This Ani’t No Fairytale

This Is My Life

I never thought that at age 17 I’d be taking care of myself and two kids. My so called mother Bambi, has been in and out of our lives for as long as I can remember. I used to be really lonely till she dropped off Nyshon one day telling me that he is my brother and that I was to take care of him while she “worked”. And I was ok with it for a while. She’d leave me with the baby when I came home from school and she’d always look so pretty. She’d come back the next morning with breakfast and money for groceries. Once Shon started to get older she would come home less and less. I started to miss school and teachers started to notice. I’d tell her about meetings they needed her to come to and she’d come to some but I had to make excuses for the times she wouldn’t. I got so good with my excuses teachers started to believe me plus I got a handle on my studies so I made good grades so teachers had nothing to say. Eventually it got to where she’d show up maybe once a month pretending to care. She’d come with enough money to pay bills for the month and buy food and clothes for Shon. I barely had or ate anything making sure I always had enough for him. She made sure that we knew the only reason she came the times that she did was to make sure we lived so she didn’t get blamed for child neglect. She walked out on us completely two years ago I’ll never forget the day…

Flashback:

“Bre I’m hungry.” I looked into the cabinets and refrigerator and came up empty. “It’s nothing in here Shon, if ma don’t come back soon I’ll figure something out just try not to think about it for now baby brother.” Truth be told I hadn’t seen her in about five months. I managed to pay for food and necessities by babysitting and lucky the people would let me bring my brother with me. “If she comes back” Nyshon mumbled sitting on our old molding couch that doubled as his bed. “I’m sure she’ll come back…she always does.” I had to hang onto some hope for the both of us.

I managed to keep Nyshon’s mind off of food for a while and he finally went to sleep. All I wanted to do was cry. Lately I haven’t been able to make much money. People not needing babysitters and no transportation has made it really hard for me to find work. Me being fifteen wasn’t helping much either. Plus I had to be careful, Nyshon and I basically live on our own if the authorities heard about this we’d be taken away and separated and I can’t have that. He is practically my son, that’s my heart I’d die without him. I had enough money to cover the lights and water and a little to buy some food but that’s been gone since last week. The last of what we had I gave to Shon for breakfast. Usually he eats at school but he is out for summer vacation. I managed to graduate a year early thanks to doubling up on my classes and extra credits. I really do not know what I’m going to do. I have no money and no job and an eleven year old to take care of. This shouldn’t be my responsibility.

Two Hours Later

Bambi walked in with her usual dramatics. This time was different though. For one she wasn’t alone, there was a tall handsome man behind here holding something in a pink blanket. “I don’t see why I keep coming back here” she looked at the one bedroom apartment in discuss. “This is so beneath me, why do I bother.” “Mama”, great now she woke him up. “Did you bring food mama?” “Eww stop calling me that, do I look like I could be anybody’s mother?” Looking at her flawless face and beautiful dress, jewelry and hills no she didn’t look like a mother. The events fallowing will forever live in my memory.

“Jay hand the baby to Brealynn”, tall and handsome then walked over to me handing me the most beautiful baby I had ever laid eyes on. “I named her Morgan Brelle Jones”. “She’s beautiful””I’m glad you think so cause she’s all yours”. Bambi stood and looked down at us putting her hands to her hip. “What are you talking about ma? You can’t just leave us what sense does that make?” “I don’t want them or you so I’m gone. You can leave them and be off on your own for all I care I just don’t need this shi*t.” At this point I’ve about had with this b*tch.” “You sound stupid! I struggle on a daily basis making sure me and Nyshon even eat and you got the nerve to stand here and say you don’t need this sh*t!” Sl*p I felt the sting of her hand hitting my cheek. “I am still your mother you will respect me.”

Now that one actually made me laugh. “Egg donor yea sure but mother you are not.” She raised her hand to hit me again but the man, who hadn’t made a sound up until now, stopped her. “Come love it’s not worth it I got you.” “You right let’s get out of here before we catch something.” He threw a $100 bill on the table and they both walked out the door.

Present day

That was two years ago, my sister is now two and my brother is twelve. I wish I could say it got easier but it didn’t. I don’t have school thanks to early graduation but im barely making it. I live for my brother and sister. I can’t but hope and pray that there is something better than this out there. When I get the chance to say dream I wish my prince would come and sweep us out of this misery.