THE STORY OF US

CHAPTER SEVEN-WAS IT ME

“You hugged me, why, why did you hug me............ you”

“ well everyone needs a hug in times like that or I thought they did”

I gave her an answer as quickly as I could think of one cutting her off before she could complete her statement for I could not take any more she was killing me with every word that came out of her mouth.

I thought those words was enough to make her quit her interrogation but little did I know that she wanted more she wanted more explanation and she wasn’t going to back off not so easily.

Coming a bit closer to me she touched me, touched my arms trying to get that feeling the feeling of yesterday that was enough to break her not knowing how bad she was affecting me for at that moment I felt the world coming to an end coming to it very stop, I felt the stopping of time itself and every single movement came to a very pause even the very beat my heart seem threatening just some minute ago giving all colors of danger threatening to burst out of my chest with every beat over whelming than the other with its sound heavier that rock became all quiet and still with just a single touch her touch.

I couldn’t believe it no I couldn’t take it in for there it was again the feeling, that same feeling I felt yesterday when she brushed her skin with mine, when I hugged her that intense feeling that feeling I couldn’t quite put my finger into, that feeling that always leave me weak and vulnerable to the world to her.

it’s the same exact feeling, like how can she be like this making me lose control over myself, I need to go I need to leave for my own good while I still have a little bit of control over myself I need to break free from the spell that seem to be driving me crazy before my body its self-betrays me, Escaping is my only option before my body start moving in its own accord making the exact same mistake it made yesterday.

I could already feel it my body misses her touch, I need to leave right now, before my mouth starts speaking the words my heart wishes to say the words my brain can’t seem to comprehend getting all worked up trying so hard to figure out what just happened or what I just felt.

With the last strength in me I spoke.

“We should probably go inside it not right to keep our head teacher waiting and most of all its already getting late I wouldn’t want you going late and getting your parents or family waiting for their little girl”

Using my left hand which was free at that moment I creaked opened the door to the teachers office was about to run in when I notice the mood again that feeling that tore my heart that feeling I wished never to see in her eyes again that I would arm anybody if they made her feel that way like that again that feeling I could see it in her eyes and it broke me.

Was it me was it something I said I couldn’t move I had done something wrong I didn’t know what I was broken for I was the reason she was like this again holding all the pain and tears inside again and it was all me, all my fault I was about to speak again for I wanted to know why she became weak and dull all of a sudden but I was denied that chance for Mr. chalk felt the movement of the door and asked who it was that I had no choice but to bottle all the question for another day and go in feeling all weary and sad.

Oh! It's about time the both of you show up, wait how did you guys know you were a team mate before I introduce you guys to each, Mr. chalk was a bit confused to see us coming in together and a minute ago when I opened the door he heard me saying’

“we don’t want to keep the head teacher waiting”, so that was the main reason why he was a bit suspicious and beside we were not allocated in the same department and we were just transferred yesterday from a different institution so how then could we have known each other.

“oh I get it you were on your way here together that was how you met each other and as different who would always be interested in the opposite s*x, started a conversation and ended up knowing you were a team mate yes that its”

I stood there looking at Mr. chalk talking to himself for he seems to be going mad for there was no way we had bumped into each other for my class is a mile closer to his office and hers is on the other side of the school so there was no way we would have bumped into each other so how then did we meet, he kept reminiscing on the present situation that he most likely forgot to fill us on the details of the competition, like when is it starting how much effort do we need to put in, are we going out of the country those little things we are meant to know, he was so lost in his thought that he most likely forgot what time it was or if he had guest with him.

"Sir please if you are done with your thinking on something as little as that can we get the utmost details so we can be on our way for as you can see we have a lot of schedule on our list today or rather we may do the introduction on another appointment which would be most satisfying for us all or don’t you think so"

hmm, she turned to me for a bit of my approval and I gave it out without even having a second thought about it, on a normal day I wouldn’t want to step into the teacher office I just hate the feeling of being inside here but after looking into her eyes again after feeling that pain coming back to I needed to help her leave for I don’t know what I said or did wrong but all I know is that she needed to breathe in some fresh air and she wasn’t getting any from in here.

She needed to let that pain out again and she couldn’t do it here, no she can’t let anyone see that pain except me yes I was the only one allowed to see it.

Oh! No there it was again what is going on with me why am I acting like this all of a sudden, I don’t usually care about things like this so what wrong now, I need to leave now too because this place is already getting to suffocating, I need to go as far away from her as possible I needed myself back and I don’t think I can get it by being here with her I would only be drowning myself into the pool of lost.

"Yes sir I too need to leave I have a launch meeting with my father and you know my father if I am even a minute late he would be really pissed off"

I responded immediately because I knew he wouldn't say no to both of us.

" yeah your right your father isn’t just anyone his time is really precious to him yeah you two can run along we would continue tomorrow and one more thing Santiago can I speak to you privately. There is something I need to discuss with you"

He was a little weary with is words like he wasn’t pleased with what he was going to say next.

I stayed back while she dashed into the hallway like she couldn’t wait anymore she wanted to leave as fast as possible.

"Santiago be calm and still with what I am about to say I don’t want you flaming up and burning the whole office down okay"

I nodded without even knowing if I could take it but with the way he was sounding I wanted to hear it anyway.

"Your father and mother are......"

"Step mother"

I was so quick to say it even if I never wanted anyone to hear about it I couldn’t stand hearing him call me her child I needed to correct him I needed to correct is insolence mistake a mistake I couldn’t bear to hear I was pissed off but what I heard next melted my heart to the very core making me realize my greatest mistake.

It gave me the biggest clue on my unbreakable case on how I hurt her, I kept asking myself was it me was I the one that made her remember what had been hurting her yesterday was I the one that took away the glow and courage that was shown on her some minute ago was it me that broke her to the very core leaving her all lifeless again, was it me.