*Amora*
When I am slowly pulled back to reality I fight it. I just want to stay in the warmth of my dream. I was dreaming about Zac and I want to stay with him ... Yeah I know it might seem dumb from the outside, preferring a dream to reality. But reality right now is too scary to face. And I miss Zac and I love him so much.
The dream was a warm soft cushion, protecting me from everything bad.
Reality on the other hand is cold and clammy. I am shivering badly as I look up at the sky ... at least the sun is rising and hopefully it will give me some warmth. My side hurts and my arm hurts. I have a bad headache too ... yeah it would definitely have been preferable to keep sleeping.
Being awake also means that I have to consider the idea that I might have lost our baby. A thought that
