The Way It Is

Chapter 1

My name is Jay yes I'm a girl and I'm 17 years old 5ft 1 with long brunette hair and a lean fit figure, I live with my Mum and her boyfriend Steph in a beautiful little town in NZ called Timaru I haven't attended school for more than 2 years but I have a morning job in a horse racing stables well a couple of jobs actually I love working with horses I've been around them my entire life and started riding trackwork at 14, I'm not a jockey I only ride the horses for their exercise so that they are fit for the jockeys on raceday if that makes any sense.

Its 12pm and I just got home from a long morning at the track riding as always I left my phone behind so the first thing I do is check it sure enough 2 missed calls from James and a text from James asking what I was doing and if I wanted to come for a drive with him and some others to a gorgeous place about 20min drive called Sandy Point, as I had been doing alot lately I ignored it, I'd had the biggest crush on James since I was 15 and we were great friends and had become even closer since our good friend Cory took his own life more than a year ago I suspected he sort of felt the same way about me but nothing beyond friendship had so far surfaced. I had been attempting meeting other people and lost my virginity to a guy about 6 months ago we weren't going out I'd read the paper a couple weeks later and found he was killed in a car accident although after taking my virginity he hadn't made contact I decided I obviously wasn't good enough for him and didn't try and push him to date me or anything after that night in his car... his name was Craig and he picked me up from my grandparents where I was spending the night, I had to sneak out while they were in bed and sitting in the backseat with him in a carpark down the road he took his pants off, his member was hard but I remember thinking how small it was probably no more than 3 or 4 inches it didn't hurt and there was no sign of blood after less than 2 minutes I told him to get off and I wanted dropped back off so hence why he probably didn't want to speak to me again but all the same I felt a pang of hurt finding out threw the paper then again I didn't really have any mutual friends with him. I've since met a man and we haven't had s*x due to the fact he's about 40 years old so like double my age but he looks only 30 and seems pretty cool his name is Tony. Instead of texting James I decided I'd head over to Tony's for a cup of tea instead and as always since I met him a month ago he was more than happy to see me and put the jug on, "Hey you, I've been waiting for you come on in" he greeted, I smiled back with my usual "Hi Tony" which made him blush slightly and I'd soon learn that something about me made a certain percentage of guys attracted to and dangerously fascinated by me so I walked in and was surprised when I seen another women possibly 5 years older sitting on his couch... "hi I'm Rena I've heard alot about you come and sit down"......

A/N: this is my first attempt at writing so the start may not sound all that great but just a warning future chapters will contain violence, s****l assault, and is based on actual events although places and names have been changed to protect identification, as the story goes on you'll find out more about Jay and why things turned out the way they did. I'll do my best to get several chapters up ASAP