One More Minute With Him

That Smile

He laid me down on the bed and then lay down next to me.

We made out for a while then I rolled on top of him. I kissed him as he pulled my shirt off. My hair fell to one side and then I was on the bottom again I pulled his shirt off him and kissed his neck and didn’t stop there I moved deeper under him. Then the phone rang from down stairs. I hated that phone right now. I moved back up.

I stopped kissing him. And he stopped as well.

I looked at him. “Let the machine get it.”

He smiled at went back to kissing me. 

I could hear the machine from my room and every over him kissing me.

“Hey Ari’s. It’s me your brother John I don’t know if you remember me after being gone for a year but umm I’m coming home for a day or too before I go on tour with the band. Now I know mom and dad aren’t home but I want to see my little sister.”

He started talking to someone else.

Brandon kissed me on the lips and I kissed him back.

“Okay. Okay yeah I know.  But Ari I’ll be pulling on to our ride in the next ten minutes. Okay love you little sis see you in an hour.”

Brandon stopped kissing me.

He stood up. Putting on my shirt. I laughed at him.

“What?”

“ Are you going to leave wearing my shirt?” He looked down and smiled. He took it off. I laid on one side.

“Brandon come here.”

 He walked back to me.

“My brother isn’t going to be home for an hour so we still have time to do a little bit.”

“Well if that what you wish then how about this?” He moved over me.

We made out for other ten minutes then got dressed. 

I walked down to the kitchen and got a drink of water.

He kissed the back of my neck from behind me.

I grabbed my books and walked out to the porch that went all around the house.

 He walked down to his jeep and opened the door. He pulled out some books and walked back up to where I sat.

Within ten minutes I was leaning against him as he worked on math with his right arm around me and I worked on English. 

“Okay so how is this going to work?”

I looked up at him. “Huh?”

“Us? How are we going to do this?” he asked. I looked back down at my paper.

“Brandon it’s up to you. I mean if you want this then you’re the one making the rules.”

He didn’t say a word for a bet. Then out of nowhere he said. “I’m going to break up with her.” 

I froze. 

I move away from him. “Why?” 

“Because I- well I just-.“ His smile was weak.

 I smiled the same smile. “Brandon you can’t break up with Michelle.”

“Why not?” He said.

I looked away. “Well for one if you do then everyone plus the teachers would hate you.” 

“Yes but I’m happy to be with you. I’m not happy with her. It’s like the only she wants is sex.” He said as I looked back at him.

“And do you give her want she wants?”

“Only two times.” He said to fast.

I laughed. “What?” He said looking at me confused. “You two have been together for what two years and you’ve only had s*x two times.” I said or asked. I didn’t know what way to put it.

He smiled at me. I fell in love with that smile.

“Wait is that the only reason you want to be with me is to use me for s*x?” He looked at me, and the smile fell.

“I will never want to use you for anything. I will never hurt you. Ever.” He leaned over me and kissed me softly. I smiled and kissed him back. “You’ve never have lied to me and I hope you never will.” I said.

“I promise you I will never lie to you.” He kissed me one last time before headlight come up the drive way we went back to work as John got out of the car laughing. 

“Hey little sister.” I smiled as I put my books down and ran to hug him.

“Hey yourself you’re tall.” I smiled big.

He laughed. “Oh boys this is Arianna, Arianna this is the boys, Tom, Alex, Matt, and our lead singer and my girlfriend Flora.”

Matt moved first to hug me.

“Oh come on John I’ve knew Ari from the time we were ten.” Matt said. And it was true Matt has known me from the time him and John were ten. I guess you could say I had a crush on him for a while. But I was only six years old.

Everyone else just smiled at me.

John looked up at Brandon, then back at me.

“I thought you guys weren’t talking.” He smiled and waved to Brandon. “And why didn’t you asker when I called?” He raised an eyebrow at me. And he was right, I didn’t answer because I was I mean we were up stairs in my room shirtless making out on my bed.

I smiled at him and lied. “We’ve been outside the whole time I guess I didn’t hear the phone ring.”

“Okay, you can go with that but you can’t lie to me.” He grabbed Flora hand and walked up to Brandon who looked at me before standing up a hugging Matt and John.

I looked back at Tom and Alex.

“Common boys let go inside.” I let everyone in before me and grabbed my books.

“Are we going to tell them?” I ask Brandon. “I mean John knows what we were doing before he got here. Well kind of know what we were doing. I think.” 

“I think I should be going. It’s late.” He said before grabbing for his books.

For some reason I hated him for saying that. It was like I didn’t want him to go. To leave me.

“Oh okay.” Is all that I could say.

He walked down to his jeep. I looked at him then at the door that led inside to my brother. I picked up the last of my books and headed for inside. I walked inside and put my books down on the table.

John was showing the boys and Flora the house.

I walked to the sink to get some water.

I guess he didn’t want them to know.  I put the glass down, and just in time. Someone’s hands were on my sides and move down around me.  He moved the hair away from my neck and kissed it. “Brandon I thought you left.”

He smiled against my neck and turned me around to face him. He leaned in and kissed me on the lips.

“But I’m here and I’m not going to leave.” Was all he said.

“So are we going to tell John?” he was the one to ask.

“Well I don’t know last he know we weren’t talking. And that was a week ago.” I said looking around him to watch for John. “Then no?” he asked.

I looked up at him. “Just for now.” I said kissing him one more time. 

I moved away from him, dying not to. I want to take him up to my room and lay on my bed with him all night. But that wasn’t going to happen tonight or maybe ever again. I couldn’t have him. We couldn’t be together. Not like we wanted to be. He was someone else’s and if she know about us then my life would end right now. She would make should that I fell into a river and never come back up. My school would hate me for it. No one would look at me the same ever again. And for Brandon well there no telling what would happen to him. I looked over at him and put a smile on.

He knew it wasn’t really. He walked over to me putting his hands to my face.

“It will work out for us. I promise you.”

I smiled then heard John coming down the stairs and moved away from him.

“Hey Ari does dad have lights in the back I’m going to show them the back but it’s too dark.” He said looking back.

I asked. “Cant it wait tell the morning?”

“No. Well maybe. Does he or no little sis?” he walked up to me.

“Gar someone in a bad mood.” I laughed as I walked over to the back door a got the key for dad’s shop. Giving it to John and walked back to the kitchen were Brandon stood looking at the book of photos I didn’t put up.

I sat down as he looked at the photos.

“I remember these. I remember the things that’s I said to you, the thoughts that ran through my mind when I looked at you. The same looks that I get with you now.”

“And what’s that?”