"Wala naman," Sienna calmly answered. "Pinipigilan ko lang na pirmahan ng babaeng 'to iyong kontrata. Sayang naman kasi 'yong effort niya nakaraan na tumakas dahil sa tulong mo." Sumbat niya.
Adam only grinned. "Well, she failed, did she?"
She rolled her eyes. "Is Master with you?"
"He went straight upstairs to his bedroom, to change probably."
"Nagpapambahay ba si Zaccheus?" tanong ng kuyosidad ko. "I can't imagine."
"He only wears white T-shirt and shorts."
"Babalik na 'ko sa kusina, nandito na pala si Master." Tumingin siya kay Adam. "Kapag nalaman kong gumagawa ka na naman ng katangahan, pababayaan na kita."
"Wow, thanks a lot, babe."
She huffed and left the room while stomping her feet on the floor childishly. I pulled a chair for myself and sat there while looking up at Adam, searching his face for any wounds, bruises or cuts. All he had was the fading bruise beside his lips and that's it. Sienna didn't made it sound like it was a big deal when she told me that Zaccheus beat up Adam, however I still worried.
I am not that cold-hearted, I honestly hated that my I'm very empathetic. Tinatago ko lang iyon sa sarili ko, hindi ako diretsong nagtatanong kung okay lang ba sila, sa halip ay pinag-aasaralan ko na lang ang kanilang kilos at duon bumabase.
"That's a surprise, you're really going to sign?" he asked, leaning forward against the chair.
"I don't think I can escape anymore," I answered. "Plus, ang rason lang naman kung bakit ayokong pumirma ay dahil akala ko pang-habang buhay akong makakasal sa kaniya. Marriage means restriction, especially to someone like Zaccheus."
"So you're going to give him a heir?" he pushed.
"No, I'm going to give him a heiress! Ako na nga magdadala ng bata, ako dapat pipili ng gender."
His lips twitched. "I don't think that's how pregnancy works, Mildred."
"It doesn't?" I pouted. "Well, how the f**k does it work?"
"Hindi ko maipaliwanag kung paano, at saka baka mali rin ako. Tanungin mo na lang mamaya si Sienna, marami 'yong mga nakababatang kapatid. Siguradong may alam siya." Tinulak niya na ang sarili niya palayo. "Lalabas lang ako, magyoyosi."
I only hummed and watched as he retreated back.
Walang bumanggit tungkol sa nangyari tatlong Linggo na ang nakalipas, hinayaan ko na lang at inisip na mas makabubuti na iyon. Mukhang wala lang din naman sa kaniya ito, hindi rin siya mukhang pinarusahan at mukhang okay lang siya.
Hinintay ko na lang sa hapag-kainan si Zaccheus, saka pa lang siya nagpakita nang naluto na at dumating na ang mga pagkain sa lamesa. Muntikang umawang ang labi ko sa pagkamangha sa ayos niya.
He wore exactly the clothes Adam said, a white T-shirt and shorts. His hair was messy, and he wore a simple slipers under his feet that looked so cute on him. He still managed to look so intimidating despite that because he wasn't smiling and he always looked like he's frowing and disappointed.
Ngumisi ako. "You're finally a normal person!" I clapped my hands in glee.
He pulled his chair. "Let's talk about the arrangement."
I clasped my hands together on the table and intertwined my fingers. "Hindi mo man lang ba itatanong kung napirmahan ko na ang kontrata?"
"You did or you will," he appeared to be annoyed while settling himself down "If you agree now, we will have the wedding tommorow. I've already cancelled all my appointments, the wedding will only be civil and will be held in he living room. We'll only sign marriage licenses and certificates."
My eyes widened. "I-i..." I stuttered. "I don't have any birth certificates or anything with me. Just like you said, it's like I don't exist. Hindi ba 'yon magiging problema?"
"You don't need to worry about anything, Mildred."
Huminga ako ng malalim para kumalma. "I never been married before, I don't know how everything works."
"Sa papel lang tayo magiging kasal, ang kaylangan ko lang mula sa'yo ay pagbuntisin mo ang magiging anak ko. May iba pa kong kaylangan itanong at linawin sa'yo."
I was already overwhelmed by everything, I don't think I could keep up with him. He was moving too fast.
"G-go ahead, continue."
"You're not in birth control, are you?" he asked.
I shook my head.
"Do you take pills?"
"I stopped taking unintentionally because you suddenly brought me home, hindi mo 'ko pinagpadala ng mga gamit." Sumandal ako sa upuan. "Kapag naapektuhan ako ng matagal kong pagpi-pills, we can always try and try again until I get pregnant. Wait, are we going to have s*x or am I going to be a surrogate mother?"
"s*x is easier."
I nodded in agreement. "Yeah, saka tayong dalawa pa makikinabang. Saka hindi ko alam kung paano 'yong surrogate."
"We'll just f**k, so we can make a use of your experiences in that club." He sounded bitter, like he was offending me as well and insulting me about my previous work.
"By the way, I have a request before I accept and sign."
He ran his hands through his hair, he didn't answer but his attention remained focus on me.
"'Yong sinabi ko kanina sa'yo, gusto kong makalabas ng bahay kahit isa o dalawang beses lang sa isang Linggo para hindi naman ako mabagot."
"Do you have more request?"
That made me smile. "TV sa kwarto kung ayaw mong bigyan ako ng cellphone, baka mamatay ako sa sobrang boring. That's all I want. What about you? May request ka ba sa'kin? Because I remember you telling me that I should learn how to clean and cook, do I still have to do that?"
"Make yourself useful. And swear no third party while you're married to me. Always prioritize the child's well-being, and do not interfere with any of my business. I have a reputation both in the legal and illicit business world, I will be introducing you as my wife to both."
"Sure, kaya kong gawin ang mga 'yan. I will be a good wife to you." I said sweetly, leaning forward with raised shoulders. "So we will get married tommorow, huh?"
He hummed.
"The contract's upstairs, I will sign it after we have our dinner." I picked up my eating utensils. Ipaghahain ko na sana ang sarili nang magsalita siya.
"Ipaghain mo 'ko."
Bumaling ako sa kaniya nang nakanganga. "Excuse me?"
"I thought you said to make yourself useful. Be f*****g useful."
Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. "I haven't even signed the contract yet, asshole. Ugh. Just so you know, I'm still hesistant about all this so I might change my mind about being your wife."
"I highly doubt that."
"Bakit ba napaka-confident mo, ha?"
Hindi siya sumagot.
Binaba ko ang hawak at tumayo, inirapan ko siya habang umiikot para makapunta sa gawi niya. Aksidente kong naamoy ang cologne niya, naamoy ko rin yata ang shampoo sa buhok niya. Sandali kong pinikit ang nga mata upang mas maamoy ito nang mabuti, minulat ko ang mga mata pagkatapos at tinuon ito sa buhok niyang mukhang malambot kung isusuklay mo ang kamay mo rito.
Was I just sniffing him?
"Anong gusto mong kainin?" tanong ko na namumula sa pisnge.
I hate this already.
Sablay ko siyang pinaghain ng pagkain, pagkatapos ay bumalik na 'ko sa upuan ko ay pinaghain ang sarili ko. Nararamdaman ko ang mga mata niya na nakamasid, dahil duon ay mas kumakabog ang puso ko. Just thinking about being married to him makes me nauseous.
That night, after we silently finished our dinner, we went together upstairs to go to my room and I signed the contract in front of him.
...
Kinabukasan ay sinundo ako ni Sienna at pinapunta sa salas. Inasahan ko na kung ano ang bubungad sa akin kaya kahit papaano ay nag-ayos ako nang konti. Pagkababa ko ay may ilang tao na nakaupo sa couch kasama si Zaccheus, ang espasyo sa tabi niya ang natitirang mauupuan kaya duon na ako naupo. Sienna and Adam was also there, perhaps as a witness if I was actually getting married today.
I guess it answered my confusion when Zaccheus and I signed some papers together. I didn't speak and just did what I was told to, but of course I read what I was signing carefully.
Pagkatapos ay naiwan na lang kaming dalawa ni Zaccheus sa salas. Tahimik lang ako sa tabi niya habang magka-krus ang hita.
Bumaling ako sa kaniya. "Was that the wedding? I thought weddings are suppose to be all white? Like exchanging vows, putting on wedding rings or something. Did we just sign our marriage licenses and certificates?"
"It's a wedding, but not a ceremony. But yes, we're married now."
At that moment, I asked myself again if I did the right choice. Inisip ko ang mga mangyayari kung hindi ko nga pinirmahan ang kontrata at muling naghanap ng paraan na makatakas. Hindi ko alam kung tutulungan pa ako ni Adam, ni hindi ko rin alam kung bakit niya ako tinulungan nakaraan. Maliit lang ang chance na makakatakas ako, kapag nahuli ako ay baka mapatay ako ng hindi oras.
This was the safest choice, and there was a contract and he seemed persistent enough to persuade me that he meant to keep our arrangement 'till the end of our deal. My Plan B will always be open if he ever try to terminate our agreement.
"Ah, so asawa na pala kita." Walang sabi-sabing kumandong ako sa hita niya paharap, nakabukas ang hita at nakaluhod sa harap niya. Dahan-dahan kong binaba ang pang-upo ko sa kaniyang kandungan. "Sooner is better, right? Magha-honeymoon na ba tayo?"
His eyes were dark even under the brightness of the ceiling lights. He stayed beneath me, his arms on either side of him. I stared closely to his eyes, searching for lust in there but he looked like he wasn't affected of my seduction.
I grinned and ran my hands up to his stomach, putting my hands inside his shirt. I was simply supposed to turn him on, but I trembled as I felt his tight abs on my plams. He was so warm, and I could feel his abs tightening as I stroked the lines with my fingertips. His breathing remained normal, as for me I was struggling and mostly holding my breath.
Nilapit ko ang mukha ko sa kaniya, bumaba ang tingin ko sa mapula niyang labi na nakatikom. Gusto ko itong makita na nakabukas, gusto ko siyang makita na nahihirapan sa paghinga habang nasasarapan siya sa pagbayo sa loob ko.
Umangat ang isa niyang kamay, nilapit niya ito sa mukha ko at inipit ang buhok ko sa likod ng tenga.
It only took the brush of his fingertips on the back of my ear turn me on. If he was wanted it, I would have submitted easily or maybe I'm already writhing underneath him in pleasure. But he grabbed my jaw and pushed my face away.
"I will be the one to decide when I'm f*****g you, Mildred." Tinulak niya ako sa couch nang tumindig siya, ang kamay niya ay nakadiin pa rin sa panga ko.
I swallowed my saliva, I pressed my thigh together to calm my aching need. "O-okay."
"Another request from your husband, darling." Bumaba ang kamay niya sa leeg ko, bahagya siyang yumuko para bumulong sa tenga ko. "I will be leaving for work again and I don't want you seducing and kissing my guards while I'm gone. Am I f*****g clear?"
Tumango ako. "I want another request."
He added pressure around my throat, I gasped for air and held onto his wrist.
"I want a wedding at the church. With wedding ceremony and reception. I want to wear a wedding gown and full glam make up." A wicked, teasing smile crept across my lips.
"What makes you think I'll give that to you?"
"Then I won't be loyal since hindi naman tayo nagsabi ng wedding vows sa isa't isa. I want a wedding, three weeks from now or maybe next month. If you give that to me, then I promise to always stay loyal to you."
Besides being cold hearted, ruthless, unsympathetic, cruel, arrogant and impulsive. He was also insatiable, controlling, selfish and very possessive. Those were the things I noticed about him, I realized that the reason why he wanted a contract agreement was to claim me and make sure I would be his, that he wouldn't have to share me.
He didn't like to share.
I gotta take advantage of that.
"Natatakot ka ba na kapag tumapak ka ng simbahan ay masusunod ka? Everyone calls you the devil in the underground for a reason, 'diba?"
"Is that your last and and final request?" his fingers dug on the skin of my nape and I hissed in pain.
I nodded, almost choking on my saliva when I swallowed.
His pupils dilated, his nostrils flared like he was subconsciously sniffing me.
"Next month," he granted. "We'll hold a stupid wedding ceremony next f*****g month."