I SHOULD guard my heart. May pagdududa man ako sa ngayon kung siya talaga ang bumaril sa akin pero hindi ibig sabihin no’n na dapat ko na ring tanggalin ang harang sa puso ko.
I know in myself that I already changed. My skills, my experience in manipulating people, and my soft spot with people… I changed it all. Sinigurado ko sa sarili kong hindi na ako basta-basta maaapektuhan sa bawat sasabihin niya kung sakaling magkita kami ulit.
But when he was in front of me, I felt like everything crumbled apart for the second time. The walls I spent years creating, my heart that I tried to be like a stone after all these years… and the unending yet immature love I had for him that I tried to remove like it didn’t even exist looked like every hardship I experienced didn’t matter at all.
I hate it
