DO NOT ENVY 04082025
955 Words
April 8, 2025
11:26pm
"Do not envy..."
Yesterday, Lord, was very good news for me. At last, You answered my prayer, Lord, for a job meant for me. I’m just waiting now to start training. My family is very happy, and I only told a few close friends about my new job. Thank You also, Lord, for reconnecting me with my elementary friends and classmates. I was really surprised yesterday that they had a mini-reunion, and maybe even today they are still gathering, with some of them participating in a bowling tournament with one of our companions. Thank You, Lord, for the joy You always give me despite the struggles and challenges I face within myself and with others. Time and time again, You remind me not to envy others, and thank You so much, Lord, for always renewing my mind so that I don’t think negatively about others. I no longer care what they think of me; all I want is to know what You think of me right now, Lord. Is this new job safe for me, or does it have any connection to the prophecy given by Sir Champ during the last Soakers?
Proverbs 3:31-32
31 Do not envy the oppressor,
And choose none of his ways;
32 For the perverse person is an abomination to the Lord,
But His secret counsel is with the upright.
It’s still very difficult for me, Lord, to contact people I’ve lost trust in. I don’t know when this feeling will go away or if it depends on how they respond or approach me, whether I’ll be okay with them again. I’m praying, Lord, that I don’t become bitter and that my response to them remains good, even though at the back of my mind, I already have perceptions of what they might do to me. I was able to vent to my Cebu friend about this, but I know, Lord, that we haven’t had a straightforward conversation with them yet. Maybe all of this is just my assumptions, and I’m believing the lies of the enemy that aim to destroy my relationship with them. I pray that I won’t be easily swayed, Lord, and that I won’t envy their groups now where I’m not included. But I hope, Lord, that Mama is wrong and that others aren’t like that—selective about who they include. Whoever is in their group sticks together exclusively. I’m praying, Lord, that we may all have one heart, one mind, and one spirit in serving You. No other agenda but to be aligned with our Senior Pastor, leaders, and us as members and workers. The enemy is working double time now to divide us as a church—small issues are being played in our minds and negativity that shouldn’t even exist. Lord, I pray that these bad attitudes or spirits won’t spread in our church or among every member who is currently part of it. Let there be freedom among us that aligns with Your will, Lord, and not just our own desires. May we not be quick to judge or easily triggered by things we think are happening without us being listened to. I pray, Lord, that our pride will always be removed when we unite as one for You. Help me always choose humility among others and not insist on being right all the time in my perspective but also consider others who may have better suggestions than mine. Let my “Yes” to the people around me please You more than them, and may I not give in to flattery like some others do. Help me, Lord, to be more genuine in my actions and not just pretend in everything I do. Let there always be peace within me so that I don’t dwell on differences with other people. Help me always choose forgiveness over hatred toward others—especially toward close friends who have distanced themselves from me now. Help me be more considerate of others and trust their verdicts on things rather than forcing what I want to happen upon them. Always protect my mind and heart from the people around me because I no longer know who I can truly trust or who genuinely trusts me. There’s nothing about myself that is greater than You, Lord. May I no longer get involved in gossip or spread stories about things other than You, Lord. It’s better for me to share Your goodness always rather than sharing other things. Sorry, Lord, for the times when I let my emotions take over. While I don’t fall into temptation when it comes to lust, controlling my emotions is where I struggle most. Help me recover quickly from situations where I can no longer control myself when anger takes over. Help me always think of You more in situations where it feels like You might get angry too—“What would You do, Lord?” is what I want to think about whenever negative thoughts come up about what action to take.
I know, Lord, that the challenges will only get harder in the coming days—especially now that I'm gradually being assigned as a worship leader. It’s really difficult for me to face people whom I thought were genuine in their actions toward me but turned out not to be so after all. Help me focus more on pleasing You than pleasing the people around me. Let my voice be heard by You instead of judging other people. Strengthen me further during times when my body feels like it can’t hold back anymore and wants to lash out angrily. Help me choose love above all things and circumstances. I LOVE YOU JESUS❤️
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