JOURNAL OF MY EVERYDAY LIFE MAMF

KNOW YOUR ENEMY 03252025

March 25, 2025

4:43pm

"Know your enemy."

It’s hard to write right now, Lord, but I will endure. Thank You, Lord, for today and for reminding me once again to always be aware of our enemy. I’m in a season of life right now where I feel like I have many adversaries, but first, it always starts in my mind. Why does the enemy always attack me, Lord? At times, I know I have my faults, and I admit them daily, Lord, but those triggering moments, especially from unexpected people, are what’s dangerous for me because my reaction is often intense. There are times when I can’t control it, but thank You, Lord, for giving me enough patience, and sometimes even overflowing, so I don’t get carried away by what others feel or say about me. The attacks are intense, Lord, especially during moments when I don’t think I’ve done anything wrong (as far as I can remember) or even when I’m just given the silent treatment, which sometimes really frustrates me. But thank You, Lord, for teaching me daily how to react or respond to people whose behavior I often don’t like. There are times when their ways can’t be dealt with or corrected, but sometimes, Lord, I just lay it all down and submit everything to You because I can’t fix it. You are the only solution to these problems, Lord, especially when it comes to relationships. I can’t please everyone, and it’s hard to set aside pride just to say that I’m right or they are. I try my best, Lord, to be humble, and at the same time, not fall into false humility. There are people who, even after you’ve admitted your fault, still want to take advantage and make you give in to them. I’m not against women, Lord, but sometimes, they go too far. There are times when it’s always their way. But I pray that there are still women who know how to say no—not to the point of being insensitive, but who know how to stand up for what’s right and correct what’s wrong. I really feel that whether I’m at fault or not, in every conflict, both sides are at fault. Whoever says sorry loses, but I think it’s the other way around.

Proverbs 1:15

15 My son, do not walk in the way with them,

Keep your foot from their path;

Another CHOOSEday (Tuesday) indeed, and thank You, Lord, that I wasn’t attacked during my online teaching. Sometimes, Lord, I feel so overwhelmed by laziness. Lazy to move, to get up, to do laundry, to wash the dishes (though that’s still okay), and other things. There are even times when I feel like I’m forcing my body to function. It feels like there’s no rest because I’m being pulled left and right. I have a laptop, a mobile phone, but let my priorities come first, Lord, and let me always be aligned with You. The battle in my mind is intense every second as I think about different things. I pray, Lord, that I can always think properly and that my thoughts are good. Let my thoughts be more productive and fruitful, Lord, and not dwell on negativity. The enemy really targets my weaknesses, Lord, especially in relationships. There’s so much I can’t comprehend, but my weakness in relationships is severe right now. I never imagined I’d clash with all my close friends. I don’t want it, Lord, but there are times when I doubt them or can no longer trust their actions or even their words. I find truth in Your Word, Lord, and I find joy when I talk to You. I find peace when issues are resolved because of You. Thank You, Holy Spirit, for guiding me up to now, even when I sometimes reach the point of frustration, but You still lead me the right way so I don’t fall into temptation or get carried away by what others do to me. I can’t fully understand myself, Lord, because sometimes I get angry for no reason, dwelling on thoughts of certain people who don’t deserve it. There are times when I imagine them doing things they haven’t even done to me or saying things I don’t want to hear, and I already react in my mind. Thank You, Lord, that You renew my mind daily. I face this, Lord, knowing that I alone am very difficult, and I don’t want to repeat the mistakes I made before because I know I often get angry. There are times when things just need to be talked about, but I can’t bring it up or confront the person because I also consider their condition. I don’t want pride to get in the way, making one of us feel superior and the other inferior. I can’t deny that’s often how I am, Lord, but thank You for changing me every day, especially in moments when I feel like I’m about to break from anger. You are there to keep me calm and collected, reminding me that if I do things You don’t approve of, Lord, what will happen to me? Let my decisions, Lord, always depend on You so I won’t sin, Lord. I’m sorry, Lord, if there are things I do in my own strength, but Lord, I always admit that I can’t do it alone. Knowing my enemy is knowing You even more, Lord, so that their wrong intentions toward me are exposed. Let my mind always be set on You and not on the negative things happening around me. Lord, help me always make the right decisions, not based on what others want to see from me. I no longer want it to always be their way while neglecting You. Teach me always to be humble enough to accept my mistakes and to submit to Your correction, Lord. Let Your divine discipline be upon me so I can align more with what You want me to do. Let Your will be fulfilled in my life, and I don’t want to depend my life on others. You are the only truth I live by, Lord, and help me always discover the things You want me to be. I LOVE YOU JESUS❤️