THE STORY OF US

CHAPTER TEN-LIKE YOU

Is she real, is she even real, looking like a creation of my own imagination an imagination I didn’t know I possessed until now coming out of my dreams, a dream I never knew I dreamt up until now, liking the same exact thing I like, thinking about the quizzing dish I order for us I smiled.

liking the same exact thing or maybe even more for I saw her smile for the very first time bright and beautiful showing delighted senses, excitement, and emotional admiration towards the food, looking back at it that smile had become the best thing my eyes had ever seen hmm!.

I need to know her know more about her, she is my dream girl; my fantasy I didn’t know I finalize on till I met her. What’s her history, I have done so many background checks and for the very first time, my assignment is yet to be finished, giving my full service, going through all and every single bit of her folder leaving no place untouched.

Yet after all I did to get to know her to know all about her after all of my research time wasted money spent stressing myself to the very core, she still remains a mystery to me, having so much tendency, inclination, and disposition to lead so many people on or rather me, given an attitude of mind especially the one that favor’s one alternatives over the other.

I could fly and also fall crashing right into her airplane propeller with no worries, living or dying bearing on the words she said with no regrets, that’s the kind of effect she had on me when she said those words, “Why, why, why, I can’t seem to forget those words, “why, why, why, the words kept on ringing in my ears, playing in my head, why, relieving me of my pain, telling me you can hold it all for me if I share it with you, but ended up given it back to me, with not less but more pain, why”, those words keeps tearing deep into my heart thou that wasn’t exactly how she said it, but my heart keeps translating it in that way, my ears keeps listening to it in that way, my brain even after knowing what she said keeps storing it in that way exactly like that.

Why that was a word I would have asked myself well I already did but that was then, when I thought I wasn’t interested in anything relationship now all I want to tell myself or say is to take care of her no matter what she mustn’t cry no even a single drop, not even a single tear drop, I just want to care for her all my life I just want to be the one there for her always to worry about her all day long, did she eat, did she skip her meals again, is she okay, has she started to feel lonely again all this thought I want to be the one to think about all those just me.

I picked up my phone, should I call her, is it too soon, is it too early, have been asking that question all through the night steering at my phone unable to sleep, maybe I should wait she might be busy, she ,might be tired from all those work, I kept telling myself that answer all through the night trying so hard to come to a conclusion of what to do for I miss her so bad am dying each second that passes by and I can’t see her am going crazy each second I can’t touch her am having confused thought going on through my brain but no one to correct it and show me the right way to go my heart is aching but I can’t tell her how I feel I can’t let her see me see things the wrong way so I am deciding to go slow with her but going slow has never been my thing I had always gotten what I wanted each time I wanted it at that very spot, knowing exactly what I wanted, but in her own situation I found so hard to know what I wanted and now am taking my time slow in getting what I wanted and its driving me crazy it’s been days now and am still going slow trying to know her trying to make her see me not just as a friend but something more.

Concluding I dialed her number after ringing for about some minute she returned the call.

"hey hello Sidney Humm! It I, I mean it’s me Santiago"

I stammered under my words.

"well hey I thought you had forgotten about me all of a sudden that you couldn’t even find the time to call"

she was a little bit harsh under her words for she had waited for my calls all night longing to hear my voice and now that she heard it she found peace and anger for she kept thinking why would he make me wait for so long to hear his voice after all I went through and all that we had shared yesterday he shouldn’t have made me wait no he shouldn’t have.

"No that's not it I,I" I kept struggling with my words for I couldn’t find the right explanation to give her but I couldn’t find one so I came out with all sincerity.

"am sorry I should have called you but I couldn’t come to a conclusion so I just gave myself excuses am sorry" I spoke with all sincerity that in a second all her disappointment were gone, we spoke for hours, it was so amazing that even time couldn’t keep up with us, if there was an award for how much credit wasted in a call we would have won one.

I so much enjoyed talking to her that I wanted to keep going as soon as my call card got exhausted I would recharge an even bigger amount just to keep hearing her voice but suddenly it came to an end again we were interrupted by another par time job I couldn’t believe it another par time job keeping me away from her could I let that happen no I would have to put an end to that as soon as I can but first I have to get her to be mine to be all mine and have got a plan a solid plan that am sure everybody does to get their partner fall in love.

Before she dropped the phone I quickly asked her on a date for at least in all her schedule there should be a time speared for fun for at least everybody need fun to keep going they need that smile maintained on their face to stay healthy and am not ready to hear that she does not have any.

Staying quite for a while she sighed and said "am sorry Santi but I don’t think I have a spear time this week am sorry"

feeling disappointed I spoke, and the next and the next, she felt I was disappointed but there was nothing she could do she needed the money she needed the money for school, for feeding, giving me sighed she spoke again,"no,have got no time for fun"

That was it the only word that has been driving me crazy all my life when I lost my mom all I said and all I heard was no, no she can’t come back, no you have to let her go, let her rest, no this is your new mother you have to learn to love and respect her, no I don’t have time I have some pending work in the office we will talk later, no am sorry I need to go on a business trip, no I have a meeting so am sorry son next time.

that single word was what I have been hearing all my life and that single was the only word enough to drive me insane, it felt like it was happen again when I finally found someone I want someone I cherish someone I want to be by my side all my life that single word happen to want to come back happen to want to spoil my mood again, no this time I won’t give way to it I won’t let it have it way no, that word no needs to stop, why no, why no, why do I need to always have to hear that word whenever am happy why.

Picking up my phone I called my personal assistance, I don’t normally keep him close always, in a total facts I don’t call him at all since the day my father employed him to work for me I only take him along when am going to see him on a normal day I usually give all the day off but today I needed him to something for me and I needed it done now or as fast as possible he has had enough rest all this while so now he needs to stress all his time to make sure he execute this because I can’t take this I already had my plan to win her over and this no word is not stopping me this time I won’t let it I can’t I won’t not in this life I need to make this work no matter the cost no at all cost even if I have to exceed the cost.