Moods Of The Rayne

Chapter 3

Rayne

I stare at Grace from across the library as she reads. Its been a week since she slept over and I've been constantly questioned and teased by my mothers and brother. "Your staring again" I hear from behind me. I turn around to look at via. Shes my colleague and has just come back from leave after her mother died.

"Oh shut up..im..being observant.." I say not looking away from Grace. "Your eye f*****g her..not observing..ask her out" via says as she places a pile of books in my hands. I roll my eyes and I walk over to the shelf..which happens to be near where Grace is sat.

As im putting the books on the shelf i feel a body press against my ass. Hands land on my waist and I look down. My face turns red as I spot the well manicured nails that are constantly painted a matte black colour. "So I hear your eye f*****g me now..." she whispers in my ear.

"I..uh..n..no.." I stutter out as I turn to look at her. She grins at me "im just teasing you darling..I was wondering if I could come over tonight..". I stare at her in shock "what?..w..why?..I mean..yeah sure..". "I just missed spending time with you hun..ill stay with you until your shift finishes then we can go together" she says before kissing my head and walking back over to her seat.

The drive home was comfortable. We listened to music as she hummed along and I watched in silence. Pulling up at my house I groan as I spot my mothers going at it through the window. "Oh!..your mothers are very..affectionate?" Grace says with a small chuckle.

I get out the car and I walk up to the house. "Pg please!..we have a visitor" I shout as I hear mamas moans. I feel hands on my waist and grace whispers "I could have you sounding like that darling". I give her a look as a small smirk appears on my face and I blush.

"Sorry baby..how was your day?" Mama asks as we walk into the living room. "Good..is it ok if Grace stays over again?" I ask as I hug them. "Thats fine..but you keep your hands to yourselves and she sleeps on the floor" mom tells me and I nod.

I sit at dinner with my family and Grace. Her left had rests on my thigh as she eats her food with her right. "So how old are you?" Mama asks. "31..nearly 32" Grace says as she rubs a thumb over my thigh.

"31?!...YOUR CLOSER TO MY AGE THAN RAYNES...baby I don't think you should be seeing her!" My mama shouts. I look at her annoyed "what? Why?!". "Shes 8 years older than you..thats why" ma says getting up. "And?..whys that an issue?" I question with a hint of an attitude in my voice.

"Because..what if she's just using you?..your younger and more vulnerable" Mama says. Meanwhile mom just sits and watches whilst ma stands with her hands on mamas shoulders. "Oh..FUCK OFF...YOU GOT WITH MOM AND MA EVEN THOUGH THEY WERE YOUR TEACHERS AND ARE 17 AND 18 YEARS OLDER THAN YOU!" I scream at them standing up.

"God you sound just like your father.." I hear ma say. Mama slaps a hand over her mouth "eva-...we said we wouldn't tell her!". "W..what do you mean..I sound like my father..I thought you used the same sperm doner as you did with Nathan.." I mutter out as tears spring to my eyes.

Mom looks at me with a sorry look "your uncle Damien.. the one we don't talk to anymore..hes your father..your mama and him had a one night stand when we were on on a break..im sorry sweetheart". She trys to hug me and I push her off.

I look at ma "s..so your saying im like the man that's in prison for killing his wife and children..right..I get it now..G..Grace can we stay at your place..". She nods and we leave.

I wake up the next morning cuddled up to Grace with mascara running down my face and tears staining her shirt. After we got to her place last night I started crying instantly. I fell asleep on her as she comforted me.

Picking up my phone I sigh at the amount of texts and calls from my parents and brother. "Just leave them hun..you don't have to reply straight away..just take a day off for you" I jump as I hear graces voice. "I thought you were asleep.." I mutter as I look up at her.

She shakes her head and pecks my lips. Thats another thing that happened last night. Through my tiredness and distraught state I kissed her. She pushed me away after a few seconds since I wasn't in the right mine but every now and then for the rest of the night she would give me small kisses.

I sit up on her and I pull her into the kiss more. After a few minutes of us making out I finally get up. "Where are you going darling?" Grace asks as she watches me getting ready. "I..want to go visit my father.." I say kissing her again before going downstairs. She quickly gets ready and insists on coming with me.

I stare at the man I now know as my father as he's sat down opposite me. "Hi..im guessing they told you" he says and I nod. "You've grown up to be a lovely young woman..I wish I could have been there.." he says looking genuinely sorry. "Why weren't you?" I ask as I pick at the skin on my fingers.

"I was..mentally unstable at the time..but I was ready to step up as a father..that changed when Charlotte beat me up and told me to never come back.." he explains. "Why did you kill them..your kids and wife.." I ask in a shakey voice.

"I have schizophrenia...the voices..they told me to..I tried to push them down...but no meds could stop them..i really miss Stella and the boys..you..might want to get tested" he explains with tears in his eyes. We talk for a bit more about my childhood. He looks over to Grace "that your girlfriend?".

I look over at her "we haven't put a label on it..b..but..I hope so soon.". "Your mothers have raised you right..do me a favour and don't end up like me.." Damien pleads and I nod. I get up and I hug him before leaving.

The drive back was filled with silence. Grace kept her hand on my thigh the whole time. I look at my phone and I click onto the group i have with my mothers on.

_

THE MOTHERS

ME:

I went to see Damien.

He apologised for not

being there for me.

Why didnt you tell me

about the possibility of

me having his

schizophrenia?

Mama:

We wanted you safe

baby. We didnt mean

to harm you..I love you

please come home xx

Mom:

Be safe sweetheart ❤

Ma:

I'm sorry for what I

said. I love you x

_

I leave them on read. The only reason being that Grace put her hand between my legs. Her hand rests ontop of my clothed core and I whimper slightly. She laughs and kisses my cheek "desperate are you?..wait a few more weeks my darling".

"W..why.." I whine as her hand moves back to my thigh. "I want to take you on a few dates first and I want to officially make you my girlfriend.." Grace says as she concentrates on driving. I smile to myself and I look down. We pull up to my drive and i look at her "ill..text you".

I frown when she starts getting out of the car. She runs around to my side and opens the door. "What are you doing?" I ask as I step out. She takes my hand and walks towards the door "im walking you to the door..".

She turns to face me as we get to the door and her hands cup my face "and I wanted to kiss you goodbye..". Her lips meet mine and I hum. Her tongue pushes into my mouth and I let out a quiet moan. Her hands move to my ass and she uses it to pull me closer to her.

The kiss turns rougher and more passionate as she teases more and more moans out of me. "This makes a change..your normally walking in on me" I hear my mamas voice and I open my eyes. I look at the now open door with a blush on my face "mama-..i-".

She smiles at us "I won't say anything..just don't tell Eva or Charlotte otherwise your girlfriend might be dead". "Shes not-..shes not my girlfriend yet.." I mutter as I look towards Grace.

She pulls me in for another kiss "ill text you when I get home..goodnight darling". I nod and I peck her lips once more before following mama inside. "Remember..dont tell your mothers" mama says as she hugs me.

"Dont tell us what?" I hear ma say as her and mom walk into the living room. I look at them then mama. I close my eyes and grit my teeth when I hear my i***t brother barge into the house "I've just had to hide in my car so I didnt have to watch Rayne snogging the face off her girlfriend".

"Dude!...shut up!" I shout at him. "You kissed her?" Ma asks and I nod slowly. "Rayne wha-" She starts to say. "I'm...too tired for the lecturing..I have work early tommorow" I tell them before walking to my room.