In Love With You

Chapter 17

"Walls"

ERICA's POV

I stayed at the main door of our building waiting for a cab. I can't ride a bus at this rate. The rain is pouring with thunders roaring and lightnings striking the sky. It's the rainy season already. I haven't even noticed it that my colleagues already got their umbrellas since it's been raining lately. It's the "ber-month" already but it feels like days are passing so slow for me.

"Hey, hop-in"

I notice Jaz inside his car when he opened his tinted window. What is he doing here?

"Hi.. what a coincidence. You sure it's just fine?"

I am in no position to take down his offer now. It's the rush hour plus it might flood any moment so I have to hurry.

"Of course"

He smiled and I couldn't be any grateful.

"My sister, Sarah is meeting a client near your building so I dropped her and then I saw you staring at the sky. Seems like your asking the rain to stop."

Did I just did that?

"Really? Yes I begged for mercy I don't have an umbrella you know."

He just laughed at it and it made me smile. Jaz and I haven't seen each other since that day when we kissed. I guest he learned that Ans and I were already dating.

"So, how's Ans been doing?"

I was taken a back with his question. That's exactly my question too.

"Ammm, he's on a business trip. You didn't know? You're working for their company."

I tried asking as he might know something about it.

"I resigned months ago. I told him we can still keep in touch though. But I haven't heard anything from him since I resigned."

Jaz doesn't even need a job. He has his bar and he's also from an elite family.

"Really? Didn't know that."

"So how have you been doing erica? Was it tough not having Ans?"

Is that even a question?

"Of course. We're good. I'm giving him enough time to fix their company."

I thank him as I unbuckled my seatbelt and told him to just keep in touch. No matter what happened, he's a nice guy and we were at least friends.

I saw my parents decorating a Christmas tree as I entered our house. It's beautiful! I reached for the shining snow flakes designs and helped them decorate the tree. It's Christmas in just a month and my family are so excited on menus and gifts already. Even the streets are already breaming with different lights full of decors. Everyone has been so busy and some already took a leave in preparation for the holiday. And yes, it's been three longs months of missing the man I love. I've haven't heard about Ans this week and I can't seem to figure out why. We stayed in contact for the first month though it would just for a short moment but it became rare as months have passed. Sometime he would just leave me a message or his secretary would tell me that I can't bother him at the moment. In some cases, I would even feel his voice so deep that he can't talk to me because he's about to sleep. He might have been in too much trouble lately and I can't find myself to hate him. I don't wanna be a burden to him as well. That's why after our conversation weeks ago, I told him to not think about me so much as I can handle myself and that I can wait. I am just hoping that the 3 months would not be extended again. I miss him so bad. Even his mom can't reach him and she can't even tell me any detail of when he'll be coming back.

Speaking of Moms, she's calling.

"Moms"

I'm expecting that she would ask me to accompany her again. And I love it. She's been too lonely since Tito woke-up and is still unable to walk. He's been recovering a lot now but he can't work anymore.

"Erica ija. You need to come here as fast as you can."

Her tone is so excited and I felt the excitement too.

"Why moms, anything wrong?" Is Tito sick again? I hope he's not.

"No darling, Ans' secretary called to arrange a driver and pick them up at the airport tonight. Now hurry!"

I didn't know what to say. He's coming home? Not telling me? I can't seem to force myself to think of it as a surprise. Does he still care? It's been 3 months of coldness for God's sake!

"Moms, I can't."

I can't face him right now. I don't know why but it feels like my heart is being torn into pieces.

"But why? It's gonna be a surprise for him darling. I'm sure he misses you so much."

Oh yeah. I can feel it.

"But he didn't informed me he's coming home. He might need some rest after all."

He's too much.

"Ow, he might want to surprise you then. Okay, I wont tell him that you're aware his coming back."

I wish that's just the case. But the truth is, things might have changed.

My feet suddenly pushed me to go out. After everything that's running through my mind and with all the questions I've been asking myself, I just found myself at his condo expecting that he would come any moment. I still want to believe that he might be running here any moment to see me. I've been staying here for the last 3 months during my rest days. I always have it cleaned, do what we used to do, eat pizza and talk to myself like he's still here with me. My best friend.

11:00 PM

It's finally 11pm. He's at the airport now. I opened the TV and indulge myself with my favorite popcorn. I glanced at the clock and even just a minute feels like it's been forever. Bakit ba napakatagal ng oras?

I heard a knock at the door and it woke me up. I just realized I've dozed-off at the sofa. I immediately ran to the door and opened it. But no Ans was there. And to my dismay, the knocking of the door was from the movie I've been watching. Why would he even knock? It's his flat.

1:00Am

No Ans arrived. I hugged the pillows with tears continuously running through my face. What have I done wrong?