HE LOVED THE WRONG ME

CHAPTER2: MY HUSBAND LOVES ME NOT

"Aurora? What! the hell are you doing with my husband!" I asked angrily as I look at the face of my sister, which is red from the kissing session she just had with my bastard of a husband! Why will he do this to me?!

"Lilian leave this place and don't make a scene" my husband orders me just before Aurora gives him a heavy slap on the face and runs out of the room in embarrassment. She didn't even have the decency to apologies to me first, she just had to leave dramatically like she always does. She always wants to be the center of attention.

I look at my husband who rubs his now red cheeks, unknot his black tie and sits on the bed.

"Look, I didn't want to do this but you know that I love your sister and not you. I have never touched any woman since we got married but seeing her today, looking as beautiful as the first time I saw her. I couldn't help myself and I am not sorry for what I did." He tells me as if I should just accept everything. As if I am a doormat that he can step on and spit on, that won't react.

His nonchalant attitude enraged the anger and pain I have been feeling since we got married and he started ignoring me. I stood in front of him staring at him and asking myself why I love this man. Yes he is very very handsome and well spoken, yes

he is successful for his age and he is loved by all but this doesn't undermine that he treats me like s**t, this is definitely not the man who saved me years ago on that stormy night! He doesn't even remember how we first met and here he is proclaiming his love for my sister?

"Adrian why will you do this?"I ask him softly in pain and he ignores me as he takes a bottle of water from the bedside table and starts to uncap it to drink

Out of anger I shove the bottle to the floor, the water spilling away.

"What the f**k is wrong with you Lilian!? What did you do that for?!" He stands up and shouts at me angrily facing me.

"What the f**k is wrong with me? Me?! How dare you ask me that when I just saw you sucking face with my f*****g sister! I am your wife for God's sake! You ignore me all year and the first chance you meet my sister, you tell me that you cannot control yourself?! Be f*****g for real Adrian! Do you hate me that much that the second time you kiss after our wedding day is with my sister! Especially with all our family and friends downstairs waiting for us?! We've been married for a year! A f*****g year! And today is supposed to be our anniversary, gosh this is the longest I have ever spoken to you and we've been married for a year! You-you cheating rat! Who do you think you are?!!!!" I shout at the top of my lungs and I am sure at this point we've been heard by our guests...yayyy everyone will know how pathetic I am.

"Who do I think I am? Well Lilian if you do not know, I'll inform you that when I agreed to marry into your gold digging family,I agreed because I was attracted to your sister! Damn it, I still am! You and I know that I cannot stand you and I do not want to be around you! The only reason this marriage still exist is because of the damage it will cause my company but trust me when the time is right I will serve you the divorce papers and you can go on your merry way but for now. Don't you dare question who I touch or kiss. You might be my wife but you do not have that right!"

After this my heart breaks irreparably, and I acted without thinking. Seeing him rant about how much he prefers my sister to me, hurts me and which led to me kissing him forcefully. Maybe with this I will make him love me.

I didn't even last two seconds on his lips before he pushed me to the floor very quickly without a care to my safety. I landed on the floor with a big thud and I felt so embarrassed that I wished the ground will just open itself and let me in. Worse part is I landed on my tailbone, and now it hurts.

"So you are not only a gold digger but also a slut. Wowww, it looks like your family only raised your sister well. No wonder you're forcing yourself on me and you have no value for yourself because no woman will stand living like this with her husband. Look Lilian this kiss you just gave me cannot compare a bit to the one I just shared with Aurora. She is the one I want and if you both could exchange places right now, I definitely will not push you. I have been avoiding you for so long because I am trying to be respectful towards you and it's not because I care for you. It's because I don't want Aurora to hate me for being mean to her sister..."

This words he just said shattered my already broken heart, it made everything worse. I felts so drained physically and emotionally. All the times I slept alone, went out alone, ate alone... everything, I am tired.

"You keep calling Aurora every single time, what does she have that I lack?"

"I don't like her because she's beautiful, no, I like her because she's goal driven, smart, she knows what she wants and she goes for it. She is not moved by my money!"

"But I didn't marry you for money Adrian...I love you Adrian, I have loved you from day one! Please give us a chance" I try to tell him as silent tears rolls out of my eyes.

"Love? I think you should forget about that feeling because I will never reciprocate it to you ever, Lilian. All my love is for Aurora. We will end this marriage soon. Goodbye, I need to tell our guest that the dinner is cancelled and send them home"

He leaves me on the floor in pain, I am emotionally disrupt by his words and actions. This is not the life that I should be living. If I continue like this, I will turn into a ghost. No one loves me, my parents or my husband and I don't have anything to my name. This is the one thing I want, this man, I can loose everything but I can't loose my husband.

I think everyone will be happy if I leave this world. Yes, I will rather kill myself than stay in a world as a divorced wife.