The Cursed One : The Darkside of The World

Unexpressed Love

"It's a very rare occasion I can eat luxurious foods like this. I believe you too, right? Just eat it all and enjoy it, Jin." Airin said while continuing to eats.

Airi and Jin continue to eat hastily, they taste all the foods as the most delicious food that they ever taste. Jin used to fast when training with this teacher Baek Ma, and the foods that he often eats are the fruits and then animals that he gets from the jungle. Not different with Airi, her family's hard life makes her only able to eat once a day. Moreover, after her mother was sick, her father low-income as a farmer mostly used to buy medicines for her mother.

A group of people with luxurious outfits are passing by the pavilion where Jin and Airi eat hastily like a starved person. Those people look down at Jin and Airi. "Look at them, eat like unmannered persons. They must come from a low-class society. How can they enter a majestic palace like this? Moreover, they use a luxurious pavilion like that. Our pavilion should be better than theirs." Dae Mangkook said to the vice of the Blue Wind sect.

The vice of the Blue Wind sect feels ashamed by the appearance of the guests that he doesn't know before, moreover, Dae Mangkook feels bothered by their presence. But, right now he could not do anything as he still has to accompany The Mangkook's family group for a special banquet.

"Yes, of course, Master Dae. We arrange something special for a special guest like you and your family." The vice of the Blue Wind sect tried to win Dae Mangkook's heart.

All of them continue to pass by and left Jin and Airi who now noticing their appearance. Jin stares at them, he remembered his past when Hyul, the Mangkook's family heir, was bullying him and made him expelled from the Golden Flame sect, but he never has any grudge on that. He even thinks if that incident was a blessing because after being expelled from the Golden Flame sect, he can meet many new families, including Hyung Jae and his teacher Baek Ma. The only thing that he wants to ask the Mangkook's family responsibility is for Jung Kook's death as they were the ones who made Jung Kook died six years ago. But he must be patient as the Mangkook family is a very strong and wealthy family with a lot of powerful warriors who guard them. Jin decides to ignore them this time and prefers to continue to eats his meals.

Airi noticing Jin's strange behavior when looking at the passing by a group of people. She doesn't know why she feels a little bit scared when she sees Jin's serious face like that. This is for the first time she sees Jin staring at people like that. Although a little scared, she decides to fight that feeling and asks Jin, "Hey, Jin. What are you looking at? Did you see a ghost or something?" 

Airi's question makes him comes back to reality, "Umm... No, it's nothing. Let's eat again." Jin said while putting some food inside his mouth.

As a woman, Airi can see that Jin is hiding something about the passing by group, but this time she can not force him to tells it, she is only able to hope that one day, Jin will shares all his burdens and secrets with her, when she becomes his wife.

"Airi, why don't you try to get a husband from a wealthy family like them? I believe your life will be much better. Anyway, you are beautiful enough to marry one of them." Jin suddenly said. He is an innocent young man who can not read a girl feeling and he just throw out something that suddenly crossed in his mind.

Airi's mood immediately drops to the lowest level. She wants to scream badly in front of Jin that she doesn't need anyone else except him. 

"I've done with my food. I'll go to the bathroom." Airi stops eating, stands up, and left Jin who gazes as he doesn't understand what's happening.

"What's wrong with her? Did I made the wrong question?" Jin asked himself. A question that will never have an answer. "Maybe, her ex was from a wealthy family and he betrayed her? Yes, that is possible." He continued to think wildly about the reasons for Airi's anger. He doesn't know if the real reason is and always Airi's feeling to him.

Airi walks in a bad mood that makes her almost crying, but she holds it as she is now in other people's place and many people are passing by. She doesn't know where the toilet was, she decided to asks if she meet someone again. She meets an old man that looks older than his father but he still seems in top condition and she asks him about the restroom and the old man shows Airi the direction. The old man walks away and she immediately goes in the direction that is shown by the old man.

Airi finally found the restroom and she take a while inside. She doesn't care if Jin is waiting or looking for her because she needs to calm herself down first for a while before meeting Jin again. After a while inside the restroom, suddenly, a feels of guilt entering her heart. She starts to be able to clear her mind and realizes if her bad mood was not because of Jin, but because of herself. Jin doesn't know her feeling for him and she also doesn't know what kind of feeling that Jin has for her.

Airi's hopes for Jin were raised high when he take her on this journey. She thinks if Jin was also like her that he wants to introduce her to his family. Now she is unsure if Jin likes her or not. The more she thinks about it the more hurt she feels, anyway, she doesn't know who Jin is. She starts to think if Jin maybe was coming from a very wealthy family, the proof is that he knows the headmaster of The Blue Wind sect. Not only knows but also becomes brothers with him. 

She now feels as if she was very bad to Jin because she forces her feeling on someone as nice as Jin who might never love her. If Jin was truly coming from a high-class society, she should know her place and must not hope for Jin's love. Moreover, she is no longer a virgin and many men have looked at her body when she works in Xixu Brothel. Although she knows if Jin was not the kind of person who will make this thing a problem, she feels if a person as kind as Jin deserves someone who is still perfect and sealed as a wife, and she doesn't fit that standard. She determining her heart to push her feeling to Jin as deep as possible. For her, it doesn't matter if she will hurt but Jin must be happy. Jin has done so much for her, Hariri, and her mother, she should not ask more than that.

Airi comes out of the bathroom and looks fresh. She won't chase Jin's love anymore. If Jin is his destiny then she will be very happy, but when his destinyn doesn't belong to her, she decided not to get married for life.