Finally he's mine

Chapter 4: The space that protects us

"If they see us together, we both get hurt so I stay 3 rows over"

Ethan's pov

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I walked down the stairs and headed to the classroom.

Ayden looked hurt by my words but that's was the best for us. I'm not interested in him and he's not even sure he's into boys, this was definitely a first time experience for him, he definitely hadn't come out to his parents, I haven't done that either, his parents probably expects him to date normally and someone from his class .

In the school Steve seems to be interested in him,

He's the most popular guy in school, he could make the rest of this school year horrible for me. I had to keep my head straight study hard and get into a good college. I was in deep thought, walking past the art room and I could hear the girls high pitched voices,they were probably getting ready for the event on Friday.

Ohhh yeah good old Friday, I was already exhausted thinking of it . I wasn't performing but I had to attend, the only thing I was going to understand was the cinema stuff.

I loved movies

I walked into the classroom, few students were in the classroom as others were organizing themselves and their groups, probably getting ready for their performance on Friday

I plopped into my chair

I really hoped Ayden understood and was going to keep his distance.

I rested my head on the desk and slept off.

Ayden's pov:

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The ringing of my phone woke me up, my back was aching. I looked around "Ohhh Ayden you're dumb" I muttered reaching for my phone, can't believe I slept on the roof top.

I grabbed my phone and couldn't believe it was 4pm, school was over and I was sleeping on the rooftop.

I looked at the missed call icon, it was my chauffeur

I rushed down to meet him.

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Friday came faster than expected and Ethan was doing a good job staying away from me and it was getting to me.

Steve kept making little conversations with me and I would lock eyes with Ethan occasionally when Steve was around me.

I was confused was he thinking I was going to Steve cus he wasn't reciprocating or was he angry that I was talking to someone that bullied him??

I couldn't tell , Ethan was just unreadable. I could never understand him no matter how hard I tried.

I kept thinking of what he said on the rooftop, I couldn't even say I didn't have feelings for him, I just knew I was attracted to him and always wanted to be around him.

Was that too much to ask???

It was 3pm and the school was still partially empty as students were yet to arrive

I walked past the hall earlier and the decoration team was getting the hall ready .

I kept searching for Ethan but he was yet to show up and I was getting bored .

I picked my phone and began to watch shorts .

Few students arrived and said hi

"Ohhhh you're dressed too casually Ayden"she said giggling

"He's so off the dress code" the other girl

"Was there a dress code" I asked my face giving away my surprise

"You're not on the group?" Lily asked turning to look at me, she was surprised "Give me your number so I can add you to the group" I called out my number

"I'll send it to the class representative so he can add you" She said leaving the room

They were dressed in pink and sky blue dresses, they both looked great .

I really admired women dresses, they are just so over the top when it comes to dressing up.

I wondered what the other guys wore and wondered if I'll look out of place.

I was wearing a simple Jean trousers and Jacket with a white t-shirt under and Nike Sneakers.

"Hi Ethan" I heard from the hallway. I knew he was coming here. I stood up and walked to the back of the door.

There's no way he's escaping me today, I wanted to talk to him and I was going to talk to him.

I watched him walk into the classroom

"Ethan" I called and he immediately turned to leave. I moved faster and grabbed him, unintentionally slamming him to the wall. He raised his eyes to look at me, I don't know what obsession I had with his eyes but I loved it whenever he looked up at me. It was a really beautiful site.

He was wearing gray shirt , black trousers and black loafers, he looked really good.

"Stop staring you pervert and let me go" he was uncomfortable but I wasn't letting him go

"I'm not letting you go" I whispered "you look amazing"

"Ayden let me go" he said struggling to set himself free

"If I let you go , you'll leave and I want us to talk"

"What if someone walks in on us , it's easy to get the wrong idea" he was trying so hard escape my hold but the difference in our builds is really big. He was so tiny compared to me

"I'll let you go on one condition, you'll listen to me and you'll stay with me throughout the event"

"Alright, okay, yes" he gave up . I had won for the first time since I met him. I let him go and he gave me a disapproving look.

"Let's start with the rooftop, when you asked if I was into men, I'd go with a yes because you're the first person I'm attracted to this way and you're a man....." Someone walked in and I paused , he looked at us and walked out.

"I don't understand this feeling yet but I'm willing to work on it , if you're scared of Steve and the other kids in school, I'll protect you, I can do that much" I continued

"What about your parents, do they know you're gay?"he asked

"Not yet, I just found out myself "

"Would they accept you?" He asked

"I don't know yet but my mom's really understand, what about you do they know?" I asked him

"Not yet" he answered looking down

"If you like me and I like you then it's fine, that's all that matters "

"Ayden we lead different lives in different worlds, I won't fit into your world and you won't into mine, if I want to protect you and protect myself we have to stay away from each other " I wanted to say something when the host called for students to gather in the hall.

"We need to go" Ethan said standing up

"Remember your promise, we sit togethe" I said trailing after him.

The hall was packed, the students representative was giving a speech on the podium, students were coming in and picking their seats.

Ethan Walked to the end of the hall, the lights were dim and I was comfortable in such places, I think that's common with introverts.

We picked a seat close to the wall and I sat next to him.

The event started with a speech from the principal, she commended the students on their behavior and listed rules , emphasizing that this rules had to be followed. The students clapped as she rounded off.

Performances began with the school band, they performed a song by Westlife and Ethan sang along. He has a really nice voice.

Next was the chair leaders. It was an amazing performance but I wasn't really into it.

Ethan kept stealing glances

"Do you have something to say to me?" I asked but he shook his head and he smiled and looked away.

It was time for the movie and I was finally hoping I could really enjoy this but it was an educative movie, they were so against kids having fun.

I slipped my hands unto Ethan's lap and interlocking our fingers, he tried to pull away but I held on tightly.

He raised his face to look at me and I bent closer whispering "stay still or others will notice" he sighed and looked at the screen.

The movie was terrible, I mean I'd chose doing chores over watching that s**t.

Ethan was still asleep, he was really handsome even in sleep, I couldn't take my eyes off him.

Students were now dancing at the front of the hall, just a few were still seated, some were making videos.

Ethan opened his eyes "Was I asleep for long" He asked

"No, let's go, the event is over" I stood up

We walked out of the hall, Ethan was still groggy from sleep but he wouldn't let me hold him so I just let him walk on his own

"I can drop you off" I said waiting for him to catch up

"We're not that close and I don't want to be close"

"Why are u confusing me?? This minute you act like there's hope, like things could work out and the next minute you're pushing me away"

"Have you ever considered that it could be for your own good" he asked walking away. I grabbed him and pushed him to the wall

"Let go Ayden" His voice was a low growl

"Everything you've done none of it was for me, your inferiority complex is to blame, your cowardice is to blame, you're just hiding behind that excuse, you're not even ready to fight to be together" I was angry and there was no stopping me

"Why would I fight to be together with u when I don't even have any interest or feelings for u, you're being delusional thinking we can be together when I've never said I liked you" he fired back

I pressed my lips against his face, he struggled to break free but I was stronger. I forced my tongue into his mouth, he was helpless but kept struggling.

I pulled away and stared at me I didn't even have a moment to think of what I had done when he slapped me.

I staggered back, I was taken aback

"You're sick " he spat at me and ran off

I stood nursing my swelling cheeks. I had messed up, I should have controlled myself I muttered