Jay's Love...

Episode 18 : His Past Again

He kept on smiling while driving like a crazy man. I was a bit worried too looking at his condition. Seriously at age 40, a man can behave like a teenager boy in love?? Shocked! Surprise!!

"What were you talking about at home just now with my dad?" I asked him.

"Men talk, why you need to know?"

"Hello! You were talking to my dad, why I cannot know?"

"Because you shouldn't"

"Why I shouldn't?"

"Nothing related to you"

"Okay" Then I saw a grin on his face until ears. I felt so resentful. He is lying to me, assxxxx!! I pretended as though I didn't see him grinning.

"When you plan to move out from Vanda's place?" suddenly he changed the topic.

"Must start to look for a place"

"Get one for yourself, without sharing and you will have more privacy"

"Yes planning on that but the rent will be high"

"What is your budget?"

"About 1000 and for that, I have to chip in 400 extra but I want at the same area as well so I no need to spend extra on transportation as I don't drive"

"I think I can get one for you, nearby your place itself, I will check for you, how many months of notice?"

"1 month only" then both of us silent for a while.

"Your dad asked me to take care of you."

"Why? All this while I was alone only, nobody took care of me."

"Exactly that was the reason" I didn't say anything. I was thinking all this while I was alone only, my dad never says anything to me, once I brought a guy friend he already asks him to take care of me. I sighed too loudly I guess.

"Why?" he asked me.

"I can and I have been taking care of myself all this while so I don't need anyone else to take care of me." He didn't say anything but the grin on his face was missing.

Suddenly I remembered the halfway pending mystery of Jay's past. I wanted to know what actually happened? "What happened to Rose?" I suddenly asked him while looked at him. His face looked very gloomy but he never said anything, there is no more happiness on his face. The smile on his lips gone away immediately. "It's okay if you don't want to talk about it, I understand."

"She passed away the last year-end". I was shocked, I taught she must have cheated on him for another guy. My mouth opened and no words came out. I am not sure how long I was like that. 

"You told me she cheated on you but now you are telling me she passed away, which one is correct?

"She cheated on me by leaving me alone after all the fun and love she gave me. Around June last year, she was sick but at the same time, she wanted to go on holiday with me. I took her to the beachside and we stayed awake the whole night, hugging and kissing each other. We never slept at all. She said she wants to love me to the maximum. Once we were back she felt sicker and need to be admitted to the hospital. The disease was taking over her faster than expected. I tried to fulfill all her wishes as much as I can and getting married was one of them too. I don't have time to marry her legally so I took her and her family members to a temple got married traditionally. She even wanted to have a first-night ceremony with me in that condition. A week after I married her, she passed away in the hospital. She wanted to give all the best she could. I did all the ceremony for her as her husband." I saw tears welled up in his eyes with a threaten to fall on his cheek. 

I was really speechless, for a playboy like him God actually sent such a pure love through Rose. I hope he will realize what is love and it is not s*x only. I didn't look at him for a while and just entertaining my thoughts. He missed his 10 years love marriage due to lust and again he lost pure love due to death. Maybe he doesn't have any luck in love.

"I couldn't take the pain and I started to look for Rose in all the women I know and whom I don't know. I didn't change for the better but I become worst. I started to go out with ladies who interested in one nightstand. I will only have s*x with them once and the moment I realize they are not Rose, I will not go to them anymore." I felt creepy and scared when he told me that. Spontaneously I kept my right hand under my left-hand side but showing him that I am scared of him.

"When was the last you went out with a woman for a one-night-stand?" Before I think this question popped out of my mouth. I turned my head to the left side and slapped my mouth for asking this question. Krish where is your brain, why you need to ask this question to him and now?

"Thursday night" he answered honestly.

"Why break in between 3 days, you should have tried one in my hometown as well." I snapped out and he looked at me, not look but was staring inside my eyes. His staring penetrated my eyes and gave a stabbing in my heart. Krish can you stop it. I told him to stop at the next restroom area and increased the music in the car. I was really pissed off but I have no idea for what. I need to calm down myself. I felt I want to be alone for a while. I don't want to see his face. After 10 minutes he turned in the restroom area. I  just walked out, no idea whether he went out or not. I went to the ladies and when came out I saw a gazebo at the car entrance road but far from human. I walk straight passing by his car, I didn't look left or right, and sat there.

After about 10 minutes he bought hot coffee and sat beside me. I saw him in the corner of my eyes and pretended as though he doesn't exist.