UNMASKED FACING THE DEMONS. TAKING OFF THE MASK AND TAKING CHARGE OF THE PROCESS.

UNMASKED FACING THE DEMONS

Chapter 1: Facing The Demons.

Learning new tricks while you drift

I had to start all over. My feelings, my reactions,the very essence of who I was - it all had to be put aside.it was forced to put in a MASK of survival that was not my own.

Becoming Someone I Am Not

To stay alive.both mentally and physically, I had to be tough and strong ways that didn't feel natural. I had to practice things I never wanted to learn:

I had to learn to speak

mean sometimes- not from a place of cruelty , but as a defence mechanism to protect my boundaries .

I had to practice how to take in harsh words without reacting allowing them to hit my mask while protecting the "real me" hidden inside.

The worst part was having to smile and pretend to be quiet when my soul wanted to scream.just to avoid something.

Studying the Mind of the Enemy

I realized I needed new tools to survive this secret war. I couldn't just keep reacting : I had to start researching . I needed to understand how the human mind works.how to control my anger and how to outmaneuver the manipulation.

I became a student of his behaviors. Every day I saw your tricks and every day I studied them. I had to look deeper. I learned to be an observant multitasking research, existing far outside my comfort zone just to keep the peace.

The Silent Separation

This was the turning point: I didn't being hurt,but I stopped being angry with you.i stopped asking questions. I stopped complaining,I stopped begging you,and I stopped being emotional when I saw you trying to defeat me.

Instead I started telling you how things were becoming .I told you how things would be . I started watching you drift into your own traps . The mask allowed me to protect myself until the day I could finally take it off and let you drown into your own sorrows.