Diana I am supposed to be focused on my work, but all my mind can think about is my night with Tony. It is six weeks later, and I can still feel his touch lingering on my skin. My night with Tony ass bittersweet in a sense because it was an amazing night, but that's all it will ever be. I couldn’t get his cell phone number because I knew I will never be able to call him. Having that number would have been a huge temptation and too risky to have in my life. I have accepted that I am trapped within a loveless marriage, at least for a little while, and there is nothing I can do about it. All I can do is ensure my father is happy so he doesn't hurt anyone and wait for when he dies. It isn't ideal, but with the company he is now keeping, the odds of him being killed drastically go up.

