DO NOT BE AFRAID 04032025
954 Words
April 3, 2025
10:23pm
"Do not be afraid..."
Thank You, Lord, for another encounter with You yesterday during MidWeek. I am only now able to express everything that happened yesterday. We were assigned to lead praise and worship, but we couldn’t finish our practice because many people arrived early. Indeed, Lord, You are the God of miracles, hope, and faith. We entrusted everything that happened yesterday during MidWeek to You and the Holy Spirit.
We are also grateful for all the souls who received Your word and worshipped yesterday. Lord, the encounter with You was overwhelming, and I couldn’t stop myself from crying as I reflected on how good You are in our lives. How can I deserve such presence from You, Lord, despite all my sins? Yet You affirm that we are truly Your children. From the songs to the message of unity, You called us as one and as Yours, Lord. We cannot surpass or outdo what You have and can do for us.
Proverbs 3:25-26
25 Do not be afraid of sudden terror,
Nor of trouble from the wicked when it comes;
26 For the Lord will be your confidence,
And will keep your foot from being caught.
At first, I was really afraid, Lord, because we didn’t finish our practice. I even told the team and my co-leader in worship that I might shorten or remove one song just to avoid going overtime. But at that moment, You had already chosen a song for us to sing confidently and boldly for You, Lord, so we could glorify You properly. I overstepped again, Lord, on what You wanted us to do, but Your plan always prevails. Many unexpected things happened yesterday and even today. I received an email about my application being declined because they found someone better than me. I admit, Lord, there will always be someone greater than me in this world. But I won’t let that bring me down because You will always place me where I belong. I just need to keep trying until I find the work meant for me.
Have I done enough, Lord? Or maybe I’ve applied too much and forgotten the main purpose of why You created me in this world? There are days when I think deeply about these things but often release my emotions through games. Thankfully, Lord, I haven’t given in to lustful desires in the s****l aspect—even chatting with someone I like but shouldn’t—I choose not to do it. I fear You more, Lord, and don’t want You to discipline me for something I shouldn’t be doing. Lord, I want to be productive every day and hope to have a job soon. I want to pay off my debts that my family and friends don’t know about. I also want to pay for benefits like Pag-Ibig and SSS that were cut off. Lord, I want to buy the things we need and contribute here at home—especially for our family food and the fuel and maintenance of our family car, which Grace uses.
I have so many desires, Lord, but what do You truly want me to do now and in the coming days? I want to seek You more every day, Lord—more than how I sought You yesterday. I want to cultivate what’s within me towards You so that my momentum in writing and deepening my presence with You won’t be lost. I want myself, Lord, to be contagious to others—that everything that comes out of my mouth speaks of Your goodness—not gossip or things that only spark interest in others. Lord, I want to level up in the things I've learned from You and learn even more for Your glory.
I want to enhance my skills—in singing, video and photo editing—and in the job I'll have in the future so that I can do it properly. Even with part-time work, may I give importance to it even with a small salary. More than what I desire in life, Lord, may it align with Your will so that I can listen properly to what You want me to do. I want to hear more from You, Lord—more than myself—more than my flesh or physical needs. There are times when ideas for writing run out, but everything I do is accountable to You. You don’t judge me for what I do but are always gracious in my life now.
If I do wrong, You easily forgive and give me another chance to correct myself and change. My decision to pursue You more—even after sinning—makes me desire You even more so that I can avoid doing what’s wrong again. Help me also not seek appreciation or credit from people for what I've done. Everything I'm doing for You is only for You—not anyone else.
I don’t want pride or dependence on people’s praise because of my talent. Let the joy from You be my acknowledgment rather than from those around me—be it family, friends, new acquaintances on the street or those who see me on livestreams. Let my singing be a tool to bring people closer to You—not because I'm good at singing or pleasing their ears—but solely for Your glory.
Let Your love overcome my fears so they won’t see me when worship leading—but only see You. Let Your sound resonate in everyone’s hearts whenever I serve You—and let Your joy and peace leave a mark on each person as we sing together as one for Your glory. I LOVE YOU JESUS❤️
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