THE STORY OF US

CHAPTER SIX-SEE YOU AGAIN

The thought that am never going see her again never going to see my mom again hurts me so bad, the thought of me having to accept faith having to accept the idea of leaving with another women and having to call her mother it hurts so bad so very bad.

That’s the main reason why I can’t bear to look at her or get any affection from her because just a look at her face or a tiny glint of her voice is enough to make the pain worsen even the more so avoiding her is my best option so far it the only thing I have come to think of, so that is simply what I am doing because it better to avoid her rather than hurt her when she tries to show me love and affection, this is the best option for the both of us if we were to stay and live in peace. I wouldn’t want to be the cause of any misunderstanding between us or give the other any hope of getting closer.

Took a while but I finally got out of bed took a shower got dress got out of the house without her noticing, well she woke when I started the car but at least none of us saw each other for I was quick to drive out the gate before she came down stirs, ha! You don’t know how happy I was at that moment like I was really happy for I don’t know what or how I would have reacted if she saw me and came to meet me I just can’t imagine how my reaction would be but I know for certain that it would be terrifying to the eye sight.

class was a little short today it seems like Mr. chalk couldn’t wait to introduce me to my partner that he had to tell all the teacher to cut short their lecture even he had to cut short his.

I can still remember how I had fallen asleep again during his teaching for it seems to be longest if the closing bell hadn’t rung he would have stood there like a living computer talking writing and calculating even if it took him the whole day I don’t think he could ever get tired.

That is how much he liked his work how much he liked tutoring math the only reason why he wanted to live the class room as fast as possible was because of people like me, no that came out the wrong way, people who were trying to be like me trying to act all brilliant reluctant to learn because they thought they knew more better than him but they didn’t.

I did a background check up of all the things that has been going on and one thing I found out was that of all the teacher in school were treated bad.

Mr. chalk treatment was the worst, He had gone through a lot in the hands of this student I wouldn’t blame him either if he wants to leave the job he loved the most before this student of a mistake came in, for at least am better than them in so many ways yes I play pranks as well but I still take their classes seriously.

My grades were outstanding like I never let the pranks get to my head or stopping me for coming out as the best in school no.

I simply use it to study improving my level of understanding with the pranks solving new calculation forming the perfect equation in my head and then performing the greatest madness wrecking the perfect havoc on them oh! Just thinking of it now simply gives me joy, I would teach this brat how it’s really done by a professional prank master.

Class was dismissed and I was called immediately to the teacher conference to meet my partner like I said Mr. chalk was in such a hurry to introduce us to each other.

Standing outside the door and I could feel my blood already popping through my veins goose bumps arising at the top of my skin my palm getting wet already, This is it, am seeing her again and I don’t have an answer to her question I don’t have a solitude answer to give her or myself, I didn’t know what to do was I to turn back and leave giving Mr. chalk an excuse that I had to be somewhere I needed to find an excuse for I can’t go in there to see her I just cant.

As soon as I turned to leave I saw her coming through the same direction I was about to exit, it seem like the universe wasn’t on my side at that moment I didn’t know what to do I felt my body working on its own accord again for I froze at that moment all movement evolving around me stood still the whole atmosphere stood still looking at me waiting for what would happens next.

Walking up to me closer and closer and closer I could fill my soul melting my feet trembling it was happening again that feelings they were all coming back to me the longing of seeing her again even when I didn’t want to see her some minute ago.

The feeling of wanting to talk to her even when I know she would ask me that question, that feeling of wanting to answer that question and taking her away from the dark even when I myself still couldn’t figure out the right answer to that question all the thought kept whining in my mind even to the extent that I lost my sense of feeling that I couldn’t notice the arrival of another presence her presence until she spoke asking me.

It started with a long silence then it became intense the atmosphere alerting with danger signs the room was getting crowded with no one but us.

”what happened to us yesterday, why did u do what you did

when u didn’t even know me”

she spoke breaking the silence demanding an answer,

Looking into her eyes I could feel my heart beat getting louder my mind getting blank creating enough space a space meant for her creating my thoughts to be all about her she was driving me crazy pushing me to the very edge even by doing nothing but just standing that saying just a few words and looking me in the eye left me all dumbfounded and lost.

I couldn’t tell her how I felt even though I didn’t know or have an answer to explain the intense reaction of my body towards her, for this was the first time in my life since I was born to experience such a thing.

I couldn’t get an answer even when it concern me, I couldn’t control the movement of my own being, I wasn’t pleased with this at all for I was like a captain who had lost the courage to lead his army into battle, like a pirate who had lost confidence in sailing his ship, like a pilot who had forgotten how to fly a plane, a naval officer who had forgotten how to swim the river, I was like a lost soul in the mist of soul rippers, I was a total stranger to my own self it was like I was living in an horror movie, I was so lost.

I couldn’t tell her the truth for I didn’t know what it was, all I could do was to look her in the eye and lie, telling her I just felt it, like she needed to hear those words, but deep down all I wanted to say was, I know how you feel, I have felt the exact same, not that the pain is gone no but still I want to share your pain, no I just don’t want to share your pain no I want it all i want to know how it feels how your able to hold it all in.

I want to take it all away and make you smile ones more, I have never seen you smile before but every day since the day I met you I dream about your smile I mourn for your smile, the curve of your lip the expansion of your mouth reveling every bit of the brightest part of your beautiful sets of tooth ha! Just thinking about it gives me peace within me.

I know I only met you last night but ever since then I can’t get you out of my mind, I can’t erase you out of my head my tender brain seem to have lost its will to work without you, you’ve become the rhythm my tender heart beat to the tune my ears wish to listen to the only memory my brain seem to want to store.

this are the thing I wish to tell her the thought kept ringing in my head wanting to tell her all this but I can’t, even I didn’t know I had all that thought playing in my head all I felt was that something had change, this feeling had change me and I don’t know how if only I have felt this before I would have known but I haven’t and it scary to even think about it.

“I just felt you needed to hear those words that all” the minute I completed that sentence I could see the disappointment in her eyes it was the opposite of what she wanted to hear and I could see the confusion in her eyes as well she was battling with the same reason as I.

Those tears they were the first she had ever cried, she was so strong and so good at keeping her feelings and pain inside but with a single words coming from my mouth I was able to break the strong barrier in her heart making her pour out every single pain in her heart making her live her courage her pride and falling towards my chest showing all of her vulnerability and she wanted to know why, why I had such effect on her or was it because she lost both her parent in one day living her all alone with no relation to struggle with life and all of its hardship.

No that’s not it, she wanted to know all of this and she felt like I was the only one to tell her all this all that she needed to know so she wasn’t pleased with my answer at all she knew I was holding something within me and she was going to get it all out she had a new mission and she was going to execute it no matter what.

“No that can’t be all I think your lying to me”, she was so intimidating with her word like she was a police officer trying to get information from their witness, at that moment I was terrified for it seem like this girl had changed me with every single statement she made every single thing she does, she spotted a lie, a lie that I told and that has never happened to me before for I was the best when it comes to lying but I couldn’t lie to her.

I had done many pranks that when you see them you would suspect it’s me but with the explanation I would give you, you wouldn’t know who to believe whether it’s you or me you would be at the center lost in the mist of confusion but without even thinking she noticed the lie I told.