Kierra
Age 20
In the morning, I am woken up by the door closing. Blake must have just left. The events from last night came rushing back to me. I don't want to be insecure or paranoid, but I've seen the photo with my own eyes. Okay, so he had a girlfriend. Maybe has. Now that he's found his mate, that's over, right? Is she a she-wolf? Is she human? Where did he
find her, when?
For a brief moment, I try telling myself it could just be a friend, but even I know that you don't look at friends like that. I'm not gonna lie, it hurts, I feel like my stomach is eating itself from the inside out. I need to calm down and be rational about this. We are mates. We found each other.
There is nothing more important than the bond. There is no love" or lust stronger than the bond. He is the only one I will ever truly want and love, and the same goes for him. A few deep breaths and a shower later, I am ready to go downstairs to breakfast. I snoop around the room some more, but his phone is gone and there is nothing else that could be construed as incriminating.
Breakfast is a friendly affair, almost the whole pack is here, and our friends and family are hugging us, congratulating us, even teasing us about pups after last night. Both Blake and I are not really there, and he doesn't really look at me or touch me more than he has to, and I am not sure if I should do something about it. All I can think is wrong wrong wrong.
I’m currently eating mashed potatoes but it feels too thick which makes it difficult to swallow down. My friend Blake and his mate April approach us and Blake teases me:
"So the wait is finally over! I'm so happy for you Sam", he beams at us, and April winks at me and mouths "later". I put on what I hope is a convincing smile and intertwine my fingers with Blake's.
His hand is like a cold dead fish in mine. The sparks are there, but in this state of mind they feel more like touching a wet toaster. After breakfast I walk him to his car and lean on the passenger door. Blake stands between my legs and runs his hands down my arms.
"Are you okay babe?" he asks softly.
I look up into his eyes and for a moment, I don't care. I don't care about the other woman. This is my mate, mine! I grab his hair and draw his lips down to mine. He eagerly responds and as I feel his warm wet tongue enters my mouth, I moan. One of his hands tightens in my hair, while the other grabs my ass and pulls me flush against his body.
We are frantic in our kissing, he lifts me up against the car and I wrap my legs around his waist while he deliciously thrusts into my core- I can feel it all through my leggings, I moan, I pant, I can smell our arousal everywhere around us and I break the kiss only to nip at his neck, which causes him to stiffen and stop his movements. His eyes closed, his forehead against mine, still standing core to core, he breathes heavily and chuckles: "Wow. This was... wow."
I lick my lips and rub my nose against his.
"I'll miss you.", I say.
"I’ll text you, okay?" he says, gives me a hug, and gets into his car.
I feel cold and slimy, and deeply unsatisfied. Sadness doesn't even begin to engulf me until I get to my parents house. Once there, I call my big sister and leave a message.
"Hey Dr. Laney, how's med school? Your little sister misses you. I met my mate yesterday. He..." I huff out a breath. "It wasn't exactly how I always imagined it would go. I'm kind of worried. Call me when you have time, I could use your sage advice. Say hi to Lucas for me. Love you!"
On Monday, I knocked on the door of Luna's office. 'Hello, Luna Melanie, could I have a moment?' I said, poking my head into the room.
"Hi Kiera, dear, please, come in. How may I help you?" the kind woman smiles at me.
"Well, you know that last week I found out that Blake Lane is my mate, and then he had to go to Chicago for a month to finish up the last of his exams" I say, and she nods at me. Now for the tricky part: "Well, I was talking to Alaina about how I was missing him and she suggested that I make the trip to Chicago to surprise him" I smile sweetly, just as
I practiced at home.
"That is a wonderful idea, dear!" the Luna claps her hands, cheering for young love. If only she knew.
"Could you give me the address in Chicago you have on file for him for pack correspondence? That way it can truly be a surprise" and here I even hop a little, the true image of a young excited girl. On the inside I feel like a shriveled apple. Blake only texted me three times since he left, all generic "I hope you're having a good day" texts. Lois, my wolf is pacing between depressed and murderous, she is driving me insane.
"Of course, honey, Il just look it up here on the computer... whoop, here it is. It hasn't changed for the last three years, so I'm guessing it's still current." She prints the address for me and we cheerfully say our goodbyes.
When I got back home, I told my parents I'd be driving to visit Alaina this week- I don't want to involve them in my suspicions unless they turn out to be true. My father is the head enforcer for the pack, he would be breaking bones
first and asking questions later. And my mother would never forget that Blake had another woman as his screensaver.
My sister was right, confirm first, worry later. I am a she-wolf with a plan. I input the address in my GPS and I start driving towards my doom. I stop at a mall outside of the city to freshen up and buy some snacks for my stakeout. I am still optimistic and trying to take the whole thing lightly, Alaina's pep talk still fresh in my mind. "You don't know each other well yet... he might need to break up with his girlfriend...the mate bond is stronger than anything else... even Lucas and I had some hiccups in the beginning".
It is 6pm by the time I arrive at the address Luna gave me. It is a nice brownstone, actually too nice. I triple checked the address but it is what she printed out, I have no choice but to sit in my car and wait. I open my huge bag of potato chips and start crunching while listening to one of my saved Spotify playlists. I am still oddly calm about the whole thing. I chose a spot across the street but a little ways further down, so I have a good view of the front door, but have enough time to duck if I see Blake coming. Daddy would be proud. After he was finished whooping my ass for the whole thing. I almost start laughing to myself when I see the door open.
My heart leaps into my throat when I see my handsome mate exit the building, wearing navy slacks and a gorgeous gray sweater, his curls mussed and a big smile on his face. My said heart starts beating at an unbearable volume which I can feel pulsing in my ears and throat when I see the beautiful woman on his arm. He looks down at her with a soft awe in his face, and she is animatedly telling him something which makes both of them burst out laughing.
“No, no, no” I mentally kept saying, looking at them from my car. This is not the same man who ate breakfast with me a few days ago. This is someone who touches this female every chance he gets, from taking her hand to lead her down the stairs to wrapping his hand around her waist and pressing a kiss to her - is that a baby bump!
It is in that moment that I am hit with the knowledge that I will never again eat potato chips for as long as I live because I feel them making their way back from my stomach as I heave and vomit them back into the bag I feel tiny shards of potato cutting my throat and nose on their way up, but the tears that are flowing down my face have nothing to do with that pain and everything to do with my heart being ripped to shreds.