THE STORY OF US

CHAPTER EIGHT-I DIDN’T KNOW

“Yes your right your step mom I heard you don’t like her but I didn’t know it was as big as this that you couldn’t bear to hear anyone calling you hers, well that's a talk for another day”

he sighed as he continued’

“what am about to tell you is really important, I don’t know what is going on between you and Sidney but you need to cut it off, am sure you guys just met and the feeling is not so strong yet”

“you know your father he won’t let you go far with her for she had become an orphan losing her only parent in a car accident and if you are to start a relationship with her given her hope for a family and in the end your father ends up breaking that family ties by making an arrange marriage like all rich people of his status do she would be broken so I want you to do me this favor and just work with her to get this scholarship nothing more please”

Mr. Chalk was so strict with his warning but I wanted her.

”sir you don’t have to worry about anything please can I leave now if that’s all you wish to say, remember the meeting with my dad”

I needed to go see her for I had realize my mistake and I needed to correct it before it gets more serious I didn’t know how but I think I can make something work for my body seems to know what to do when it comes to her and right now the only thing keeping me from her was Mr. Chalk.

I dashed through the hall way in search of her but she was nowhere to be found, it seems like I had wasted so much time talking to Mr. chalk that she had gone really far, I needed to see her my heart wanted to see her it was aching to the very core it felt like it had hurt something more important to it than the world and it needed to find her no it needed to correct this mistake.

It felt like tearing out bit by bit, minute after minute, seconds after seconds with each time that passes by it seem to be getting worse suffocating me in every way possible getting louder that my ear couldn’t hear any other noise but it silent yet loud noise.

My brain seems to be calculating so much that I could feel my head about to burst into a million pieces and then just like that everything became silent the atmosphere became calm and all I couldn’t hear was my heart beat calming down a little for it had gotten a valuable information from my brain, my head becoming cool for after all of it calculation it had found hope in a place a place where it all ended.

Picking up my phone, I dialed a number it was my favorite restaurant a restaurant my mom used to take me whenever I was sad and down, shortly after I dialed the number I got a response and with an urgent tone I ordered for my favorite meal for I hoped to make up for my mistake I didn’t know if it would be enough but I just have to do something anything.

I took my hills running mile race to the filed after given the delivery man the location of the filed, I wanted to see her I wanted to hold her and tell her it was okay I didn’t care anymore if I would be able to take it but I just needed to get to her no matter what and as fast as possible.

My brain starting a new mission, how to create the perfect apology statement to give to her that wouldn’t make the matter worse and lessen the pain in her heart for I know even if I go to the end of the earth I wouldn’t be able to take it all away no matter how hard I try.

Standing in the middle of the court felling so frustrated beating the net of the tennis court over and over beating it rapidly with the mindset of not destroying it but over working herself till she can’t move no more, she wanted to cry but for some reason it wasn’t coming out she throw the tennis Bart for she couldn’t take it anymore.

Remembering the statement I said yesterday that was enough to make her cry she yelled my name throwing curse at me, why would I bring the pain back after reliving her of it, for I told her I wanted the pain all of it and I ended up given it back at the next minute I saw her she was throwing so many question at me and I couldn’t stand aside anymore I couldn’t wait for the delivering man any more all the speech I had been memorizing all this while disappeared, just like before my body moved again in its own accord but this time I was glad it did for I couldn’t take it anymore.

I couldn’t bear seeing her like that I just couldn’t, she wasn’t just hurt now she was broken I had taken all of her strength and made it mine and today I left her on the verge of pain all alone with just half her strength for she had become vulnerable to the world depending on me to liberate her and without knowing anything I said something I shouldn’t have said for I know the pain of losing a guardian and she lost both her guardian and after seeing how hurt she was I couldn’t think of finding out the reason behind that pain and spoke recklessly so standing there seeing her broken made me hurt the more and I didn’t know what to do so am pleased my body worked with its own brain to free it other part from the bondage of pain.

Am here I wasn’t there before because I didn’t know but am here now, I stood there not knowing what to do but as soon as you called for me even when I was the one that hurt you I moved for I would be the only one to hurt you from now on and the only one to make you smile and I will always make you smile because I still can’t bear to see you sad holding all the pain alone, you asked me why I hug you yesterday that was because I couldn’t bear seeing you like that I couldn’t bear standing there, pointing at the hidden spot behind the court I said, standing there at that very spot I couldn’t bear it just like I can’t bear seeing you holding all the pain bottling it all up again inside, I can’t bear it so please cry all you want because from now on I would like to be the only one to see your tears the only one to get soaked by them for I would be jealous even if it a paper towel that get to be soaked by them, I would like to be the only one to wipe all those tears away, because after today no one would make cry again no one so please cry it all away now its just you and I please share me your pain again I beg of you.

Bursting out in tears releasing every bit of pain in her, she didn’t know how it started but she wasn’t looking for how it would end she wanted to stay here in my presence as long as she could.

she had found peace and warmth in the middle of her anger and she wanted to stay that way for a little longer at least till the pain leaves, this has never

happened before for she was always capable of holding her pain all by herself but now she needed someone to help her hold the pain for her had become too full from holding all those tears that it couldn’t hold it any longer and then I came just in time holding all of her tears all of her pain as soon as it broke out of her.

she didn’t need any reason to be mad at me well not anymore for she found peace in me yes it scares her but she was planning to leave with it for now for she had suffered for way too long so she was willing to take the risk of having a little bit of peace even if it would hurt her again.