(JOY)
I HAD A GOOD SLEEP. In fact I felt like last night was the best sleep I ever had in forever. Last night when I got into our apartment my body was so relaxed. I feel like I was floating the whole time I was washing up. When I finally fell on my bed I closed my eyes and instantly slept.
I feel good when I woke up that morning, too. Usually, whenever I open my eyes I stay in my bed for long minutes to stare at the ceiling. It was because my brain is most vulnerable when I just woke up so memories of my past floods me. It was in the mornings when I remember James, Martin and Lizzy. It was when I allow myself to feel pain and longing for the life I left behind. It was also my time to check if I am still in love with James. Most of all, it was the time I wallow in guilt by reme
