I wake up and it's one of those mornings when I can't quite decide what's annoying me most.
is it the fact that I would have to get myself up and get Marva ready for school, or the blinding sun rays that shorn on my face through the window, or the fact that I had to go to work today being a Monday?
Mother did move on with her life. I didn't even exist in her life or heart. if I didn't exist in her heart what made me think I would exist in her heart. if she had one?
My stepsister Marva looked a lot like mom which reminded me of her every time I looked at her. I didn't hate my own mother but hated the fact that she left me for another family. I could have been part of the family or she would have explained all the twists to me I could have understood to some extent. all this made me mad.
I felt I had a sense of responsibility towards Marva. I really did care for her more than I wished to. I couldn't just let the world eat her raw. even to let her hate herself and the world. so I did a few tests and found out that I didn't have any mental disorders or mental problems. I showed this to the hospital management but I still didn't get my job back.
after a week of searching, I found a job that wasn't related to my field of study.
I work with a company that deals with project management and economics which goes by Danto project management and construction company.
I take Marva to school after which a lady that stays opposite my house picks her and stays with her till am back from work. it not the best but it's what I had to do to make sure she was in good hands while I wasn't there and for me to have a free mind while working.
I make sure that Marva is put into the right school bus I turn to get my own bus to the office.