Perfectly Fragile

Chapter 2

I was weaker than every wolf in strength so to them I was beneath them. Looking into their eyes was forbidden. If I ever did, I paid the consequences. Another reminder of my lack of belonging.

Regaining my senses, I heard his heavy footsteps barrelling towards me, But I didn't dare move an inch. I could feel his gruelling presence behind me making every hair on the back of my neck stand in fear.

His rough hand curled in my hair as he pulled my head back. Straining my spine painfully as his fist raised no doubt to cause me more damage. My eyes instantly closed as I awaited the assault of the beast above me.

I hadn’t noticed that we weren’t alone until the sound of beta Harris's voice boomed over the sound of my racing heart.

"Alpha Larsen the guests"

The cryptic words of the beta seemed to still the alpha for a moment. His hand released my hair, instantly my body huddled over finding relief in the fact my spine was no longer strained at a painful angle.

The bruising grip on my arms stilled my movements as I was dragged to my feet, His elongated claws punctured the skin on my upper arms drawing more of my blood as it dropped onto the hardwood floor beneath me.

My back pressed against the alphas front as he wound his face around my neck. I could feel his sharpened canines scrape against the skin of my cheek telling me he was mid shift. I was too scared to move frozen in fear even breathing felt forbidden.

"what are you?"

His hatred showed through his voice stinging my ears with vibration of the growl that mixed into his word. My lip began to tremble as I thought back the tears that were fighting to fall.

It didn't matter how many times I had been made to say cruel words about myself. It didn't make a difference to the painful ache that was in my chest. I hated degrading myself like he wants me to but what choice did I have. Knowing exactly what he wanted to hear my trembling voice whispered into the night.

"Nothing Alpha"

Letting my body drop to floor at his feet he stepped over my sore broken body, like I was nothing more than a rotting log. Wanting nothing more than to get away from the monster above me I stayed as still as I could.

His shoes once again in my line of sight. Not daring to look up I stayed on my knees bowed towards the floor. Waiting for his next words and hoping he would leave. My wish came true, but his next words left me just as surprised as when I heard my name.

"The Royals mutts will be paying us a visit in a few days’ time, they have requested to speak to you. You know what to do when you speak with them. I expect you to stay out of the way for the rest of their stay! Am I clear?"

"yes alpha"

The sound of his footsteps retreating towards the open door filled my whole body with relief. As soon as the door slammed shut my eyes released the tears of pain as my hands clutched the ache in my heart.

My heart hurt from the constant suffering I lived through. I longed to fill the emptiness in my life, I wanted the pain to stop but I didn't know how it would.

The walls around me seemed to be suffocating me as I allowed the pain, I felt to be free. Standing onto my wobbly legs I flung the door of my hut open. The night was quickly settling in as the rain still poured relentlessly.

Greedily taking in the fresh damp air allowing it to fill my empty lungs. I closed my eyes feeling the cold drops of rain against my skin. I needed to feel anything other than the pain I felt right now. I needed to find some freedom before I got swallowed whole by the darkness that desperately wanted to consume me.

Running towards the forest that surrounded my hut to find sanctuary between the thick branches of nature. My feet sunk into the watery mud almost causing me to lose balance as I ran into the opening of the trees.

I pushed myself to run despite the stones that cut into the skin of my bare feet as they hit the floor of the forest. My clothes stuck to me like a second skin from the rain as I pushed my weak legs to go deeper into the woods. I didn't know where I was going but I didn't stop until my lungs screamed.

Finally coming to a stop my lungs now burning from the extensive running I had done. My hands rested against the bark of a strong solid oak tree as I regain led my ability to think again.

I felt the spark that lived in me stir as I forgot the pain in my heart. Allowing myself to feel everything around me.

I could feel the strong sturdy bark of the tree beneath my fingers. I could feel the drops of rain that softly touched my skin as it snuck through the thick branches of the tall trees. I could feel the soft wet grass under my feet as it cooled down the burning pain that running bare foot had caused me.

If I could feel I would always try to have hope. I would always try so that one day I can know what it's like to live.

Chapter Two

The slight breeze of the night brushed softly against the exposed skin of my arms and feet. The only signs of the storm left were the small drops of rain than lingered on the branches of the trees dropping down onto the ground like the tears of the forest.

The slightly dampened forest floor felt cool against my exhausted body as I rested against the sturdy tree bark. The pain in my body from the alphas unwarranted attack had numb since I first ran into the night.

The pain in my tired heart however stayed. My emotional strength was dwindling away with each piece of me they chiselled at leaving nothing in its place but hollow emptiness.

I wanted to fight I wanted to live but most the time I couldn't deny that I felt like a sombre existence, living through the motions of each day. I hated that I felt that way it made me feel weak in every aspect of the word.

My mind however wouldn’t have It guess I was stubborn that way. It would be too easy to give up I've come this far I couldn't let go now. I had to cling onto the thread of hope left in me. It was difficult though when I could see no way out, I had every intention of holding on for as long as I could. But how long could I carry on for?

I hadn't thought much about what happened tonight. I just allowed the sounds of the forest to calm me. It didn't bother me much that I couldn't see anything. Only the shadows of the trees that the moon illuminated from its place in the darkened sky.

I had no intention of returning to my hut tonight wanting to enjoy the peaceful serenity I felt around nature. It always helped my refocus. It allowed me time to analyse and think without the constant fear of the alpha showing his face.

I had noticed a few things within the alpha’s words tonight, the first being that other wolves were coming here. Not just any wolves but Royal wolves I won't lie, and I say I’m not nervous about what they want with me because honestly, I'm terrified. I wasn't sure until tonight if anyone else was aware of me being here.

How would they react to a human? What do they want with me?

Why do they want to talk to me?

Questions swirled around my mind as I thought about their motives. I was slightly curious though. It wasn't every day I had the opportunity to meet new people or wolves. I guess I would eventually find the answers to my questions.

The most important thing I realised was the alphas fear. He was afraid of something I didn't miss the double meaning in his words. 'you know what to do'. I wasn't confused about his fear in fact I was certain I knew exactly why it was there.

I was his one liability. He knew it and so did I. I was human I couldn't be controlled by his alpha command I had no wolf willing to submit to the dominant creature within him. I had free will on my side. I was dangerous to him now. Armed with the information to out his crimes, all because of his own neglect to hide it from me. He didn't count on me having the freedom to talk to anyone outside of the pack.

All of this put him at risk, I didn't understand why he would allow them to speak with me knowing this? Maybe he doesn’t have a choice.

If I had to guess I would say he believes I fear him more than I want to live. More than I want freedom to live as I please., Without the constant Torment. But he was wrong. Yes, I feared him I'd be stupid not to. But he didn't realise that by treating me the way he does. He has made it, so I have nothing to lose other than my life. He didn't realise the life I was living was worse than death.

I would prefer death over this life.

The sound of rustling leaves and twigs snapping brought me out of my intense thoughts. Quickly rising to my feet with my eyes glued to the direction the sounds were coming from. I stood on shaky legs as the sounds grew louder. ultimately meaning the source of the sound was also growing nearer.

The suspense was driving me insane as I fisted my hands to my sides. My heart stopped for a moment, when the beautiful yet terrifying creature stepped out of the shadows.

He was an impossible size; he would definitely tower over my small 5ft 2"body. My eyes trailed from his huge paws up his strong muscular legs. Every Inch of his huge body was coated in a silver fur coat.

His thick silver fur seemed to shine under the moons Rays. Only adding to his majestic beauty. The mist forming from his snout led my eyes to his forest green eyes that seemed to be piercing through my entire soul.

I have never been able to look into a wolfs eyes before always having my head bowed in submission. If I ever did, I suffered for my disrespect. But in this moment, I wasn't afraid of looking into the eyes of the beast in front of me.

In fact, I found my head tilting slightly in curiosity. He felt familiar to me which confused me I was certain I had never seen him before. I doubt I would forget if I had.

My trance broke when the beast’s huge paws started to take small steps towards me. Instantly I panicked putting my hands out in front of me and whispering ‘stop’ frantically through my heavy breaths.

Instantly the sounds of his steps against the forest floor silenced. Too scared to move my gaze from the ground out of fear I stood frozen in place.

The sound of a soft whine reached my ears pushing me to look at the wolf again. My mouth hung low as the creature gentle lowered himself to the ground. His ears pushed back with his eyes big. He looked almost like a puppy. I realised what he was doing he was trying to show me he was no threat to me. But why?