4 days later *Camilla* I am standing in the warm shower feeling frustrated, in just about any way possible. My need for cigarettes has at least subsided quite a bit, after having snapped at Adriano almost constantly for two days, which annoyingly just makes him chuckle in return and act all overbearing and understanding. Yesterday during my run I met both a gardener and a guy who looked like security, both said they had no cigarettes, and was clearly scared to talk to me. I bet Adriano had a hand in that too. Also I start feeling isolated here, just me and him and so far I have not been allowed to use a phone, ipad or computer ... Yup he actually confiscated all my things, making me almost walk out of here on the second day I was here. But he reminded me of how my father sold me to a f

