I do a weird thing when I am nervous where I tilt my head back like I am super confident. This is my attempt to fake it until I make it, or at the very least make it easier for someone to slit my throat .
I am inundated with feeling. I feel like a pinball machine on tilt. All the buzzers are ringing, lights are flashing, and I am about to fry my circuits. Nothing is coming in,and nothing is going out. I feel electrified. The wires ignited, sparked, and fizzled. I want it all to slow down. ... I thought I should go and check upstairs and don't wait for Jessy . . . because I don't know when she will come ? so I walk over the upstairs . . . . and gaze up the upstairs and my heart begin to run fast and it's like stuck in my throat .
I took a step and one after another , firmly grip on banist
