eighteen
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Ryder had gone out somewhere, so I can now go see Giovanni without being followed. If me and Matteo keep pretending to be on their side, then we can find out information that will help us save Ryder and his family. I opened the front door before bumping into Lucy.
"hey, where you off too?" She asked
"oh, um just out" I answered
"oh, is it important. I kind of wanted to talk to you" she replied.
"Yeh it is, I'm sorry. Maybe later?" I said.
"Oh Yes, sure" she replied sadness on her face.
Well it's been 9 years what's a couple hours more.
"Come on, don't say it like that. I need to sort something out" I said
"yeah, I get it, do whatever you need to do then little sis" she said sarcastically.
"Seriously, it's a couple hours, what's the difference" I asked.
"It makes the difference Kate! Where are you even going?" She asked.
"What like 9 years difference?" I shouted back.
I shouldn't have said that but I'm right.
"I can't believe you, you don't understand what it was like. I had to go!" She shouted back.
"Oh no, I understand, mum died! Dad got drunk every day and lost all our money! You were all I had. I was just 9, you were 16. I really needed you, but you left me. All alone with no one, not able to protect myself from what happened. You didn't even explain or try to find me. How am I supposed to forgive that? Forget it? If you would have stayed maybe I wouldn't have been sold!" I shouted.
Oh, s**t no, how could I say that without thinking. Her facial expression changed from angry to sad and confused.
"Maybe my life wouldn't be so f****d up and I could be normal! You say I don't understand but I do. You ran away from your problems to live your life. I had to face my problems every day, alone and scared. How could you just leave me?" I shouted tears running down my face.
She stood there quiet and shocked.
"Your right, I was a bad sister. I should have never left you but at the time I couldn't think straight. I thought you all would have gotten better and forget about me. I should have protected you but I never, it's too late now. I know you can never forgive or forget it and I understand. You had it bad, but my life was no better. Don't act like I had a perfect life compared to you! And what do you mean sold?" She shouted back.
I was hoping she forgot about it. Just as she finished the sentence, Ryder walked in. I hope he never heard. He looked at both of us, tears running down both our faces.
"Sold?" He asked sternly.
"I'm sorry" I quickly said to Lucy before running out the house slamming the door behind me. I was about to get on my bike when I felt Ryder grab my wrist.
"Katie, wait, what do you mean? “he asked.
I yanked my hand out of his grip. "Just go!" I shouted before getting in my bike.
"Katie please" I heard him shout before I started my bike. Ugh why are family so annoying? Seriously like. Ok maybe I shouldn't have said that but at least now it's out the way I suppose, she knows how I really feel. I can't believe I let myself say that, I hope they forget about the being sold part. Oh my god I’m so stupid. How could Lucy even pretend she had a bad life when she doesn’t know one thing I went through, beaten, raped, scarred and told to kill people.
I need some time, some space so I will go on a longer ride. The wind was blowing through my hair and the fresh air surrounded me making me feel slightly better.
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