment.
Then suddenly the laughter stopped. Not all once.. Enough. The change felt immediate. Tyler looked up. So did everyone else. Someone was coming. A familiar person stepped through the crowd. Tall. Confident. Calm. It was Ryder Blackwood. The whole atmosphere changed. People moved aside automatically. Like a king had arrived.
Ryder looked at Tyler. Then at my notebook. Then at me. His face did not show any emotion. "Finished?" he asked. Tyler laughed nervously. "Just having fun." Ryder did not laugh. The silence felt uncomfortable. Heavy. Finally Tyler gave me back my notebook. "Whatever." I grabbed it quickly. My hands shook. Tyler and his friends disappeared into the crowd. The audience followed. Within seconds everyone moved on. Like nothing had happened. Like I had not just been humiliated in front of half the school.
I stood up slowly. My knee hurt. Before I could leave a hand appeared in front of me. Ryders hand. For a moment I just stared. Then I took it. His grip was warm. Steady. He helped me up. "Thanks " I said. He nodded once. "No problem." That was it. No big speech. No comforting words. Nothing. He. Walked away. Leaving me confused.. Strangely unsettled.
The rest of the day was a blur. I could not stop thinking about the note.. Ryder.. The way everyone had instantly obeyed him. Most of all I could not stop thinking about the humiliation. Because down Tyler had exposed something true. The notebook mattered. Music mattered. Maybe more than anything.
After school I went back to the music building. The piano was right where I had left it. I sat down. Put my fingers on the keys.. Played. At first the music sounded angry. Sharp. Broken. The notes reflected everything I could not say aloud. Every laugh. Every insult. Every moment spent pretending I did not care. Gradually the music softened. Turning pain into something. Something stronger. Hope.
I played until it got dark outside. Then did I stop. As I gathered my things I saw something. A small piece of paper on the piano bench. My breath caught. Slowly I picked it up. The handwriting was the same. The same mysterious handwriting. I unfolded it carefully. This time the message was longer. "Don't let them make you hate your gift." I stared at the words. My pulse got faster. Who was doing this? Who knew about my music? Who kept listening? And why?
For the time in a very long time I was more curious than lonely. I folded the note. Put it in my pocket. Then I headed home under the evening sky. Completely unaware that somewhere, behind me hidden in the shadows of the music building someone watched until I disappeared from sight.. For reasons I could not yet understand my story had already begun changing.