Negotiations and Lies (Part 2)
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Holding my head up high I left to go to pack some of my belongings. I
can handle this. I got into my room, went to my closet, and went to working on
what I would take from there. A small pile was beginning to form in me be.
Not aware of how long had been preoccupied, I felt someone shift in behind
me. The smell alone told me it was Jake. I kept going about my way.
“HUUUM” he cleared his throat; I acted as if I did not hear it. He scooted
closer. “Raini, its late.” No s**t, I thought to myself. “ Oh, hey Jake, yea I just
wanted to finish this last little bit. Then I am going to head to bed. Do you
need something?” He shifted from his left to right foot. “Um…. Your dad had
me come here to sleep. I can sleep on the floor or something.” He looked
uncomfortable for the first time in our friendship. It stung a little. I couldn’t
help but feel like this was the start of the actual break of our friendship. “Jake
we are going to have to sleep in the same be anyway, and it is not any
different than when we were young. Yes, we are mates, but it doesn’t matter.
You have made that clear, I’m not going to say it don’t hurt, we have never lied
to each other and I prefer we not start to now. But I will deal with it and be ok
with the situation eventually.” I said as I put the last of my things in my pack
and put it off to the side. I mean in all reality Jake was handsome, he was
seven foot even dark tan skin, tone muscular body, he had long black hair and
the most beautiful hazel eyes. His face was perfectly symmetrical, and his lips
were oh so inviting. Who wouldn’t want to be his mate. I guess my thoughts
must have shown on my face because he inched closer. “ Raini, it is hard for
me to. No, it is true I don’t want the mate bond, but that does not change
anything as far as its pull and the attraction. As he said this, I noticed he kept
edging closer and closer. Before I knew it, he was face to face with me.
Suddenly he had me in an embrace. “You smell like vanilla beans.” He said
just as his lips crashed into mine. My mind was in turmoil. I wanted so bad to
relent and kiss him back. However, I would not allow myself to be prone to
fantasy. “Kiss me back.” His raspy voice drew me out of my thoughts. “I
shouldn’t.” I whispered. “Give me this one little moment. Please. I know we
shouldn’t but I have been curious for so long.” Came that raspy sexy voice
again. I folded. Kissing him back with all the vitreosity I could put into one kiss
I did not hold back. I felt myself lean into him even further. We were about to
seriously f**k up this friendship. But for now, I will just enjoy the moment.
Once neither of us could breathe we pulled apart. To say I was shocked was
an understatement. Without another word I walked around to where I would
sleep on the bed and laid down with my back towards jake. Replaying the kiss in my head I couldn’t help but to be torn as to what to think or do as a lone
tear slid down my face from the corner of my eye onto my arm resting
underneath my head. What was I going to do? I wanted so badly to give into
our fated bond. But Jake made it clear this is not what he wanted. I must
marry him to respect the treaty but at what cost. Our friendship? Just then I
felt the bed dip, moving around behind me Jake was trying to get comfortable
in the bed. As if he felt my unease he was tossing and turning. After a while he
settled down. Upon doing so things in my room got eerily quiet. Why? Why? I
asked myself. “He is our mate; it will work out!” Spoke Briza my wolf for the
first time today. Way to show up now I thought to myself. “don’t be a smart ass
I am always present. I just closed myself off a little bit because I had the same
reservations as you, and I knew if we both got involved it would be difficult so I
let you take over as to not feel so hurt. I since he does want the bond but
something is stopping him.” Without any other words I watched her trot back
into the abyss that is our mind. Why did o kiss him? It just caused more
confusion on my situation. Apart from wanting to feel the pleasure of his soft
pillow-like lips on my own, and the stupid f*****g bond, I could not fathom
why I just it happen. I knew the damn bond cand be completed let alone even
acknowledged. Drowning in my own thoughts not paying attention Jake broke
the silence. “Can I scoot closer? I think I’m falling off the bed.” Shaking my
head yes, because I did not my trust my voice to give away the fact I had
silently been crying, or come out strong enough, I knew he would see me
giving permission. After I few divots in the bed behind me the smell of
sandalwood engulfed me harshly restricting my breath. Jake then cuddled as
close as he cold spooning me and provided to put his arm over my waist and
buried his head deep into my neck slightly touching my marking spot making
tingles shoot all over me to the point, I felt I was going to convulse. Trying to
hide the notion to cream my underwear I let out an exasperated sigh. “You
asked to scoot closer, not to torture me.” I sneered. He stiffened but refused
to move. Heavy breathing was then heard, As I felt the coolness of the air, he
breathed in it dawned on me he was drinking in my scent. Suddenly it
occurred to me he could be mad at my outburst. f**k him I thought. “Indeed,
we should.” Snickered Briza sounding far off. Almost as if to answer my
previous question he spoke: “Yes, I asked to move closer. What is the matter
we used to cuddle all the time. Was it torture then? Besides you are my mate,
and in three days you will be my wife and my Luna, so start acting as my wife.
You of all people know if this is how I want to be with you then I will.
- Writer
