SECURITY 04132025
1018 Words
April 13, 2025
11:11pm
"Security..."
After 3 days, I was able to write again, Lord, but thank You so much for the good news I received in recent days. Last Friday, I received confirmation that all my requirements were approved, and thank You again, Lord, for the work You have given me. Now, I’m just waiting for the training, but my expenses never stop. I really pray that soon, Lord, I’ll be debt-free and be able to buy the things I want, especially for household needs and for my family as well.
I also enjoyed, Lord, our gathering with my Elementary Classmates and Friends. It was heartwarming to see each other again, and some of them have returned to their respective locations and jobs after the reunion. I haven’t seen others yet, but hopefully, we’ll meet again soon, especially in December. I really pray, Lord, that our reunions will continue and that I’ll have the chance to share a little about You with them. I even laughed because they teased me about being a Pastor. Coming from church where we often tease each other like that—it's something I didn’t expect they would remember about me.
There’s an upcoming Holy Week event, Lord, which is the Family Camp. I hope many will attend and that we’ll enjoy the fellowship with one another.
Proverbs 4:2
2 For I give you good doctrine:
Do not forsake my law
Recently, Lord, some people I’ve been avoiding contacted me. Maybe some of them have sensed that I’m distancing myself from them. Sometimes, I still wonder why they even bother with me if they don’t trust me. I’ve ignored group chats for now and muted their stories to avoid them. It’s not that I’m fed up with them, but it’s just exhausting to keep thinking and overthinking about different things. It’s actually good, Lord, because it helps me avoid saying things I shouldn’t, and I’m praying that I won’t become bitter toward them. Help me, Lord, to still approach them normally even if they don’t trust me.
I’m also curious about the scope of work for my Online Helper job, Lord. I’m really eager to start working with them. Hopefully, I’ll get a response tomorrow morning. Even though the work might be difficult, I pray that I’ll be able to sustain and remain consistent in the role they assign me. The big challenge for me, Lord, is whether I can manage the graveyard schedule while still serving properly in church. I know there’s a verse in the Bible that says, “You cannot serve two masters.” I know, Lord, that You are above all my priorities, but please help me not to give up the role You’ve given me in church. I pray that my work won’t become a hindrance to serving Your kingdom. Always use me for Your glory, Lord, because up until now, I rely on the transformation You bring into my life every day.
I’m facing significant challenges right now when it comes to people in church. I know everyone is imperfect, but when I see people who no longer trust me, I tend to back off. I feel tired of talking to people who don’t trust me. I’d rather spend time with those who listen to me. Even if they’re just being polite, it’s okay because at least I can learn something from them. I no longer want to engage with people from whom I can’t gain anything meaningful. Even if I want to listen to them, Lord, I no longer expect that they’ll trust me again. It would be better if everyone just opposed me outright rather than leaving me overthinking different things.
Always teach me to be humble instead of prideful, Lord. Please don’t let me use my work or accomplishments to think of myself as better than others. I pray that I can contribute meaningfully to the church, the ministry, my family, and lastly to myself personally.
Thank You as well, Lord, because my hunger for playing Pokémon Go is gradually fading away. With other games too—I feel like I’m just dragging myself to keep playing them even though I’m already losing interest. My excitement now is more focused on wanting to work so that my days can be productive and my momentum for learning continues.
Help me achieve the security that can only be found in You, Lord—not in people or work. May our security always come from You so we don’t rely on ourselves. Help us recover from things we’re unsure about—whether what people say about us is true or not. Like in my case, Lord—I wouldn’t even know if they don’t trust me unless I ask them directly. Just knowing this makes me not want to mingle with them anymore because it’s tiring for me. It’s exhausting to keep thinking over and over about how they see me and whether or not I’m still beneficial to them.
I’m tired of thinking about what contributions I can make for them. It’s better for me now, Lord, to just find peace in You and focus solely on You. It’s better for me to give my best effort to You and to the people who truly trust me rather than wasting my efforts on others where it would only feel worthless and useless.
I’d rather concentrate on what You want me to do instead of focusing on others unnecessarily. If it involves them, then I am willing to help—but hopefully they will help themselves first as well.
If there are any people close to me right now, Lord, may they always depend on You and not on me. It’s better this way—that no one comes to rant at me anymore but instead goes directly to You first.
I pray that we all grow together and that they understand why I am acting this way now. In my silence, Lord, may You speak to them about what they need to do for You—not for me. I LOVE YOU JESUS❤️
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