The Alpha and The Very Petty Me

It's almost time

I'm a summer baby my birthday is August 1st and it's the middle of July. I'm about to turn 18 and that means I can find my Mate. Everybody is super excited about it except me. See I know the moon goddess gives us mates so we will have somebody to love us no matter what but I'm not sure that's going to work in my favor. I'm not submissive at all and I know male wolves want a submissive mate and that's just something I refuse to do.

I'm only excited about meeting my wolf who I know is going to have a crazy attitude like me (can't wait). My problem is that I have no friends to celebrate with. All the females in my pack only worry about shifting and if they are going to be Ralph Mate and Luna. My head is on my studies and day dreaming about crazy s**t. I never really gave thought to who will be my Mate.

The closer it gets to my birthday the better Ralph looks and smells to me. I hope my feelings are wrong and my senses are just getting better cause my wolf is on the way to the front. I know if Ralph is my Mate he is going to reject me on site. Why you may ask, cause he knows just like everyone else in the pack my mouth is smart and nobody can stop me from doing or saying anything I want. He is a alpha so he demands respect and I can't promise that he will always get that from me cause he has a bad attitude and smart mouth he say some hurtful and disrespectful s**t sometimes.

Let me take you back about 7 years ago when I first realized that I had a childish crush on Ralph. See him and my older sister is the same age (22) they went to school together. One day she walked in the house with him in tow they had a project they had to do together. I had seen him a bunch of times before that but I never really paid attention. That day when he came in my eyes was glued to him. All I could think was damn he looks better than he did the last time I seen him. I started at him for so long I didn't even she my mom walk up beside me. She smacked me in the head playfully and told me to close my mouth before a fly fly in. I looked at her with shock and embarrassment and laughing then asked do you think he noticed.

After that day I found myself thinking about him all the time. I started going out my way to get just a glimpse of him everyday. I started having nasty dreams about him all the time, waking up hot and bothered. When he smiled and laughed it sounded like music to my ears every time. I remember running to the front room in our house every time Ashley said he was coming over. The fun fact about all this is Jackie liked him too.

She use to tell me I was to young for him and Ralph would never want me not even in my dreams. She found out I liked him by going in my room and reading my diary. She told me she was going to tell everyone in the pack so they could make fun of me. I cried and begged her not to and she said she wouldn't under one condition. I had to stay away from Ralph and not let her catch me drooling over him ever again.

Now, I know it's confusing because I said she is one of the best sisters ever. She is but only when I'm not in her way (that's what she called it) or wanting something that already belong to her. Jackie doesn't know that I heard her and one of her followers named Samantha Morris, in our pack and I'm sure a few more Sam is known as the one who will lay down with anybody but that's neither here nor there, talking about how my sister wear really small clothes, to much smell good that she could choke a skunk, so much makeup that it makes her look dead, and 6 inch heels everyday trying to get his attention by any means. The absolute funniest part about that is he still act like she doesn't exist.

Jackie is not used to not getting her way, but the very rare times that she doesn't she has the worst temper tantrums ever. So to my great pleasure I heard her tell Sam that she is running out of tricks and ideas to make sure he gives her his attention and time. I was about to walk away from her bedroom door until I heard Sam tell Jackie that all she has to do is get him to have s*x with her one time. The plan is to get him to f**k her once and a couple months later tell him she pregnant and he will fall at her feet after that.

The thing with that is they both have mates somewhere out there. She didn't care about hurting another as long as she got her way. Sam told her his Mate won't matter after she claims she is about to have his baby. If their plan works Jackie will suggest for them to both reject their fated mates. All she cares about is being the pretty wife and Luna on his arm. She doesn't care who she drags through the mud with her as long as she comes out of top.

This could go really bad and end up shaming not only her but our whole family too.What will people think if they found out she planned all this bullshit? I will use all my strength left in my body to defeat her cause I will be damned if I'm going to let her embarrass or disrespect my family or our name, I will kick her out the family before she ever tarnish the Knight name. I have to find a way to stop this before a opportunity present it's self. I can only do so much so I pray to the goddess that he can pick up on what she is trying to do before it's to late. Goddess this would be so much easier if I had my wolf already cause then I would be able to go head to head with her and her wolf Vixen.