Chapter 11After the first night I missed the blue pill, I wasn’t quite sure how to replicate the “accident” without being too obvious. Then it dawned on me—take the pills in the bathroom. No screen in there, no one to see me. I hadn’t yet decided not to take the others, but the blue pill wasn’t going back into my body no matter what. I wanted those dreams, damn it. I wanted Kyer with me, even if only when I was asleep.
I waited until my mother brought me the little paper cup holding my pills, then I took it into the bathroom. I swallowed the red and green pills without much thought, then the white after a moment’s hesitation. Maybe the woman on the train went crazy because she got off all of them too soon. Maybe if I spaced out stopping the pills, I wouldn’t feel the side effects all at o
