Three weeks into the joint venture, I know things about Ethan Cole I never asked to learn.
I know he takes his coffee black because sugar, he says, is a distraction. I know he argues with me in meetings because he genuinely believes I'm wrong sometimes, which no one on my executive team has dared suggest in years. I know that when he's exhausted, he stops filtering himself, and his unguarded honesty makes me want to stay in the room longer than the agenda requires.
I tell myself this is due diligence. I tell myself a lot of things lately.
We're on a red-eye back from California, the cabin lights dimmed, most of the delegation asleep around us, and Ethan is still awake across the aisle, scrolling through code on his laptop like it's a form of meditation.
"You should sleep," I say. "We land in three hours."
"You should take your own advice." He doesn't look up. "You've read that same page of the licensing addendum four times."
I close the folder. He's right, which is irritating, because I've been reading words without absorbing a single one of them for the last hour, distracted by the particular quality of quiet that exists only at thirty-five thousand feet, when the version of yourself that runs boardrooms gets tired and something rawer starts to show through.
"Can I ask you something?" he says, and something in his voice has shifted, careful in a way it usually isn't.
"You're going to whether I answer or not."
"Why do you visit the cemetery on the second Sunday of every month?"
I go very still. "How do you know that?"
"James does surveillance for me sometimes, background checks on partners before I sign anything that could tank my company." He has the decency to look slightly guilty. "It came up. I wasn't trying to pry."
I could shut this down. I have shut down bigger, more powerful people than Ethan Cole with a single sentence. Instead, I find myself answering, quietly, in a cabin full of sleeping strangers where no one but him will hear it.
"My father died eleven years ago. Heart attack, officially. Stress, unofficially, from watching his business partner try to dismantle everything he built. I visit because I promised him I'd keep the company standing, and some months I need to say it out loud to still believe it."
Ethan doesn't offer sympathy, which is exactly right, because sympathy from strangers has always made my chest tighten in ways I can't afford in public. He just nods, like I've handed him something he intends to be careful with.
"My father worked for a company once," he says slowly, "that accused him of something he swears he didn't do. It cost him everything his reputation, his career, most of his friends. He never talks about it. I've spent my whole life trying to build something so undeniable that nobody could ever say the same thing about me."
"What was the company?"
He hesitates, just long enough that I notice. "Does it matter?"
"Everything matters to me. It's how I stay ahead of people who'd rather I didn't."
"Some other time," he says, and there's something careful in the way he closes that door, gentle but definite, and I let it go because pushing feels, for once, like it would cost me more than it would gain.
We land at four in the morning. Manhattan is grey and half-asleep, and Ethan insists on sharing a car uptown even though our routes barely overlap, and I let him, even though I could have said no, even though saying no is usually the easiest thing I do.
In the back seat, our hands rest inches apart on the seam between us. Neither of us moves. Neither of us says anything about it either, and somehow the silence between us feels louder than every argument we've had over the licensing terms combined.
"This is still business," he says eventually, not looking at me.
"Strictly professional," I agree, and neither of us sounds like we believe it anymore.
When the car stops outside my building, he doesn't get out to open my door, doesn't do any of the performative gestures men usually do around me hoping I'll notice how gentlemanly they can be. He just says goodnight, low and rough with exhaustion, and watches until I'm safely through the doors before the car pulls away.
Upstairs, I don't sleep either. I sit at my kitchen island with a cup of tea going cold and pull up the personnel archive search I started weeks ago and keep abandoning halfway through, telling myself I don't have time, when the truth is I'm afraid of what I'll find.
Tonight, I don't stop myself.
I search Cole. I search technology theft. I search the years surrounding my father's declining health, when Daniel Blackwood was still circling our family like something patient and hungry.
Nothing comes up under Cole directly not yet. But there's a flagged personnel file from twenty-eight years ago, redacted, cross-referenced to an internal theft investigation that was closed without charges. The employee's name has been blacked out by someone higher up the chain than I was born to challenge at the time.
My pulse thuds once, hard, against my ribs.
Someone buried this a long time ago. And for the first time since the photograph arrived on my phone, I start to wonder if the person who wants me remembering my father isn't my enemy at all.
I scroll through the file's metadata, hunting for anything that survived the redaction a case number, an approving signature, anything telling me who sealed an internal theft investigation without ever bringing it to the board. The signature is smudged beyond recognition, but the case number matches a drawer in the basement archive three floors below my office, untouched since we digitized records a decade ago.
I think about calling Marcus. He handled the archive transfer when we moved buildings, cataloguing what stayed and what got shredded. But it's four in the morning, and the last time I brought him a loose thread about our father, he vanished into it and came back with nothing. I'm done accepting nothing as an answer.
Instead I text Natalie, knowing she'll see it the moment she wakes: pull basement archive access logs, last ten years, anyone who's requested case files from the theft investigations drawer. I don't explain why. She won't ask. That's part of why I trust her with things I can't hand to my own brother anymore.
I close the laptop past five, the tea long cold, circling the same question. If Ethan's father is the name blacked out on that file, then the man I've spent three weeks growing dangerously fond of is connected, however unknowingly, to the betrayal that gutted my family. And if he already suspects it if that hesitation on the plane meant more than exhaustion then whatever this is between us was never strictly professional to begin with.
I go to bed without answers and wake with a decision: I am going into that archive myself, before anyone else has the chance to bury it deeper.