VOWS OF DECEPTION

NO MORE LIES

We were just the two of us now.

Marcus and I. Once husband and wife. In a marriage full of betrayal, lies and alot of deception. I could feel it so deeply.

I could only see broken vows. We were strangers now.

I had broken into pieces.

"Say something, " Marcus pleaded. I just shook my head slowly. "I don't think there's anything left to say. "

"We can fix this. "

"Did you say fix? " I asked him.

Marcus had been my husband of twenty years. We had not had children for all those years. Was it the reason for this betrayal? I felt a sharp pain in my heart. It was really hurting. E. I had been that faithful wife who did not think of any other man and never had an affair ever since we had our vows.

"You've just broken my trust, you've broken and betaryes anything that we shared, the vows, you've broken me and few minutes ago you've left me in pieces. "

Years filled my eyes but I could not let them fall. I had to be so strong for our boy_Fidel. "I stood beside you when we were going through alot in our marriage. I defended you on so many occasions even when everyone else was against you. I believed your words when you told me how much you loved me. Why was I so stupid? "

"Tina please, pleaseee..., " I cut him short, " I thought you would even throw a party to welcome Fidel home, to make him feel the warmth in his new environment. I thought having him was the best thing that has happened to us since the last twenty years. I did not know that I was wrong. "

"What will happen to us, to our plans Tina? " He asked shakingly.

"You have shutterred me, our dreams. "

"Tina it's not like that, I still love you so much, " He said.

He was irritating me and I looked at him from head to toe wondering whether he knew what he was telling me. He had proven who he was and there was no love.

I felt the betrayal

I felt the pain.

The lies.

He had deceived me all this years.

Marcus amidst tears, "I do love you, please Tina. "

"No, you don't" I said honestly.

"Love does not look like this. We have been living a lie all along and there's nothing left between us now. Thank you for showing me who you are, your true colors. There's no need to explain. "

"Tina, Tina please, I was... "

I suddenly cut him short.

"I can't recognize you anymore, you are a stranger. This is not the man I got married to. " Marcus tried to reach me but I stepped back. I kept moving further away. I could feel the room now getting smaller. I felt like it was suffocating me. I could not imagine all the promises he had whispered to me had now turned into lies. The laughter we shared. The good moments. All of that was a lie!

"I am leaving Marcus, " I told him.

His eyes widened, "Leaving? To where? "

"I don't know, " I answered honestly. "But I know I can not stay here anymore. I can not call it home anymore. "

I could not say any more words. I turned and walked out of the house and out of a life that was full of lies, a life I had never thought I would have. I whispered toy precious son, "Let's leave Fidel There's no home for us here anymore. "

I carried him tightly. So innocent he was. He did not know the pain that I was going through at that time. When he gets of age I would definitely explain everything to him. I kissed him on the forehead as a reassurance to him that mum would always be there by his side anytime from now. I vowed to protect him and love him. He was all that I had. My world was crushing but he gave me hope to live and stay strong.

I walked out of the house, I could hear Marcus calling out my name. I did not stop at all. This time round I had decided to choose myself_Tina. This time I did not look back. I had made up my mind.

"Tina, please stop, pleaseee..., " I could hear Marcus calling out but his voice was fading. I could hear him from far. He was walking very fast holding Fidel and my suitcase_my belongings.

I stepped out of the gate, I felt so close to freedom. I smiled to myself. This time I had chosen my peace., my happiness, my freedom.

Immediately I rauested for an Uber and yes within no time I was telling the driver to take me to a far away rest house. I did not want to have this memories of Marcus again. There was alot of silence in the cab. Alot was going through my mind, who was I going to call? my parents or my big sister?

"Madam we have arrived, " the drivers words gave me hope. He helped me check in into Marine rest house. I did not know for how long it was going to be our home.