Married to a rich man

The first love proposal

One day at school when me and my friend Priya were talking . Priya asked me " Do you like Jehan"? I didn't think twice I said "yes, I like him " priya laughed and cracked a joke

"Like or love". I kept quiet. priya told me " I have been noticing you for few weeks , you are too close with Jehan . I feel it is more than friendship . I know you since my childhood zohya , I can notice every little change in you" I was just looking at Priya without uttering a word . Priya continued talking " expressing your feelings and emotions withcan help you work through what is troubling you." I replied "I know I am not the one who used to be before. I will talk to you tomorrow regarding this . I need to think " " Take your own time zohya. remeber I will always be there for you" said priya.

At that time i felt very lucky and blessed to have a friend like Priya . She was always there for me and is willing to walk through that burning building along with me. This isn't to say that she is going to follow me wherever I go blindly. I knew she will help me by identifying the pros and cons of a decision I am about to make, or letting me know if she doesn't agree with what I am doing. She is a supportive friend who understands who knows what I need even before I share. I knew that that she will be with me through thick and thin.

I asked myself, "Am I in love with Jehan"? "what should I do"? I have been thinking of this after going home from school that day. I didn't know if it was love or friendship" I didn't want to loose Jehans friendship by putting the word love in between.Friendships are one of life’s greatest joys. Finding someone we can share our heart with someone who understands and accepts us just the way we are is priceless. When we can have a deep friendship with someone from the opposite s*x, it is a tremendous gift. Jehan was one of those friends even though we didnt have a years of friendship I always feel the strong bond between us.

It was very hard for me to understand the the relationship I had with him . It’s been really hard because sometimes it seems like he likes me and sometimes it seems very obvious that we’re just friends.

One day when Jehan told me that he has a crush on a girl I felt jealous ,I didnt show it to him. But from that day onwards I started to worry about loosing Jehan . I thoughy he would not be the same when he finds a new girlfriend. Many times I thought to open up about it with Jehan but I . I did’t want to lose our friendship .

Next day I didnt go to school early to see. I just wanted to talk with priya and share everything I havr in my mind. That day I came to school with priya and saw jehan near thr ground. I went near him with priya and said "Hi" "Hey zohya , Why didnt you come early today. Is everything ok"? .

"Yes , I couldn't wake uo early today . okay Jehan Il see you later " I replied and went to the classroom with priya and told her everything I had in my mind.

"Priya, I feel that I am desiring more than just a casual friendship with Jehan . I’m currently trying to get over him, because it’s just too hard to see him talking and liking a another girl"

priya held my hand and continued to listen to me . i continued " priya you are my bedt friend you have been in relationship with a guy but I never felt jealous about it. We are still the same and I knew you will always be there for me . But in jehans matter I dont feel it the same way . I am hurt and I dont want to share him any . This is a really new feeling for me."

Priya gave me a small advice " If you feel you love him . Its better to open up about it and share the real feeling you have about him . If not you will suffer daily with mixed feelings. You should be ready to accept the rejection if he rejects . Other than acting and maintaing a fake friendship its better to be honesnt and speak up about your feelings".

Then the bell rang and the class teacher came in so we stopped the conversation.

I couldn't concentrate at school that day . I went home with confused. That Night I couldn't sleep well . It felt like the longest night of my life waiting for the time to come

Next day . As usual I woke up in the morning and went to school anxiously to see him. I didn't know how to propose him . Proposal is an intensely emotional experience . As soon as I entered the gate I saw him standing near the ground. My heartbeat started to beat faster. My palms were sweaty and my knees felt weak. As I went closer I got scared . My brain started messing with me: I started to get nervous whether I was too early to propose him . As always he said good morning to me. "I have a lots of things to say, can you skip your practice today"? I asked . He happily told "yes I can , tell me what do you wana speak"? I was already nervous . I looked at his dark black eyes and asked "what do you think of me?" "hmm what madw you ask it suddenly ? actually you are a nice girl " he said

I didnt want to drag the conversation I started to talk to him directly. " you know Jehan I wanted to talk to you about something. You’re my best friend and you’re the most amazing person I’ve ever met. I just wanted to tell you how I feel . I’ve been feeling attracted to you for the last few

weeks. please don’t feel awkward about this. Don’t get me wrong – I enjoy our friendship and I hope nothing is going to change to the negative. I don’t want to pressure you but I’d be incredibly happy if you felt something for me too.I just wanted you to know how I feel about you because otherwise I’d be torturing myself and maybe blaming myself one day for not telling you how I really feel.” I felt relief after confessing him my feelings. He was just looking at me confused.

I knew nothing is going to happen right after I've confessed my love. I was not expecting his reply all I want was to confess my feelings towards him. After a long silence He said " This was somthing unexpected , " you know that I care for you very much . I think our relationship could really grow into something wonderful.I think we should take more time getting to really know each other"

I smiled and responded " Take your own time" I didn't want to pressure him. I was quiet happy about his response . I didn't drag the conversation I said bye and went to the class room . I started to think about how great it’s going to be when responses me in few months and it’s a positive respons .

Priya came excited to the class to see what has happened. I told her everything and she was happy about it.