"The panic fleeting across his face breaks my heart a thousand times more than the past two years have. I never wanted to tell him, but somehow, as with everything in my life, it always comes out involuntarily when I am with him. It s always been this way; it s why he knows every single sordid detail of my past. I have never been able to keep anything from him for long and I guess it s because I have always loved him."
"God, girl, you are such a fool."
" You think I wanted this? You think I asked to start feeling differently about you? Or to even know that s what this emptiness has been? Don t you think I wish I could just push it all away, and be like I was before? I raise my palms in angst. Not sure what else to do. I didn t know until yesterday that this is what is even wron
