Natalia
I've gone insane. Certainly, I have. There is no other explanation. Perhaps I was simply deceiving myself. The true me is still unknown to Alessandro. He is unaware of my darkness. My life is so overburdened with obligations, worry, and trying to look after Johnathan. The temptation to open my heart to him is too great for me to resist. There's a small voice within telling me that I can maintain the image that Alessandro sees and capitalize on it.
He might be able to help me, but eventually, he would be devastated. I'm not lovable. But I wanted him, my heart wanted him. At least I would have a lifetime of memories.
When he kissed me, all my defences disappeared. Like previously, when his tongue pushed into my mouth, it immediately made me feel warm. I struggle against his grip
