LET THEM NOT 04012025
937 Words
April 1, 2025
9:52pm
"Let them not."
I told You, Lord, that I didn't write yesterday. I missed a day of writing with You, but there was a purpose because You confirmed in Your Word what You impressed upon me yesterday. This isn't about being triggered, Lord, but I accept and am aware of the fact that not all the people who trusted me before still trust me now. There are boundaries and limits now, and perhaps, it's the same for others. Not everyone can be trusted, only You, Lord. It’s a bit heavy because I could have been blamed for something petty about the crushes of the Youth. Thank You, Lord, for reminding me not to meddle in their affairs. Help me, Lord, not to get involved again because I admit, Lord, that it was wrong. I will stay friends with them but not to the point of getting into the relational aspect, especially with their peers. There is a more suitable leader to guide them, but I won't put myself in that position because, in my past experiences, I unintentionally started fires that shouldn't have happened. It’s okay, Lord, whatever negative views they have of me. Your truth remains evident. I don't need to prove myself anymore for things I can't control. All I want is more of You each day, Lord, more than having friends or being known by many. I’d rather have a few but sincere and genuine ones who also fear You, Lord. I know I have many shortcomings toward others, but You are still changing me up to now. If they still see me as the old me, I don’t bother with it anymore. I trust in You, Lord, and in the things I know You are continuing to change in me.
Proverbs 3:21-22
21 My son, let them not depart from your eyes—
Keep sound wisdom and discretion;
22 So they will be life to your soul
And grace to your neck.
I never imagined that I would have this strong connection with the current YA Core, Lord. Before, I had so many doubts, grinding moments, and even personal issues that caused me to distance myself from them. I’m sorry, Lord, for the times I let other people define who I am. Thank You for reminding me that I am Your child, and no matter what happens, You are sovereign and will always be my Father, Lord. I also never imagined that some of the people I now consider close would have a different side toward me. I can’t please them, and I don’t want to be desperate to get close to them because, ever since, I’ve always been neutral with everyone. I only reciprocate how they treat me. I’m just surprised why they’re like that toward me. Maybe it’s their character and attitude, but it’s still not right, Lord. I’d rather they be straightforward with me than be nice to my face. I did feel they gave me a lot of chances, but I still can’t understand why they see me as my old self. If they’re hurt, why are they still friends with me? I’m glad, Lord, that I’m pushing myself to write to You now instead of venting to others. Even with my family, it’s hard because they’re dealing with their own things, and there are times they can’t share with me. There are moments I can listen to them, but I hope, Lord, that I’m always in the right condition to be a good listener. It’s tough, Lord, that I don’t have someone my age who’s really close to me. They’re either younger or older than me. I really want to reconnect with my friends from high school and college, but almost all of them are busy with their careers or have family lives now. I still pray, Lord, for the right woman for me. She doesn’t have to be perfect, but I know I’m not perfect toward her either. I pray that we complement each other’s strengths and weaknesses and, at the same time, achieve our life goals together. I don’t fully know her yet, Lord, but I will continue to love You. Whether she comes or not, I know, Lord, that Your love is more than enough to live by. But why do I allow others to define me, Lord, when I can just defend myself? But again, I don’t need to prove anything to them. I know my mistakes, and I know I’ve also improved in life, and You are what matters most to me, Lord, not what others say about me. Yes, I welcome correction, but I don’t welcome unnecessary criticism that doesn’t help me, especially when they themselves don’t apply it to their lives. I’m very aware, Lord, that I’m constantly changing, but I hope they also realize what they need to change for the better. I pray that my pride doesn’t take over, Lord, but let Your wisdom convey the right words when I’m having deep conversations with my friends about life’s issues. I don’t want another casualty in our YA group because they chose worldly things. Let there be reconciliation and restoration in every relationship we have now, Lord. May we always learn to forgive first rather than judge others for what they do to us. These are challenging moments, Lord, when it’s hard to know who’s truly for me or even for You, Lord. Let Your love always abound, Lord, despite our differences, and let Your grace always remind us not to abuse it but to glorify Your name even more. I LOVE YOU JESUS❤️
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