Hidden Temptations

Chapter Twenty

“It’s this one.” I point at a house in the rural part of Seattle. It looks like a farmhouse. “You can just drop me off here.” I tell Sarah. She stops the car, and throws it in the park.

“I love you Addie. I know you’ll be safe with him, but call me if you need anything.” She touches my hand. I will. I give her a kiss on the cheek and I leave her car. Sarah pulls off and I don’t take a single step. I just stare at the walkway in front of me. What am I doing? Why did I come here? I pace in a circle. Do I get Sarah back here? Should I just go home? No Addie. Be brave. Walk up to that door and be with the man you’ve been longing for. I take a step forward, I don’t stop. I keep walking until I reach the door.

*knock knock*

I stand straight up, I hear footsteps. The door swings open.

“Hi.” Ian stands there in front of me. I can't resist my urge to kiss him. I take a step towards him. He backs up and opens the door even more. “Come in.”

What the hell was that? Why didn’t he kiss me? Did I do something wrong? What is going on with him? I take a step inside and I watch him walk to the kitchen. I just stand there, this is awkward. I look around his house, there are pictures of him and what looks like his family on the walls. I see a picture on the fireplace mantle, I walk over to it. It is a picture of Ian in his police uniform. He looks so happy, so proud to do what he does. His smile is so infectious, even in pictures, I can’t help but smile.

“Addie.” Ian says my name from the kitchen, I walk around the corner and into the kitchen. There are candles everywhere, there is food placed on the table. Ian walks over to the counter and puts on some music. I smile, this is the most romantic thing someone has ever done for me. Ian pulls out a chair by the table, I walk over and sit down. Is this why he was acting off? Is he nervous? He pours me a glass of wine, I look at him kinda weird, he knows I’m not old enough to have alcohol. He doesn’t look at me, he pours himself a glass and sits down.

“I figured one glass of wine is okay, right?” Ian says as he takes a napkin and lays it on his lap.

“Yes, thank you.” I take my napkin and put it on my lap. Ian must have made this meal. The salad is perfectly made, and the spaghetti looks delicious. Ian starts to serve himself, so I do the same. We start to eat, and neither of us talk, it starts to feel awkward again. I take a sip of my wine, it's bitter, I don’t like it, but I don’t show Ian that. He went through so much trouble to make this meal perfect, I don't want to ruin it.

I am almost finished with my food, and we still haven’t said a word. I finish my wine, and I take the last bite of my food. Ian is done as well.

“Thank you Ian, that was delicious.” I place my napkin on the table.

“It was.” Ian said as he stands up and takes some tableware to the sink. He is still being short.

I stand up, Ian turns from the sink and looks at me. “Bathroom?” I ask.

“Down the hall to the right.” Ian points and turns back to the sink.

I get to the bathroom and just stand and look at the mirror. Why is he being like this? I just don’t understand.

Why am I being like this? Addie looks so stunning in that short black dress, she is just tempting me to take her right on the table. I just want to respect her, she has been through so much, why can’t I just tell her how I feel? She is the most beautiful person I have ever seen. Her blue eyes captivate me, her blonde hair so perfectly lays down her back, and her lips. They are so soft and they are calling my name. I can’t believe I didn’t kiss her when she walked in, I know that is what she wanted but, I’m an i***t. Should I just push her against the wall and kiss her? I

I walk out of the bathroom and back into the kitchen, I lean on the wall and just watch Ian clean up after dinner. Should I interrupt him? Just push him against the wall and kiss him? God knows that is what I want. I want him, his perfect body up against mine. We are alone, and we have the chance, but he doesn’t know that it will be my first time. Should I tell him?

Ian stops cleaning up, and places his hands on the counter. What is he thinking about?

“Come with me.” Ian walks to me and takes my hand. He leads me out to the back yard. I gasp, there is a fire going in his fire pit, and white twinkling lights all around his back yard. He takes me to a chair by the fire. It is a little chilly out, I rub my arms as best as I can, this stupid cast is annoying. Ian takes a blanket and lays it across my back. He sits down in a chair next to mine.

“Thank you, for the blanket.” I say as I try to wrap myself up in the blanket.

“You're welcome.” He says and sits back into the chair.

“This is a nice place you have.” I am just trying to make conversation.

“Thanks, I got it from my parents when they moved.” He still hasn’t made eye contact with me tonight. The fire cracks and pops, it warms me up a little bit.

“Sooooo.” I am not sure what to say.

“I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be awkward, I just, you just make me want to take you to bed, but I don’t want to rush into things with you.” Ian stands up and kneels in front of me. “I want everything to be perfect for you Addie, because you are perfect.” Ian walks back inside, he's in there for a little bit. He comes back out with a radio. He turns it on and puts it onto a country radio station. The song “Beautiful Crazy” By Luke Combs comes on. Ian walks up to me and holds his hand out. “Dance with me.”

I take his hand. He pulls me close to him, I wrap my arms around his neck and he lays his hands on the small of my back. We sway to the music, this is perfect. I love dancing with this man. He makes me so comfortable. I look into his eyes, he finally looks into mine. I start to lean into me, I lean into him.

What was that? Something fell on my face, I wiped my cheek, it was water. We both look up and it starts to downpour. We look at each other again and laugh. We continue to dance. This, this is perfect, he is perfect to me. I look down at the fire, it is starting to fade. I feel Ian’s finger under my chin, he turns my head and places his lips on mine. Our lips touch, but barely, he’s being gentle, caring, but I need more. I force my lips onto his, I place my hand on the back of his head and run my hand slowly to the back of his neck, and kiss him even more. The rain starts to come down even harder, but we don’t notice, we are so caught up in each other. I push my body into him, he places his hand on the side of my neck, and I feel his tongue slip into my mouth. It's subtle, but it turns me on even more. I can’t wait anymore. I pull my lips away from his and I whisper into his ear.

“Take me, Ian. I want to be all yours.” He doesn’t hesitate. He picks me up, and I wrap my legs around his waist, I kiss his neck.

“Mmm, Addie.” he moans, I love when he says my name. Before I know it he lays me on his bed and he climbs on top of me. He kisses me even more, he kisses down my body, starting my jaw, then my ear and down to my neck. He stops there, kissing, sucking and biting my neck. He places his hand on my waist, I arched my back, his touch is intoxicating. He slips his hand up my back and unzips my dress within seconds. He stands up and takes off his shirt. I sit up and place my hand on his chest, and run my hand down his abs, I let my nails barely touch his skin, I keep going lower, I get to his belt, and undo it. Ian pushes me back onto the bed and slips my dress off. I am laying on his bed, in a black strapless bra and thong. I look at Ian, he is still standing there, he is biting his lip.

She looks perfect, her tiny little body and her breasts begging to come out of that bra. Her legs so toned, those burns are nothing at this point, all I want is her.

Ian leans down, he starts kissing my inner thighs, he grabs my thong and slips it down my legs. He starts kissing up my legs, he’s right there, so close; kissing my inner thigh, he runs his hands up my legs. He looks up at me, I lay my head back on the bed, he can’t stop now. I feel him, pleasing me, his tongue in all the right places. I grab his hair, letting him know he is doing everything right. Ian starts to kiss up my hips, my stomach, he sits me up and unclips my bra. He kisses me again and lays me back down. He kisses my breast while grabbing the other one. He stands back up and takes off his pants, his underwear follow. His erection is huge. I bite my lip, watching him get naked. I want him now. He slides me up on the bed and gets on top of me. He kisses my neck even more and places his lips on my ear.

I gasp, his erection slowly enters me. Finally. He rocks his hips back and forth, I grab his back and dig my nails into him. I kiss his neck. He is being so gentle, but I want more. I whisper into his ear, “More.” He starts to go faster, and a little harder. I moan, this feels amazing. He sits up, and spreads my legs, he is doing everything right. He’s moving in perfect rhythm my hips meeting his with every thrust. What is this I’m feeling? My body starts to shake, I can’t help but arch my back and let out a moan grabbing the sheets as tight as I can.

“Oh, Addie.” He looks up at the ceiling. His body is shimmering with sweat, he moans. He falls on to my chest, and he kisses my neck one more time and lays down on the bed beside me. Ian pulls me up to him, and we lay there naked for a while before saying anything.

“Adeline.” Ian says as he stares up at the ceiling. He sounds serious, he never calls me by my full name. “I…” He pauses “I love you.”

He said it again, my heart was beating out of my chest.

“I..” I start to say it back. Ian rolls over and gets up on his elbow.

“Don’t. I dont want you to say it back, I just want you to know that I do, and I’m not going anywhere.” Ian kisses me and gets up off the bed, he puts his pants back on, and hands me my dress. I get dressed, and fix my hair. Ian walks up to me, still with no shirt on. I place my hand on his chest and get on my tippy toes and whisper in his ear. I know he doesn’t want me to say it, but I have to let him know how he makes me feel, how I really feel inside.

“I love you.”